what should i do im so confused? Does god still love me?

Question

Ever since i was 12 and my mom got remarried i have bein haveing issues with belief in god because i hated him 4 my stepdad, i have never doubtd thats s/he is there but wether everythin he says is true or not, then almost one yr ago my grandma mammy as i called who me and my mom lived with till she got remarried was dignosed with 3 brain tumors,which eventually blocked the nerves in her head so where she couldnt speak no more, her last words to anyone was she told me she loved me, i was angry at god i felt like he had take so much away from me why did he have to take her, i was vengeful i wanted to burn everychurch in the world down, i since then have not had a relationship with god at all, i dont feel comfortable in church anymore when i have tried to go, i feel that anger i felt after my mammy died, so my question is will god forgive me and help me with all my problems or since i walked away from him cursing his name and scrpiture will he do the same to me, and does he still love me

Answer 1

Child, NOTHING can separate you from the love God has for you. Nothing EXCEPT your free will choice to do so.

Like everything about Him, God's love is eternal, infinite in scope and depth.

He loves you. He craves the return of your love. Go into a private place. Open your heart and tell Him how you feel and why you feel that way. Holler at Him, castigate Him, have a good old-fashioned knock-down drag out fight with Him. Get it all out of your system; all the anger, all the hate, all the pain, all the betrayal. Then sit quietly, catch your breath and ask Him to help you cope.

Talk to Him about anything, about everything. Discuss not just your wants, your feelings, your needs, but current events and how you feel about them, what you think about others, individually and collectively. There is NO subject that is forbidden to speak of with God.

When you are at ease with this, say, "Thanks, Daddy*! Appreciate it!" And stay in touch.

* In Scripture Jesus says to call His Father "Abba", which is Aramaic for "Daddy". Puts a whole new light on the relationship He wants with us, doesn't it?

Answer 2

First of all, I'm really sorry about your loss and all the pain you've been through.
Secondly, yes, God does still love you. Nothing you could ever do could make Him stop loving you. I'm sure He's sad and even disappointed that you turned your back on Him, but He has not given up on you. If He had, you wouldn't be asking the questions you're asking. He understands your anger. I can't answer why He allows bad things to happen; we just have to trust Him. As for forgiving you and helping you, what you need to do is confess your anger and your actions and ask for forgiveness. That is why Christ died for us. And yes, He will help you sort through your feeling and your problems, but don't expect a magical resolution overnight. It will take time and maybe talking it through with others, possibly a Christian counselor. As you work through those feelings you will be more comfortable in His presence.
Good luck, and God bless!

Answer 3

You're not dead yet, so you can still turn to God. Like every good parent, God just smiled when you told Him how much you hate Him, He knows you were lashing out in anger and grief.

You spent so much time hating and being filled with vengeance and loss, but did you think about the life your grandma had? Did you forget about her telling you she loved you, and all the good times you two had together?

Honey, people die, especially old people. Sometimes its because of the rough way they treated their bodies, sometimes God just calls them home because it's time. It's okay for you to hurt about it, and it's okay to cry. But then life gets in the way and you have to keep on going. This doesn't change the fact that God still loves you and He'll keep good watch over you :)

Answer 4

Of course, God still loves you. The type of love God has for you is called UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. This means that God loves no matter how bad you may have been.

The important thing in your relationship with God is to learn from whatever mistakes you have made in the past. God only cares that we continue to learn; the mistakes matter little to Him. So forgive yourself, and start living again.

Then sometimes things appear to be tough and rough, as if God does not know about our challenges (problems). He knows our challenges all the time but he wants us to get stronger spiritually by overcoming the challenges in our way.

This book titled "Youth Ask a Modern Prophet about Life,Love and God" may help you further.

Answer 5

i personally am not a christian, but i do know a lot about "God" and his scriptures. The Bible says that he will never leave you leave you nor forsake you, his mercy has forgiven all of your sins, and by grace are you able to return to him. i suggest that you read the parable of the prodigal son, it will help you answer your questions. even though the son went as far away from his father as he possibly could, when he realized what he had lost and returned to his father there was much joyous celebration because the son had returned and all past sins were forgiven. that is what the Bible says, now you need to answer the question of are you willing to accept that? can you forgive yourself and have enough faith that "God" will forgive you? after all, faith is the real basis of any religion, if you dont have faith in it then you have nothing to do with it. as i've said, i'm not a christian, but there is the answer that many of them will give you. good luck, i hope you find what you are looking for.

Answer 6

God still loves you. I know what you're thinking, easy for you to say. But it is true. God does still love you. It will take time because you are really hurting with some very terrible pain inside you. This pain has turned into hate and vengeance.
God will heal your pain. Give Him time and patience.
Love will conquer hate every time.
Darkness cannot extinguish the light, but light can extinguish darkness. There is darkness in your heart right now. Let the light into your heart. This light is the love of Jesus.
God bless you. I pray God heals your broken and hurting heart.

Answer 7

All you have to do is ask him to forgive you. He loves each and everyone of us and he always wants to be in our lives. Try and remember that bad things happen to good people as much as that is hard to understand. We are still human and things will happen. God is not the cause of the worlds problems, and someday we will all (those who believe and love Him) have a better life.

Answer 8

There is ONLY 1 unpardonable Sin and ypou have NOT commited that. God has NOT caused this to happen also. He still loves you and sent His Son Christ to die for you to have Salvation, and to be reunited with Him AND your loved ones one day. I am not being rude to you, BUT you have to DEPEND on God, and NOT blame Him for these things, and if you do HE WILL give you the strength to get through them. The ONLY thing that you have to do NOW is GROW Spiritually so you can UNDERSTAND what has happened, and I am sending you this little poem to give you, I hope some Comfort. It will not take the place of the Loved one you have lost, but read it, and do some talking, ( prayer ) to God, He WILL UNDERSTAND. You may have given up on Him, BUT He has not on YOU, and He is STILL there awaiting on you to call on Him to give you peace and rest for your heart.

Answer 9

God loves you. He forgives you everything you ask forgiveness for. You denied Him and the only way He does not forgive you for that is if you keep denying Him. Jesus died for all of our sins, all of them. So you are forgiven if you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior.

Find your elf the church where they teach the Bible as the Word of God without hesitation. There is no shortcuts to a spiritual maturity. Give it time.

Answer 10

At least this is an honest question for a change.

Of course God still loves you but there are things in this world you nor I can change. No one likes to see their Grandma die - no one likes for mom to get remarried when their 12 (which is a difficult time anyway). But we live in a fallen world and the consequences of our sin and those before us is the world we live in. The wages of sin is still death and true, some die a little sooner than others but it's not always up to God when that happens either.

Was your grandman saved? I don't know how or what you believe in - I assume it's a form of Christianity but, since your're older than 12, then you're old enough to start seeking out the truth for yourself and I'll tell you right now you're better off to do it when you're young. You won't have time or the energy when you're older and you'll just take others' word for it but that's a dangerous place to live for there are many out there waiting for the pigeons to land and to maker easy prey of you. Religion is such a dirty business.

As far as God loving you - are you of His family? Have you been born again by faith in the shed blood of Jesus Christ as payment for your sin? If you have prayed the sinners prayer - did you mean it? Did you know that it was eternal life that God gave you - His unspeakable gift.

2Co 9:15 Thanks be unto God for his unspeakable gift.

If not you need to get started there - you need to know that you have eternal life - it makes this life so much easier or rather you can live this life with much more patience and longsuffering (gifts of the Holy Spirit in Gal 5) than you can before you know that you have eternal life. This life really is very short compared with eternity. People would rather have it now all around us but check them out - I know of no unsaved millionaires who are happy and joyful. The fact that they have money and lots of it doesn't assure happiness - to the contrary - it makes them slaves to the money and good times. Look at Howard Hughes - he had enough money to where he controlled Presidents - one time he bought a television station just so he could watch what he wanted during a late night movie - how do you like that for a VCR? But, in the end, all that money drove him crazy. He had no controls on him and look how he ended up - naked, hair down his back and all alone sitting on an easy chair afraid of people and their germs.

So, get saved while you're younger - if you're friends don't like it - don't sweat it - God'll give you better friends than the ones you have. Go to a King James Bible Believing Church - that's the type I recommend anyway - at least they have God's word right anyway but, like I said before, don't trust anyone with your walk with God. You have to do that yourself but if you don't know what God's word is in the first place how are you ever going to get to know Him? (yes, despite what the feminists try to shove down our throats - God is a Him). Study God's word, meditate upon it day and night and you know what you'll find? Life and all it's problems start getting a lot easier to handle.

Mat 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

If you want to know more check out some King James websites - biblebelievers.com comes to mind and one that is under construction is kingjamesbiblethumpers.com but it has some good recordings on it.