I feel so down. I'm really concerned about mental anguish that I have been going through. I feel like, I can't even describe it. I feel loney, depressed. I've described it in this way:
"There is a beast within me, raging, waiting to come out. A giant dragon it is, my emotions its fuel. My anger makes it grow, my confusion its food, my suffering its drink. I have seen the power the dragon-beast can wield, and it is frightening."
I have struggled with my emotions for a long time. I am very frustrated with my parents, I want to be free of their control. I feel like they have given me one of the cruelest childhoods possible, and I don't think I can ever repair the damage. My girlfriend broke up with me because she wasn't getting the same relationship from me as her friend and my brother shared with each other. This has led me into a serious depression and confusion state. I don't know what to do anymore, I have no motivation for the future. Help me please!
2007-04-01
14:48:34
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I still love my ex-girlfriend. We were together for one week. I both hate my parents, and love them at the same time. My life is so twisted now, I don't know what to do. I fear for my life. If I cannot solve my emotions, i may take my own life. I may take others lives. Help!!
2007-04-01
14:50:51 ·
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Heh, I know what you're going through. I just broke up with my boyfriend of two years because he was keeping a couple of secrets from me. Anyway, I assume you're young. When you're early in the dating game, it always feels like true love, and it is painful then it ends. It was very selfish of her to compare her relationship to her friend's. You obviously cared about her a lot and tried your best.
Sometimes, people just aren't a good match though, and throughout your life, you are going to go through quite a few relationships before you find the right match, if you ever do find the right match. Right now, dating is about seeing what types of people out there and learning from them.
From the way you describe your emotional strife, it sounds as if you have problems dealing with emotional stress or you may have a chemical imbalance. I know you may not feel comfortable talking to your parents, but please tell them that you feel like there may be a problem with depression, and you would like to see someone about it.
Depression is a very serious problem, and a legitimate medical condition. Don't let anyone make you feel down for having it. Everyone has different conditions. Some have severe acne, some have melanoma, and some have chemical imbalances that may result in depression.
Depending on how old you are, your therapy may be different than mine. What really worked for me was a combination of seratonin and norepinephrine re-uptake inhibitors as well as EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization).
I was so depressed and so living in the past that for an entire year, I didn't want to work or make friends or do much of anything except be selfish and blame others for my problems. The entire treatment took a year, and sometimes it felt like I wasn't making progress or that it came really slowly. However, towards the end of it, progress came quickly and smoothly.
I hope you consider going to a therapist. I know it can be hell to live with those feelings, especially if they control your life. But there is help and there is hope. Psychiatrists are medical doctors too, and they are there to help. Good luck, and never give up. No matter how depressed and dark you may feel, every life is beautiful and priceless, and it would be a detriment to the world if your life were cut short before its time.
My best wishes are with you.
2007-04-01 15:12:59
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answered by Android 18 3
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You need a hobby. Try working at a local food bank or other helpful organization. There's lots of people there to socialize with and its something that would make any parent proud. It'll give you purpose and direction, even if only for a few hours at a time. It'll also get your mind off that girl. You may as well learn early kid, women truly aren't worth the effort. They see us as toys and they'll play with your head just for a sick form of entertainment.
2007-04-01 14:54:38
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answered by Meatball ;) sub 2
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as much as i feel for you, i hope you are aware that more than half of the human population feels just the same way that you do. ive had a pretty bad childhood myself, i hate school to the point where i cry everyday because i dont want to go. dido about the parents thing too. but i get by. the only way i do so is by music. so as my advice-if you can find ONE thing, just one...that makes it all worth it, then youll live through this hell thats called life. my one thing is music. i really hope that you find yours. and dont ever do anything to yourself because youre not alone. ppl always says things will get better. im not sure if its true but i like to think it is. hope everything works out.
2007-04-01 15:07:09
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answered by Anonymous
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It sounds like you are a young person and the late teens early twenties can be really rough. Trying to figure out who you are and what you stand for. Please do not give up or think you will never be better. There is help out there. I am a psychiatric nurse and I know there is a treatment regimen that can work for you. Please seek psychiatric treatment fast! If you feel you need immediate help call a crisis line (phone book) or go to an emergency room. There are people that can help.
2007-04-01 15:03:07
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answered by Anne D 4
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sounds like you are a teenager. I had so many emotions going thru my mind. And I found myself getting angry. I hated older people telling me what to do. and the more they hassled me, the more I rebelled. I did not care. I even rebelled against my father to the point of smashing his things. I wanted him dead. But it did not end there. I thought of my self as inadequate. If you are a teenager. Let me assure you that this will pass. you will realize, (i hope so anyway) that you are not alone. when I realized that many others my age were going thru this to. I felt better. I too harbored a great rage. But the clouds cleared away. I hope they do for you to.
2007-04-01 15:11:33
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answered by Strong but fair 4
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This may be hard for you to believe but ALL of us guys have had our hearts torn out by a girl... its not (usually) fatal. This all sounds like normal teen angst to me, I wouldn't worry about it unless you stay depressed for a long time, then it might be something you can treat with drugs (the prescription kind).
2007-04-01 14:59:18
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answered by eggman 7
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Call this number right now 1-800-784-2433
2007-04-01 14:57:11
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answered by Mark W 3
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Go see a therapist, maybe get on some meds to help you.
2007-04-01 14:52:34
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answered by loviebunnie2003 2
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