specific instances when bipolar rears its disgusting face?

Question

I go through a lot of med changes because it seems that no one can get it right, so that alone is frustrating. This past weekend I was taken off a major dose of medication. It left me feeling...well the best word I can think of is"OVERWHELMED". My child unfortunatly gets the brunt of that. It didn't matter what she said, did or didn't do..it was wrong. One minute I was screaming at her for doing nothing and the next I would be crying uncontrollably. I keep telling her that mommy is having a really bad day and it would be safer if she did't bug me for awhile.How fair is that though? She doesn't deserve to be treated like that. She sat and cried with me and I felt so horrible.I don't want her to feel what I feel. I don't want her to have to get help because mom is mental....does anyone else have any certain instances they would like to share?

Answer 1

I am the same way. In my mind, I know I have bipolar, but I guess I am just in denial with the outside world. I have all the classic symtoms and my mom does too. I treat my kids the same way and when I realize it, it makes me so sad! I give you tons of credit for at least trying to get help. Reading this post will give me the courage to take that step foward and get help.......thank you!!!!

Answer 2

I was switching meds pretty recently. I was taking Abilfiy at the time without Geodon per doctors orders.

And I was getting so agitated! I was staying up all night (not doing anything in particular) just feeling wired and agitated. My mind with this weird hyper headache! (No coffee or anything else for that matter.)

For me, too, being on the wrong dose of meds is a bad thing.

I'm so sorry that you are dealing with such severe difficulties in medication management. Keep good communication open with your child.

Also perhaps your child should see a counselor....

My best wishes for getting better medication... it can get better!!

(For me, I take Geodon 40 mg for mania, Abilify 10 mg for depression and Lamictal 100 mg as an additional stabilizer. It's working well.)

Answer 3

I do feel mental illnesses are often triggered by heavy duty life circumstances. When I had my first child I went through tremendous cycles even tho my psych hac me on drugs that he thought would help. They didn't and I know now, after 30 years that what I experienced was post partum depression. It was UNHEARD of then. So, for lack of understanding or good meds, I had a complete mental breakdown. I somewhat recovered but have to this day major depression that followed me all my life. My uncle was fine until he had to be a tailgunner in WW2, where he flipped out in the sky over Germany. 20 years later when the Vet. Admin. couldn't help him, he shot himself the same week Kennedy died. So, yes, it can most definitely be triggered. If your psych isn't helping you enough, change Dr's. And hang in there for that little girl!!

Answer 4

I understand about the med cahnges they affect your body to. I also have bipolar when I get sad and mad at the world I take time out to think sometimes i blow up then feel bad afterwards. you need a suport system. Talk to your baby and show her pamlets about bipolar so that she can understand what your going through If she is old enough. If the baby is not old enough have someone that knows you help you with her. I got a new Dr. And she works with me you need a new Dr that will work with you.

Answer 5

You need a new Dr. one you trust and who will work with you. Please do this my mother was mentally ill and had 50 hospitalizations because she either wouldn't take the meds or was on the wrong stuff. I inherited her illness as did my daughter. There are better meds today and a huge selection. I am on Wellbutrin, celexa and lithium for depression and mood swings, plus klonopin for sleep and anxiety. I have never been in a hospital-I was lucky to find my doctor. (lithium is an excellent and inexpensive drug for bipolar-you do need blood levels)