Dealing with a siblings Death?

Question

I am a twinless twin meaning I had an identical twin brother who died at a very young age. He died from SIDS. Everytime I think about the loss of my brother I have mixed feelings. I feel as though he is still with me but not. The yearing for a brother figure pused me into all types of friendships I knew were no good for me. I wanted some type of brotherly figure to replace my own. I began to drink and use drugs heavy as I began to get older. I though as I got older the pain of that loss would lessen but to no avail. I cant get over the fact the my brother died and left me here in this place. Sometimes I feel really lonley but there have been times were I was supposed to die but I was saved from being shot. It feels like my purpose here is for something greater but I am still searching to fil a void thats missing in my life. Its like I walk through life not even a whole person but a half

Answer 1

Love him, OPENLY..................Stop hiding it. Love him OPENLY as he loves you OPENLY. Love and flesh and blood tied you two together. You are the only surviving flesh, but your spirits still live together. Survive him with the love you have for him, and not only the grief. If you must grieve still, grieve openly. There is always someone waiting to help, console, and soothe you whenever you NEED IT (need and want are two different things). Your FATHER would never leave you without that.
PEACE, Love and Blessings.

Answer 2

i know exactly how you fel even though im not a twin me and my brother was 11 months apart.it was just me and him.he died in dec. of 2006.im so lonely and hurt.you never get over it,it seems like.the longer it is the harder it gets.to know you want see them no more,or hear their voice again.its really hard.but we all have a purpose here,and when our job is over we all will leave this place.keep your head up.

Answer 3

oh i'm so sorry for u and juzt think that he iz watchin ova you and stuff like dat. He alwayz iz gonna be wit u no matta wut.