What questions do I need to ask myself in order to change?

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I hate people, I have a wall, I'm nice to the people I want to be nice to, take my anger out on my innocent family, I want to break my windows, choke someone, then stranger myself afterwards. I lack love in my heart, but if you try to go deep into my world you will break me even more. I will either break down and cry or I will become even colder person. I'm 19. I don't want to be alone, but that's what I imagine I will be. I don't let go of pain and am easily hurt if I allow it. Why am I not extinct?

I'd like to travel the word writing songs and eventually learning how to play the guitar. I'd like to help others so that I don't think about myself. Other people distract me from my own emotions
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24 minutes ago
I'm a girl. I laugh at myself because I'm a pathetic person. Not intelligent, or else I would have not been the way I am today. Get away from me.

Answer 1

One Question sweety - How have I come to this frame of mind?

Answer 2

Well I don't think you lack intelligent's I think you are have some emotional problems as well as spiritual problems the question is why are you haveing these emotions were you raped emotionaly abandon are u useing drugs what has caused this rage and sadness at nineteen you need therapy before you turn this rage into your self wich may cause addittional problems in order for some to help you you need to be honest about your situation no matter how large or small it is tell someone even if you outraged at your mom or dad talk to someone and this is the perfect setting so your healing may begin without opening totaly there is nothing know one can do hopeing for you.

Answer 3

First, you have to ask yourself what is it that you want to change. What are the things you need to change? How about making a list and prioritizing them? Writing songs and playing a guitar is a good hobby and eventually if you go professionally, you may become a popular singer and help other people. All people have strengths and weaknesses. Why not try to take advantage of your strengths and try to overcome you weaknesses?

Answer 4

you could start by asking yourself why your so angry all the time-stop thinking negatively all the time and ask yourself what you don't like about yourself and what you can do to change it. I had this same problem and my boyfriend brought it to my attention. it helps to have someone that you can consider a support system. he told me it's like this you have it embedded in your head that your not a good person so instead try meditating and telling yourself your a good person instead I really hope you can resolve your problem-Good luck, take care and God Bless

Answer 5

Am I ready to wave the white flag??? am I teachable? Do I still like being stuck in the rut of the road?? Can I put as much energy into being, as to thinking?