I want to die?

Question

I really want to die. This is not a threat or something I am joking about. I feel like I can't go on anymore. I know it sounds silly, but I lost my ex and I feel like something I did will make him hate me. I can't stand the thought of him hating me. I will just say what I did. I know that he still loves me, but I couldn't help but go see him. I know that this might make me seem psychotic, but I am really now. I am a good person. I really am. I am just at my wits endds. Ok waht I did was I had a guy that I barely knew take me to his house. I know this makes me out to be some sort of stalker but I just wanted to seehim. I have never done this for anyone. Gosh I feel horrible for telling everyone this. Why would I do this because of someone? I don't know. I feel like he is my soulmate, actually I know he is. WE just had so many problems. We were long distance among other things. anyhow I had this guy take me out to see him. I was so scared to actually get the nerve to walk up to his house

Sorry this is so long but it is a lot of things. So I finally went up to his house and knocked on this window. I know this is crazy. For anyone who knows what bipolar is.. yeah I guess I was in my manic stage. I did stuff with this guy just so he would take me to see my ex. My ex would of been so mad if he saw mje with another guy.... he still loves me we just can't be together right now, (atleast he thinks). So yeah, I went there and I don't think he was there because one of the cars that is normally out in the driveway wasnt there... I am so worried. We have known each other for 8 years, he has tol dme he would never hate me

he does love me. that is the thing,.. he didn't break up with me becasue he didn'tt love me. We have something very special. We have had it for 8 years for god sakes. He has told me that there is no one he would rather date and he hopes that one day we will be husband and whife. plus he gets very jealous over guys that i talk about

I have been struggling with this for 3 months. I know that he will regret this one day. I was the best thing he ever had. He knows that no one will care about him like I did and visa versa. I don't lknow why he would give up. He says that he hopes we will end up getting back together. I just am so scared he hates me. It is't sobad that I went there but I brought a guy. Maybe I am worrying ofr nothing. He hasn't wrote me back and that is what is wrorrying me. It has been 3 days. maybe he is just busy

Hey Everyone. When I said he said "there is no one I'd rather date, I mean that he said"there is no one he'd rather marry.

Answer 1

Dont worry, there are plenty more fish in the sea. even if you think he is the only one, he is not. im positive that there are many more people like him that will love you as much as you love them.

Answer 2

Hang on there, it is normal to feel obsessed when you feel hurt and obsession make us do things that seem insane. What it is sad is that these actions hurt you more.

It seems you can't stand the pain, but you can. Pain is a feeling, a nasty and highly uncomfortable feeling, but it will pass. I know that at this moment you can't believe it, because the pain is overwhelming, but it will get better.

You DON'T want to die, what you want is not to feel pain. Unfortunately the only way is to go through the process of loss. And, every time you feel obsessing about him, change focus, you will see that after a while the rush to see/contact him, will dissipate. At first this need will disappear just for one second and reappear the next one, but with time this will happen less and less often.

Face the pain with no fear. Is like a dragon, but you can win!

Answer 3

you guys can't be together? why? at least for now? what is the reason? its a little weird. but anyhow, its not psychotic. you've been together 8 years! Do people expect for you to be just okay with it and act like its nothing? no way! But don't kill yourself. Show this guy what he lost. Show him that you're the best thing for him. Now, if he can't see it. then its his lost, not yours. But don't do stup*d things like sleeping with someone to get wat you want! don't you have any friends who can take you to his house that you had to do something with a stranger?!?! give me a break! there's so many guys out there! iv been in this situation, wanting to kill myself, but after a couple of months, wow, i met amazing guys. and my ex too wanted to kill himself and guess what? he's still alive and kicking. God Bless you and try to keep yourself busy. Go out with your friends and stop thinking about him too much, okay?

Answer 4

Listen, dont do anything stupid. Dont kill yourself. Life is about making mistakes and learning from them. I can tell your upset. But I can also tell you really young. And believe me, I know how you must feel, but realize that we have all done stuff like that. And if all of us that did, killed ourselves.. There wouldnt be a whole lot of people left.

You should ask your parents if they have any "mental health" beneifits under their insurance policy. And see someone. I'm not saying your crazy. It just sounds like you really need someone to talk to about your feelings. Good luck sweetie !

Answer 5

anything worth having never comes easy. Love is hard, rough, and challenging but so worth it. hang in there. maybe it'll work out with this guy, maybe not but you cant give up hope... i firmly believe theres someone for everybody and if we try, we could all find that someone.

if you are still having trouble processing your thoughts you should go talk to someone... a professional maybe? if you dont want to do that then feel free to email me through yahoo answers.

best of luck.

Answer 6

i no this may not help but do what your heart says..but dont kill yourself. That is the worst thing you could possibly do. Evenn thought you may not no it but someone out there is thinking about you and needs you. You will live and get over it just like everyelse. Trust me everyone goes through this. Underneath it all you no you really wanna die!!!

Answer 7

plz dont kill urself about a guy. am i allowed 2 email u? let me email something 2 u, that might make u feel better, ok? plz dont kill urself over a guy. its not worth it. hang out with ur friends & family & hav a party 2 celebrate ur life, and u'll slowly grow over him

Answer 8

You souldent think about the negative things in life bout think about the positive things

Answer 9

Everyone makes mistakes. It doesn't sound so bad. I would just forgive myself and move on.

Answer 10

There is a suicide prevention group online. I suggest you check with them.
I lost my husband in 2006 to suicide and I am on a suicide
survivor group.
www.suicidepreventioncenter.org/supportgroups
www.afsp.org
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Please check with these groups!!!
The anguish to a family of suicide is so tramatic, don't put that on your family, please!!!!!!