separation anxiety?

Question

i don't know what to do...well, i really love the school i go to now, it's private and really small, and it ends in about 2 months. i'm already preoccupied with when i'll have to leave, not when i'm actually there, usually, but when i'm home, whenever i'm bored...i wasted two years of it because i didn't appreciate it - i was moody and always picking fights and not having any fun and alienating peers, at least temporarily. now i can't stand to waste anything good, whether or not it has anything to do with that or school or anything. like today, we have these weeklong workshops this week, drama for me, we were aloud to just be practicing presenting funny stories but i had to spend the whole time in the office with a horrible stomachache because i forgot how much those metabolism enhancers hurt, and all i could think about was that i'm missing it. i'm starting fights with one of my friends and my mom says it's probably from separation anxiety...i've never had any trauma or anything

(contd.) but i just feel like i haven't had a lot of fun in my life, people at my elementary school never liked me, they would pick on me, my parents have practically always sent me to shrinks until a couple years ago, i've always felt very different, and sometimes i do even now. i know how it feels, from the bad days i have...but it's hard to remember what that felt like, what that WILL feel like, when i go back to feeling like that every single day. what it felt like to not even be able to imagine wanting this much to avoid sadness. because i truly know what consistent happiness feels like now. and it's leaving me already, because my worry about it ending is interfering with my current experience of it. it was barely there long enough to recognize. so sad.

Answer 1

Sounds like you need to find a purpose to live...Believe it or not my daughter was depressed ,cut herself all the time ,did bad in school all this after puberty but like you said always felt different then others .She had a child at 15 and since finding out she was pregnant she stopped cutting grades are great and she loves life to her fullest.I am not saying to have a child I'm saying you need to find purpose..Join a gym or something and take care of you .Maybe you will beet person that enjoys your company as well as you enjoy theirs .Or maybe you'll find you are special and continue your journey of liking yourself so that others will be attracted to your confidence and learn from your choices..because really life is just about choices and allot of things will fall into place

Answer 2

This question is so long, its message is a little unclear, I will try to answer, though.

Listen to what your mom is saying. "Separation anxiety" is the fear of being separated. Worry is part of fearfulness, as can be headaches, stomach aches, tears, sadness, or unusual upsettness such as disagreements with your friends.

While a certain amount of anxiety is perfectly normal, the extent of your worry is somewhat excessive. Consider discussing this with an adult you trust, or with the school counselor. Just talking about it and being reassured can lessen your anxious feelings.