I am really depressed..?

Question

Well to start off I hate my life more than anything. Im not emo or cut myself or anything. My mom abuses me. They never let me do anything just go to shcool. I hate my family. The only person I love is my dad. He is the best & he helps me with my problems. I want to kill myself but I know its wrong. I used to be a straight A student but now I have all b's. My teacher says I want the old me back. It makes me feel worse & my mom always says i'm bad. I never go one day without crying myself to sleep & i wish either i died or went to a foster home. What should I do? Foster Home. What would it be like. Please make me feel good....

Answer 1

Let me start off by saying I know how you feel. Especially about not being able to go anywhere. It was the same situation with me until I moved out. The only place I was ever allowed to go was the grocery store. Get this: I couldn't even go to school because I was homeschooled. That meant no kids my age...no friends really because yeah I was allowed to talk on the phone but after a while you don't have things in common with the people you used to go to school with. They're all taken up with prom or school projects or this stupid new teacher...and you don't know anything about it and can't relate. I went from having A's and B's to having F's.

Here's what little advice I have to give you. Abuse is abuse and it's wrong. You need to do something about it but I'm not necessarily going to suggest you go to the police because I know sometimes they really only make things worse. Even if your Mom abuses you you might not hate her or want to see her in jail. You d have to go through a whole court case and it'd be long and stressful for everything. In the end it might just make things worse for you. Do you have anyone you can talk to? A friend or an adult that you trust? What about your Dad? If you love and trust him is it possible to tell him how you feel? Maybe you should sit down with him and say "Look Dad I don't want you to freak out. Obviously I'm not crazy or anything since I'm coming to you and talking to you about this so I don't want you to do something stupid like put me in a mental hospital. But I'm so depressed and I hate my life and I just want to kill myself sometimes." It'd be best to give him details but you don't have to. If you tell him that much it should let him know that there's a problem there and as your parent he'll be responsible to help you fix it. And if he loves you which it seems he does he'll want to help you at all costs. Maybe then the two of you can figure things out. Good luck!

Answer 2

First off I'm really sorry you're feeling this way and are in the situation that your in. Don't kill yourself and don't even think about things like that. Growing us can be very very hard sometimes but that doesn't mean that giving up and letting others win is the answer. Try to sit back and analyze yourself and the situation. Understand why you truly feel why you do and try to come up with solutions. And talk to other adults about the situation. Whether it's a teacher or counselor or whoever you should talk to someone cause adults have a lot of pull and may really be able to help you. Don't run from your problems but try to come up with the best solution possible. I'm sure you're a great person and deserve nothing but happiness. don't let others get you down and listen a few b's on a report card never hurt anybody. Don't be so hard on yourself. You'll get through it. Really consider talking to someone you trust. You might be surprised how much better you feel. Hope things get better for you soon. Be patient! Things do get better as you get older I promise