Suicide???

Question

I don't want to spill my problems all over the table when I don't even know if you will listen to me. I just wanted to tell someone that I never stop thinking about it. I'm always thinking about suicide. I constantly contemplate killing myself. Can anyone help me?

Answer 1

Yes, I understand. From the time I was around 12/13, I wanted to die. Every single day. I made several suicide attempts and it always turned out that the next day I started my period. I think the PMS exaggerated what was already there. Very low self-esteem.

My last attempt was so wretched, I never made another attempt again. Never even thought about it. I can't even talk about it.

Read the book "On the Edge of Darkness" by Kathy Cronkitt (sic). It was the first time I saw on paper exactly how I felt and didn't know how to express to anyone.

Please get counseling. A pill is not going to give you your self-esteem back, but it could get you through the forrest for a time IF YOU HAVE TO.

If there's alcholohism in your family go to Alanon. Someone in your family is "toxic" and bringing you down to make themselves feel better.

I am much older. I have cut all ties with my family. I've been to many counselors over the years and they all said I needed to do it. I have been feeling better. Actually, I feel GREAT! I am happy and I love my life.

I never watch anything that makes me feel bad. No news. No bad tv shows, movies. If someone brings me down, I stay away from them.

Knowledge brings power.

(((((( hug ))))))) best wishes

Answer 2

I think you need to talk to a psychiatrist. Usually constantly thinking about suicide has little to do with present problems, although it may feel like that. If all your problems sudden vanished - you suddenly received lots of money, you got a job where the boss really praises you for your good work, and you find a significant other who is really a good person, and your health problems were cured - you would probably still feel life was worthless (look at Marilyn Monroe for example). You need to talk about what happened when you were young and forming your personality and so with counseling, learn to dispose of the influence of those old programs which gave you the message that you are worthless. Sometimes turning to religion can make the difference. Sometimes deciding to work at helping others with the same problems as you can make the difference. Joining the military has helped some people. So my reply is that you can be helped, but not by any simple answers from anonymous people.

Answer 3

YES. You can be helped. Read the whole thing!!!!!!!!!!!!
-Without medication: I suggest lowering your stress level, if you're participating in a sport where your teammates don't value you, it helps a lot to take a break from the sport. When the sport is over, it works wonders how much you forget about considering death.
-Without medication: If your grades are low, you can work on them as soon as you get home, don't procrastinate, try something new for a while, your grades will rise, you'll be happy you did it.
-Without medication: If your parents or friends or anyone for that matter is treating you in a way you don't like, try to avoid them. If it's a teacher, maybe you can request a class change to get into a different class.
-Without medication: ummmm idk if it's because you just happen to always think negative thoughts and you don't find yourself slipping into them right away, do something fun; like go out and see a movie with a friend or something.
-With medication: Tell someone you trust, a doctor, your mom/dad/boyfriend/girlfriend/whatever, they can help you get to some kind of...medication or w/e they do.
Seeing a councellor for help would probably work too, but you probably just don't feel like wasting life to see some wierdo every few days, lol...
Just telling you that there's a lot to live for in life isn't nearly enough...nor is telling you that other people have it worse. I'm guessing you don't feel like reading that book either. I can only say that giving up isn't the only good way to go. There IS another way, you just have to find it first. If it's something else, tell us what it is that's bothering you, of all the people on yahoo, I'm sure at least ONE of us can help, right?!

Answer 4

Just about everyone at some point in their lives has had some thought about suicide, do not feel that you are alone in your pain and distress. For some people it is a fleeting consideration, others formed a plan and some make an attempt that is a cry for help. Know that Depression can be the result of a chemical imbalance that can be corrected with medication. There is hope.

That you are posting this shows hope. That you are aware that your thoughts are frightening to you means that you need to seek help from someone more reachable than those of us on this site. I want you to contract with us that you will not harm yourself and that you will take steps to be safe. There are hotlines to call when you are in crisis but you must also contact someone in your area for help. Contact your local Mental Health Center for assistance. There are trained therapists, counselors and doctors who are there for you. Suicide is a drastic permanent solution and not the answer.

Answer 5

Suicide Hotlines:

http://suicidehotlines.com/

Answer 6

Sweetheart, What is wrong with you is that you are depressed. You may not even realize it yourself. My sister, the life of every party has to take a mild medication for depression. I never in a million years would have thought she ever had a depressed moment. Please just tell your doctor and he'll give you something to help you. By the way my dad committed suicide 45years ago when I was 12. I think it was probably depression which back then no one knew much about. So for the sake of all of the people you love and that love you don't ever consider that. You have so much to live for . Please just talk to your doctor Honey and I promise that things will be better. I care and I'll be praying for you. Suicide is never the answer.

Answer 7

i totally understand what you're going through but like you will always here is that suicide isn't the answer which is true. I had thoughts of suicide for months but then i worked it out myself but i don't recommend that because all through those months i was a cutter but i completly stopped the suicide thoughts but now i still cut, except i had stopped for 8 months but i am going to try and stop for longer this time. I hope everything works out for you and just talk to someone you trust and feel close to

Answer 8

I have been down this route before and it's not a good route you should be going. The best thing to do is see a psychiatrist and talk about it immediately! He/She will help with your problems and if necessary give you medicine to stop thinking those thoughts. After years of psychiatric intervention I have not contemplated suicide in 7 years. SO PLEASE DO WHAT I SAY! STAY ALIVE AND GET HELP! If you feel the immediate need to harm yourself call 1-800-SUICIDE. People do care about you. Sometimes life can have rainy days but like all rainstorms they go away eventually and sunshine returns. So stay alive and seek psychiatric help please. (Don't listen to those Scientology idiots they don't know what its like to be depressed.) So don't be afraid to talk to a psychiatrist. My advice is to SEE A PSYCHIATRIST.

Answer 9

Suicide isn't the right answer. I think everyone goes through a point in their life when nothing seems right, and the only thing that pops in your head is just going away. I know that I've been there, but I realized how bad it would hurt everyone else in my life. There's always another solution. If you truly don't have anyone to talk to about this then dial 1-800-784-2433 or go to http://suicidehotlines.com/. They have professionals who can help you through your problems.

Answer 10

It's hard growing up. The pressures you face and the drama in your life is huge, I'm sure. The thing to try your best to understand is that these things will all pass and you will be stronger and a better person because of it. You will be compassionate and caring as an adult and will likely be able to help kids who feel like you do now. Don't give up, know that whatever feels HUGE to you right now, probably isn't (unless you are getting hurt badly by someone...rape, etc) and that you have so much in front of you. I know it's hard and you probably feel so much from your peers (no one likes me, everyone judges me, I'm ugly, etc etc) but try to relax. School can be miserable, but it ends and school is NOT life. You will figure that out...just try to remember it now. There is so much life after high school. Good luck and hang in there.