right...ok folks, i have to go to the hospital today for an appointment, i have border personality disorder?

Question

iam waiting for therapy, im 29.
ive suffered with this disorder for 15 years, the main problems, i struggle with is very low moods, high levels of anxiety and panic, and inner rage feelings towards people at times. im doin really well in managing all this, i look forward to therapy and gaining insight into helping myself.
however because of my symptoms i only go out when i have to, ie, to pay bills, get food, get shopping, etc.
and today, this morning, im getting into a panic because i know i have to venture out to the hospital, and unfortunatly because i do suffer from inner rage feelings, and in the distant past now, i have had rage attacks, i also have great panic and anxiety. i can feel paranoid and uneasy about people at times, and can think their persecuting me in some way, staring at me, and treating me different.
i realise these feelings are one of the triggers for my past rage attacks, where ive lost control.
im just wonderin if anybody can give me any advice today as i

as i have to venture out, ? and am getting into a panic and always worry about losin control..
dont say seek therapy, because its on its way....has anyone got any advice and tips for me today on possibly how to manage my inner rage if i get the feelings??

Answer 1

Positive thinking. Positive statements and affirmations about myself always help me. Thinking about things that make me happy always help me. I have been where you are, and all I can say is I got over it through positive thinking and believing in myself.

1. I am beautiful
2. I am calm ,relaxed and at ease
3. I am a good person
4. I am going to communicate well/
Several others you can think of, any help. Say about 50 times each and imagine yourself doing well.
3.

Answer 2

Well done on seeking help. Good luck with the appointment today.

My advice would be - take a few deep breaths before walking out the front door, relax, there are millions of people out and about thismorning - they won't be looking at you, they'll have other things on their minds - ie, what sort of day they'll have, what they're having for dinner tonight, will they be late for work etc.
Keep a safe distance from people on the streets, if someone walks past you turn your head away, cross the road if neccessary to avoid confrontation.
You say people treat you 'differently' - we are all treated differently, this is down to age, sex and what colour we are. We have to be treated as individuals - even you. You are individual and unique. What a boring world it would be if we were all the same!

Anyhow, have a great day, enjoy the fresh air when you go out, take deep breaths and most of all.....gain from the experience of having therapy. Good luck with the appointment and we're all rooting for you. You life will change for the better. You will be a free person following therapy - you'll enjoy life - afterall, we only have 1 crack at it!

Answer 3

You should expect to feel this way. You are really taking a big step and the change that goes with going to therapy will have to find a place in your normal routine. Until it does (maybe just today) you will encounter many triggers.

Just keep telling yourself why you are doing this that should bring you to more normal levels. You are used to handling yourself..this is harder but you will get even better.

I wish you the best and hope you will get what you want out of therapy.

Answer 4

If you breath steadily and not too deeply and just tell yourself in a couple of hours it will be over. Keep thinking I'm here because these people want to help me and anyone elses thoughts about me don't matter. If people stare at you they must have something wrong with them as well and again what they think about you doesn't matter.
Although you haven't had it yet counselling will help you immensely with these feelings - it did me very much. I really feel for you on this one as there's no great miraculous answer for it.

Answer 5

Do you have a close friend or family member that you trust? If so you could ask them to go with you. If not go to your appointment allone, tell the receptionist that you suffer from panic attacks and that you will be waiting outside (maybe in your car) and she can call your cell phone when it is your turn to be seen.

I understand what you are going through, I have gone through similar thing myself and it is awful and difficult.

God Bless and Good Luck

Answer 6

Maybe u can take something small from the house that will remind u of being back there and safe? or take something u can squeeze if u feel a rage coming on? good luck i'm sure today will be a turning point for you.....

Answer 7

Oh my god, reading your question it was like writing it myself. Please dont listen to the idiots who have answered with stupid comments.

I always take someone with me and I tell them how im feeling every step of the way. I have tried taking my ipod with me but it seems to make me more angry.

My psychatrist told me its a time thing and learning to deal with the feeling i have. I have to believe her and you should too. Going to the hospital is such a daunting thing for us to cope with but please try to find the courage to go because it will help us. I will if you will. take care x

Answer 8

You could try breathing techniques, like I thnik you breathe in slowly throu your nose and then slowly out throu your mouth and you have to breathe in deep and out. You could do that in house like for five or ten miniutes before you leave your hous.

Answer 9

As you posted the question at seven this morning,, what happened to the hospital appointment - we're all dying to know ! ! !

Answer 10

Well I'll be the one to wish you good luck. Let's hope they can do something for you. I'll say no more now otherwise you'll accuse me of doing/saying something wrong ! ! !