What the hell was I thinking? This question is not as long as it seems, I just really need advice?

Question

I tried to go for it and talk to this girl I've been missing for the longest time. I hadn't been bugging her, we said hi occasionally, I thought things would be cool between us. I tried to talk to her, I said Hey how are you? She said nothing. I tried to talk about how she was helping with something (she was inactive at the moment). Still nothing. I told her I know we haven't talked in the longest time (I liked her, then fell in love with her, but she never liked me back), but I only wanted us to be friends again. I couldn't bring myself to say I missed her because it seemed like she wasn't hearing me. She kept her back turned towards me, unlike when I saw her sneak so many glances at me this past year. She texted on her phone. She never even looked at me, never said a word. I wanted to say this message that's below to her, but I couldn't remember. All my feelings about her besides "I love you" wouldn't come up. I wanted to say I love you. I just said ok, I get the point, you don't ha

have to say anything else. I guess I'll just see you around. Then I left. I'm wondering what should I do for her birthday next week? I'm going to ask her friends what kind of gifts she likes. After that, I'm forgetting all about her because ain't nothin ever gon change. This is what I was going to say to her, but now I'll just write it to her and try to forget her.

Hey. How are you? From the moment we stopped talking, I missed you. I still remember what you said to me the last time we talked, the things you were mad at me about. I've worked on those things to improve myself. A special girl like you is hard to find, you're unlike any friend I've ever had. No other girl is as amazing, wonderful, smart, talented, funny, and beautiful as you. No one else has your light brown eyes that sparkle when you're happy and fade away when you're sad, or your bright smile. I miss when we used to talk and I would really like to work on things and get to know you again. I really care about you and like I said, you're special to me. I'm tired of playing silly games around you, trying to act like you're not when you really are. Without you, I just had to admit that I must be really stupid for not understanding then what you were trying to tell me, that it wasn't anything wrong with me that you didn't like, it was you just didn't share those feelings for me that I

had for you.
I've found out for myself it was better when you didn't like me in that way. Now that you don't like me at all, it's alot worse. For the things I've done, I'm really sorry. I was just afraid of losing you, so I did. I only want us to start over, pretend this whole thing never happened. I just want your friendship back, if it's ok with you. If what you want is to never see me or speak to me again, I will just try to let you go just because I only want to make you happy. (END) Her 17th b-day is in one week. I'm 17 as well.

Answer 1

owww don't forget her yet, give her this note.. if she then still doesn't talk to you then try not to worry about it, whatever you did that hurt her which i bet was wrong, try no to bring yourself down about it we all do stupid things.. its a great note full of passion, but if i were you i would put in more detail, the reasons you care(from day one i could tell i would like you because---).. you owe it to yourself and her to let her know how you feel.. i hope everything will work out...

Answer 2

All you can do is to give her the note/letter & hope for the best really. you chance that she'll just abuse your love for her or at least give things a second try........
You've hurt her in a big way obviously, now you can only wait & hope I guess. But if she doesn't want to pursue things any further, you need to know when to back off & not be a pest. Give her space to think things through & don't put her under any pressure......... good luck Honey........

Answer 3

ok some advice not many ppl gonna answer this.....i only read the first part coz i WASNT GONNA READ all of that added stuff so if u want more responses follo the title " not an long at is semms" so shorten it