Salvation through Gnosis/Knowledge by Jesus Christ, Baptised of Holy Spirit -- darkness comes when?

Question

According to Jesus, when your house (mind) is swept clean (by Gnosis through the Holy Spirit/Sophia/Wisdom), the darkness will come. It's those who make it through this darkness, and light multiplies manyfold, and thus love multiplies manyfold again, that have true knowledge. (Yes, this is from his parables in the Canonical Gospels, in the Bible. I've read the Gospel of Thomas, but I actually have only been reading in depth the actual Bible thus far. So yes, everything I got, I got from THE BIBLE. You just have to accept and understand the spiritual/scientific/academic connection and become as children to truly read it.)

Raised a Roman Catholic, I achieved salvation through knowledge/Gnosis by Jesus Christ last week. I was then was Baptised involuntarily (ie. did not consciously ask for it, but was Seeking and did Find earlier that day) the same day by the Holy Spirit (born of water as my infant Catholic baptism, and born of Spirit last week, both needed for true salvation), and I am now a Gnostic Christian Universalist. I always loved and studied the natural sciences and couldn't accept the Bible literally, such as a literal hell where God would throw His Children permanently, but now I can marry both Evolution and Creation (yes of humans from hominids as well), as God made BOTH. I appreciate the open-mindedness with religion that the Roman Catholic Church accepts, as it accepts Evolution and looking at the Bible figuratively, although to truly understand, you must look both figuratively and literally, in spiritual truth, and you will see. I don't appreciate the manmade doctrine of Roman Catholicism, which Jesus specifically forbid, although some of the traditions are beautiful. I have been reading the New Testament with new understanding and spiritual eyes since then. I have not felt the coming darkness yet, although some temptatations have come up. I have been rebuked each time and am trying to learn better to please God, but overall my life and demeanour, including my outlook, have changed dramatically, and nothing bothers me anymore, as I know what awaits us, and the love and eternity that God has granted His Children, you just have to seek and find as I did. There are no contradictions between Science and God, only unbelief and blindness. I however, will do my best to be the person God wants me to be through love while I am here, and before I go to Him at the end of my natural life. No one is perfect, only Jesus Christ, God and the Holy Spirit. (Sophia/Wisdom)

As for the darkness... I feel I haven't received it yet because I've been on Effexor for a few months for anxiety. I don't have anxiety anymore in any form since one week ago, although I did still have some anxieties before Gnosis one week ago. When will the darkness come? I am not afraid of it, as I have God and Jesus as my Shepherd and Saviour. I think I will need to get off the medication, helpful as it was when I needed it, to get through the darkness, of which I will emerge on the other side.

When did the darkness come and how did it effect you? Did you get through it successfully?

Thank you! Together in God and Jesus!

And please don't tell me what I said isn't in the Bible and that salvation is through faith alone and that I am wrong. For some it is faith, for others, it's knowledge. It all leads to God. I know God exists, as I have experienced his love, light and eternity first hand, so much that it moved me to tears, laughter and getting down on my knees and praising and thanking God! To each their own, and mine is knowledge, which for me is Light, Truth and the Way of Jesus Christ through the Holy Spirit. I am looking for answers from those who have had the same experience as I, thank you.

Answer 1

Your topic is probably lost on most of the people here. I also found God by following a path to obtain knowledge and experiences, following gnosticism and mysticism. I am a former Roman Catholic myself, preferring to identify myself simply as a Christian. Religion may leads us here, but our relationship with the living God is what keeps us here.

I have experienced much of what you have shared, as well as the "darkness" you mentioned. If you do not mind using some Catholic writings as references, you might enjoy reading these sources. As for the "dark night of the soul" experience, it was not something I sought for. It suddenly came upon me for several weeks, creating an intense, heart-felt anguish and sorrow because of sin, in which God seemed to have abandoned me. I keep the faith, knowing He was doing a work within me Spiritually. It was very humbling, and my gratitude for God's great love and mercy grew. I knew the psalmist agony for wanting God to not hide His face and to restore them once again.

Coming out of it was ecstatic, filled with pure joy and praise, filled with the love of God to overflowing. Like Christ said to the woman at the well... from our innermost being a fountain of living water, which is His love, wells up, out and through us. This lasted for weeks as well. Just the mention of His name was full of power, and my soul was filled with joy and praise. You are beaming from the light within.

His Word in the Bible became ever so clear, with new revelations for some verses I've read countless times before. Knowledge does increase, as does the joy coming from the reading.

As intense the darkness was, the light was even more. My heart could not contain it, and I did not want it to, feeling that it would burst. These few words can not fully describe it all. Our God is truly an awesome and wonderful God.

I hope this helps, even though you already know something about it. I would be glad to share and answer any other questions you may have. May your joy in the journey increase along with your love for our living God.

Answer 2

I looked into Gnosticism, it wasnt for me, That said, I dont think you will find many like you on the board, I have yet to meet a true Gnostic on the board.

Good Luck to you though, from my research into Gnosticism, the "darkness" phase is unpredictable, and can come at any time, and pass quickly, or last quite sometime. It all depends on you.

Answer 3

I prefer you will possibly let us know to what Gospel you're referring. i assume its Thomas or another "Gnostic" Gospel. I certainly have many times discovered interior the "classic" scriptures what i think to be help for Gnostic thought. "The spirit of God is interior of you" etc., yet i've got not got the faintest thought what the "darkness" is.

Answer 4

where did you get all this?? darkness and light arent the same.....HOLY spirit is light!! and opens the mind and heart..

Answer 5

^possibly the darkness is a depression whatever it is ; you said it yourself it is ALL temporary here