A really interesting and enlightening dream I had...?

Question

So, I've been depressed for a few months, and it was mostly because of two issues. A major conflict with my cousin, and the fact that I just realized that I was a lesbian. BUT, for complicated reasons, which I explained in a question in the LGBT section, I was concerned that I was lying to myself about my sexuality, and that it was a phase I was going through to numb my feelings about the thing with my cousin.

However, this all got very jumbled and confused because of this dream I had last night. It was about my depression, and the causes of it, and how I was going to help myself fix the depression. I don't specifically remember specifics, (you know how it is after you wake up from a dream, and it slowly fades from memory) but I do remember the gist of it, and the feeling I had afterwards.

Basically, it was like I could see myself, but I was myself, and resolved things with my cousin completely, so much that we were actually friends again, and then I came out publicaly.

Somehow, I think the resolving things with my cousin gave me the strength I needed in the dream to come out to everyone.

It has actually been a really big thing I have wanted to do, (being publicly out) but it seems like a really far away goal. When I woke up, I had this glorifying feeling, like I could go outside and yell out to the world about my homosexuality, and I wouldn't care. It was the best I've felt in a while. It lasted about half an hour.

I just didn't understand it really. It was like the dream was telling me that in order to reach my farther off goal, I had to deal with my cousin first. Now, I am not religious, my family is jewish, but I never really believed all of it. I have always been kind of in between agnostic, and atheistic. So I don't really believe it was some spirit sending me a message, or any of that propaganda. But I would like to know how any of you enterpret it. It really confused me, but it interested me. Any interpretations? Anything?

Answer 1

If you were just left with a feeling it may just be your subconscious letting you that it was acceptable to be who ever you need to be in the moment.

The conflict with your cousin triggered all the angst in you to try to work on who you really are at the soul level.

It sounds as if the dream was telling you that you are all right the way you are and to let go of the load on your shoulders. Enjoy the relief and breathe easy.

By having the argument or conflict with your cousin, he/she helped to find your real self, and set you on the road of true self discovery. This is a good thing.

Thank your cousin. No need to explain why.

Answer 2

It's a bit difficult to interpret the dream based upon so little evidence (what the conflict with your cousin was about can have alot to do with how/why you resolved it in your dream.)

It sounds like your cousin was, somehow, an impetous or crucible that brought about your ability to recognize and accept who you are. The fact that you and your 'cousin' are friends again is probably symbolic of the resolution of the 'conflict' which it brought about. In other words, since your being a lesbian was (or at least is suggestive of) the cause of your conflict, resolving that acceptance removes the barriers to the conflict, and thus you and your 'cousin' are friends again.

Don't forget that, in dreams, most of the people represented are not the people themselves but versions of ourself. Thus, your cousin, and the 'public' to whom you revealed yourself to, were really the 'conscious' part of yourself. In other words, your private self has been a lesbian all along, but your public self thought that was a 'phase' or simply experimentation. Now that you have realized that the private you and the 'public' you are in tandem, the joy at being able to tell the 'public' that you are lesbian was reflected in the dream.

Before we can tell the world anything, we must first be able to tell ourselves. The saying is true for alot of things, and this instance is no different. Congratulations in finally being able to tell yourself.

Answer 3

I believe in God. I wish you luck however the laying down of the battle against sexual immorality is to the cost of your soul and eternity. Why does the rainbow have to be the symbol of homosexual people? It was a promise from God not to flood the earth again.( this shows there is a battle of God and satan) There is a battle for every ones soul and you feel relief because you gave in. Your soul has been claimed. Satan can back the pressure off after he convinces you. Everyone has a weakness and so do I. I am not immune to sin and still struggle. God is real, He does exist. He loves you and wants you to know him. My experiences in life are real and I can give you a 100% guarentee there is a God. I hope you find him someday. God is freeing all else falls short.

Answer 4

I'm a born again christians,and as for what I believe,youre right to settle everything between you and your cousin,for your own peace of mind and then its great if you would learn to love yourself as a woman and not a bisexual or anything else,yet it is still your preferrence,,

Answer 5

well my friend It is said that dreams are the call of subconscious.I don't know what's the problem with your cousin but by you told us it was something with telling him the truth about your sexuality.Well it it the most clear message through a dream that I ever heard.do as in your dream,talk with your cousin then,reveal yourself publicly.What your dream means is that you are prepared mentally to assume your sexuality with proud.

Answer 6

i grew to become into in Russia it grew to become right into a frightening German voice and the main kindest comfortable Scientist grew to become into there showing me an silver element floating I observed his variety face and that i finished being scared