im feeling so depressed. im crying as i type this.?

Question

my body is in pain from the amount of crying and gasping for air. my chest and lungs hurt.
im only 19 and im living alone.
i miss my family so much and i just want to pass my first year in uni and be happy.
i feel like a failure. i just want to sleep and not wake up again

Answer 1

Get this book I linked below. Read it. Do what it says, and feel great in a few weeks time.
http://www.amazon.com/Feeling-Good-Handbook-David-Burns/dp/0452281326

I was clinically depressed and suicidal for nearly five years. Doctors and drugs were ineffective. It wasn't until I read the book and did the mental exercises that I began to feel better.

Answer 2

You need to take a chill pill. you are away from home and at college and only nineteen, as said before that's a lot. I understand the amount of stress that is on you, really I do. But you must calm down or else it will get at you too much (in fact it seems like it has...) I don't think you have depression, (unless this feeling isn't new) I just think you are depressed, yes there is a difference. Try something simple and cheap if therapists and what not are not an option for you (Finninacail or any other reason)..listening? Just take it day by day? What is you goal today? Take good notes, get to class on time, say a nice thing to someone else, say something nice about yourself, tell a joke, smile at something, find a silver linning in something that seems uber crappy. Call your family or write a letter, end the night with a friend or making one. Do not think of ages in advance, that gets you stressed and aneixty and doubt filled, think about day by day. Once you get your days by days smoothed out, go for week by week. after that, you'll be feeling like a million bucks again. and dnot deny you feel like crap to friends, tell them, get support, make them buy you a pizza and rent a movie. reeeeellllllaaaaaxxxx. it sounds hard i know, but honestly happiness is just a perspective change away.
sorry this is so long! but i was where you are once.

Answer 3

Im very sorry that you feel this way. Have you been feeling like this for a long time? I have had depression for years but did not realize it until i lost a child in November. Im 22 and am a freshmen in college, so i know the pressure that you are going through. The good thing is that school will be out for the summer soon, and then you can be with your family again. If this is the first time that you have been away from home then its no wonder that you feel this way. As time goes on it will get easier. I am on zoloft for my depression and it has helped alot so if you are feeling like the way you described at least two or three times a week then your doctor can put you on medication. Whether you are open to the option of medication or not i recommend that you talk to someone that you feel you can trust like a family member, at least that way you arent keeping all your emotions inside.
Aside from that, remember that you got yourself into college and you are smart enough to get yourself through it. If you need someone to talk to then feel free to email me at [e-mail] Good luck to you.

Answer 4

This is normal, if this is your first time away from home there can be an immense about of stress on you. Not to mention you have school to worry about as well. I suggest you just take it day bye day, it's not going to change, you must take steps to change it.

I can assure you , that you are not a failure. You're 19 and on your own, and in college. That's really commendable.

Think about all the 19 year olds that still live at home with mom and dad, and maybe work, and just hang out. They are going no where with their life fast. You are doing something very responsible, please be proud of yourself.

Answer 5

I know what you're going through. I'm being treated for severe depression. I have seen a counselor and my physician about it. I've taken an antidepressant for a month and just had the dose raised because it wasn't working for me.
You need to be evaluated by a physician to see if you do have depression.
If you feel like killing yourself please call 911 or the suicide hotline 1-800-SUICIDE.
You aren't alone in this. I had a severe episode on February 21st and 22nd before I started taking my drug. If you like you can read about it in my 360 blog. It's dated February 24th titled The Name of My Demon.

Answer 6

We feel sad for you but we all remember how it was when we entered the world of depression. It is exactly like that and it will get worse before you see there are reasons for the pain and suffering. Getting above the surface again will take much study and effort so good luck and keep reaching out . There is peer help as well as medical help.

Answer 7

Sound like your are suffering from clinical depression. You need to go to a doctor. Your doctor can give you some names of good therapists in your area that can counsel you through this rough time. The anxiety of being away from your family is really getting to you, and counseling can help a lot. Your doctor may also put you on an anti-anxiety medication to help you.

But please don't try to beat this alone! I wish you the best of luck.

Answer 8

Dude, NEVER, EVER COMMIT SUICIDE.
I HAVE SOMETHING I BELIEVE YOU SHOULD PAY ATTENTION TO.
pay close attention.

usually when people want to commit suicide, its because they feel sad. lonely. etc. these are all signs of the emotion "love" which was once abundant when you were with your family. Now since your "love" has reduced greatly, you feel sad. The way that the human soul is, this will cause a depression in the person (you).

Now the most important question is this. Why do you want to not wake up again? because "love" is gone. But who gave you "love"? your parents/ family. now, why do they not want to commit suicide? It is not because they are GETTING "love", its because they are GIVING "love".

SO DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE UNLESS AND UNTIL YOU CAN NO LONGER GIVE LOVE TO SOMEONE OR SOMETHING.

Answer 9

You have managed to scare your self close to death.

Why should you fail? What if you pass, you will feel foolish for getting yourself all worked up.

Tell you what, you take something that isn't a fear now and you won't miss anyway, and switch it with your fear of failing.

Your parents trusted that you are mature enough to go away. Prove to them that they did a great job raising you.

Answer 10

.. I think you need to talk to your family and tell them about how you feel. One of my good friends just came home from their university for a semester medical leave from stress exhaustion, maybe you're overstressed and really depressed? Call your family and see if they can visit you or something. :] You're not a failure.