I feel like I might go back to my old habits of binge and purge and I'm worried,?

Question

When I was like 16, I was bulimic and I suffered with it for 12 years, two years ago I got over it, though it was terribly hard, but now I feel it creeping back and I'm worried. Some people will say to just get over it but it's not that easy. What can I do to pass this hard time? I started to feel this way when I started having a real hard time trying to lose weight, I am definitely older than I was back then and it's harder to lose the weight, plus I've had three kids and that for me atleast has made losing weight a bit harder. Please be nice It was unbelievably hard to even be writing this where people will read it, it's personal stuff. Thanks in advance for any words....

Thank you so much, I so needed to hear some encouragement, and god bless you all.

Answer 1

Please don't go back to doing that to yourself. I too used to suffer from an eating disorder--on again, off again anorexia through late high school and college. You need to go get some help ASAP. The underlying cause is not just about weight, it is much more than that. I can't imagine how you must feel, and especially with three kids to take care of as well. You need to stay strong for yourself and your family. I know it is hard, and you must hear this all the time, but please don't worry about your weight--it is only a number. Also, get rid of your bathroom scale. Best of luck to you, and please please make an appointment to see a therapist.

Answer 2

i have never been bullimic or anorexic but i am a cutter and for a while when i was really depressed i stopped eating but it wasnt anorexia/bulimia it was depression.

for me its about control. i feel a total lack of control in my life and the only way i can control things is by controlling my emotional/physical pain and my own body.

when people tell me to just stop cutting i want to kind of laugh at them. It is not a light switch i could just turn it off. if it was why wouldnt i do it already. So i understand you more then you know when you said "Some people will say to just get over it but it's not that easy."

I don't think anybody on this thing will be able to help you avoid bulimia/anorexia. From what you are saying you seem like you need to love yourself a little more. There are support groups/lines that can try and help you. If i knew where you were i would list some for you.

If you ever need an ear feel free to email [e-mail]

good luck with everything.

Answer 3

OMG I completely understand. I battled with it in high school and on and off until this very day. It's literally a meal by meal struggle sometimes. Like you, I've had a child and gained a lot of weight. Even today, I stared down a bowl of pasta salad, wanting to eat the whole damn thing, knowing if I did I'd just purge later.
One thing that helps me to keep it in check is working out every day, and keeping the things I like to binge on OUT of the house. I keep tons of red grapes in the fridge if I do feel like eating when I'm not really hungry, they're only 45 calories for like, 30 grapes or something like that. They're firm, crunchy and sweet.
It is very embarrasing. My husband and everyone else thinks I've stopped, but after a miscarriage, emotional eating and the holidays, I gained all of the weight I had previously lost back. I have it under better control than I used to, like I said, it's a daily battle. I have noticed better results if I don't binge and purge. I've lost 9lbs doing it the healthy way. I just keep telling myself binging/purging is not healthy...not healthy...not healthy...and MAKE myself leave the kitchen and focus on something else.
If you want, send me an email and I'll be your "don't go back" buddy. Honestly, I could use the support too. =)

Answer 4

i understand completely , i went through this and what saved me was simply a book: Intuitive Eating. It teaches you to eat when you're hungry, stop when you're full, and most importantly don't deprive yourself because it will only lead to a backlash. The book was written for people suffering from bulimia and/ or people who are emotional eaters. In your case, it is both and probably a lot more if we dig deep. Read the book, I promise it will enlighten you and remember that your old habits will make you miserable and will have a great effect on your kids. You don't wan that...
Good luck and the best of wishes to you :):)

Answer 5

I'm sure its going to be very hard. First you just have to realize how much bulimia will really hurt you and your body. Also who would want to eat something that tastes SO good and want to throw it up right afterward? No one likes puking, wouldn't you just want to workout a few times a week instead. I know it would be hard I can't even imagine what it would be like. Second, you have to set an example for your kids. All kids look up to their mom alot and I'm sure if they see you throwing up they will end up trying it, and you never know they might start doing it. And I'm sure you wouldn't want that. I hope that helped.

Good luck and I'll be praying for you :)

Answer 6

try to get some counseling to understand what is really bothering you. At least go to a library and check out some books on anorexia and/or bulemia to see why you do this...

Answer 7

Be kinder to yourself when you look in the mirror. I don't know what else to tell you...it's really hard.

Answer 8

Just remind yourself that you might die of doing this.LITERALLY