I tried sucide....?

Question

I'm 15 years old and in grade 9. And ever since 8th grade, I have been really depressed. And just start crying a lot. I dont know why. Everything is soo confusing. And I can't really talk to anyone. Not my friends or family. I tried Over Dosing in the past but failed. Now is the worst time everything is getting worse. I just want to die. But i'm scared to die. What should i do? And i'm too afraid to talk to someone about it.

Answer 1

i know life is hard and scary and thinking of dying is even scarier and i couldnt do it either. just remember that someone will always be there. i cant say i know exactly how you feel but i've been somewhere around there a couple of months ago. im also a freshmen. it sounds silly typing it but god is always there. there were two times i thought REALLY seriously about suicide. both times i didnt do it because of songs.(the first time was Meant to Live by Switchfoot. The second time was Me and Jesus by Stellar Kart. that song basicly says if you ever feel alone theres always me and jesus by your side.)

Please never give up hope. God loves you and wants to make you happy and he wants you to love him. I'll pray for you. If you haven't excepted God into your life just give it a thought or two.

If you ever need to let it out i find poetry helpful. i don't like writing journal entries because some random person could read it and make sense out of it but in my poems i kind of code everything so it makes sense mainly to me.

I know you don't want to talk to people. i HATE letting out what im really thinking and i tell no one NOTHING. not even my best friends. i know what its like to be a reject in your school too. it sucks getting pushed around. and you want to hit the people in the face and say "how would you like to deal with this ***hole!" but then you cant. give and take a little. give to make your life better. if you feel like a reject like i did. just remember be a friend to make a friend. I hope that helps and i'll be here if you need to talk. God loves you whether you know it or not. his love is unconditional.

Answer 2

Hi, I went through the same thing when I was 15. But I had it worst. I was beat by my mother. My father was never home. I had to learn everything myself and I raised my little brother and sister when my mom would go out and cheat on my dad. I was raped when I first turned 15. Lucky I didn’t get pregnant. So I been there and done that. The best thing that has ever happened to me was that I met the nicest guy ever. We shared each others problems. He helped me through my worst times. And what’s funny about this is that he lived 45 minutes away, so I didn’t get to see him that much. He became my best friend in the world. I prayed and prayed to God to please make my life better. And things just seemed like it got a little better then worst. Then about a month later my life seemed so much easier. I change my looks a bit to brighten up my day. My parents got a divorce which was bad but it worked for me. Or I would have went to the courts to become separate from my family. I started playing in sports to take out any anger and depression I had. This worked great. Then I would work out at home to get fit so I could be pretty. Well, I never made it that far, but I am so glad that I didn’t complete suicide. God kept me here for a reason. I now have a wonderful husband and a wonderful job and life. I hated my teen years. I hated school. and I still do. But if it wasn’t for me playing in sports whether it was in school or out, and having my best friend Tim, I am sure that I wouldn’t have been here now. I am sorry This is so long. But I hope you know that you will have a wonderful future. Just try to stick through it. Everyone’s case is different. My other friend hung himself because he was depressed, and didn’t think anyone liked him. It was the worst thing ever. Just remember, People care but don’t always show it. If you kill yourself just imagine tearing up your family and what they will have to do. What your siblings or friends will do. You will make them depress. You could change them even more to the worst if your not careful. Stick to it. And if you need someone to talk to you....You can email me. I can talk to you or get you a number to talk to someone who is anonymous. By the way. Try to go to a doctor, There are pills that will make you feel happy. It will at least get rid of the depression. Then you can write everything in a journal. Tell your story. Maybe someone will read it and then they will know exactly what you are going through without you having to face them with the problem. Write about the good things too.

Answer 3

listen, the only thing i can say is you have to go thru the pain to get thru the pain, and only when you get thru the pain will you stop hurting.
The only reason I say that is becouse i have had problems with that myself.
Grant you something, God only knows what, must of happened in your 8th grade year to start this depresion, but you still dont want to die, (you basicly said that when you said your scared to die) and as far as talking to someone about it, Is'nt that exactly what your doing rite now?
Trust me, I know its easier said than done, but dont be so hard on yourself, this life can really hurt sometimes but at the age of 33, I've come to learn that this life can really be great too!
its taken a lot of work for me to feel this way, Its been 18 years since my first attempt,and I'm so glad that I'm hear now. I've grown up and i have a family of my own and people in my life that understand me, and that only came from opening up and letting people in. It really was a lot of hard work, but anything worth haveing is worth working hard and fighting for

Answer 4

Well, step one, tell someone (us) check. It is good to talk about how you are feeling. I know what it is to be 15 and depressed. I have to say, it WILL get better! I promise. You will look back on this time in your life as a learning experience. They say whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. You can get through this time. I always remember my favorite quote when things get rough "this too shall pass". And it's true. It will pass. That doesn't mean it will be easy. I suggest surrounding yourself with friends and family. Try not to dwell on things you cannot change. If you can't talk to friends, find a chat room where you can discuss your issues with people your age or older people (like me) who have been there. The world is truly a better place with you in it and I can assure you your family and friends love you and support you, no matter what! Hang in there!!! You can do this.

:)

Answer 5

The first step is definitely to tell your parents or a school counselor or someone. You need to get help. You sound like you need an antidepressant. Things are not so bad. Depressions is an illness and sometimes you can't snap out of it. I bet you have alot of people that love you and you probaly just don't know it right now. From experience it is not bad to be on an antidepressant. You really need to talk with someone
I will pray for you

Answer 6

Suicide isn't the answer atleast thats what my friends have told me. im going through the same thing too. over dosing probably wont kill you but give you but health. Suicide, not so good. Try doing some extra curicular activities i did that and i made a whole bunch of new friends and now im a LOT happier!

Answer 7

First of all, you're doing the right thing by trying to contact someone about your problems.
Second, you need to talk to someone. A good, anonymous way is to contact 1-800-SUICIDE. Its free, you don't have to give your name, and the best thing is that someone will listen and give you options.
Please, do not do anything in haste. If you don't call, please talk to a friend, family member, or your doctor.

Answer 8

That's what i did once.Except i tried to hang myself,but i was too scared.
but then i realized that people would just see me as a failure.
For me,life is my biggest challenge.many people doubt me,and i cant prove them wrong.i knew that if i can survive living each day by one at a time,then i will be able to prove everyone wrong.
i cry all the time when i dont get attention.i take that as people dont care about me and my life and what i have to go through everyday.but each day i try.life is like a race.if you dont even try you will be ashamed.if you try,you may be able to get to where you wanna be and who you wanna be.if you win,you get it all.

Answer 9

oh i'm so sry don't commit suicide because if you do your be in Hell or Heven forever and Forever is Forever think about how long that is and i'm sure there is sm1 out in the world tha twould be nothing without you so just talk to God and someone and dont kill yourself!!!

Answer 10

I think that you should write about it in a journal whenever you feel that way.Then find someone you trust to share iy with. You are to young to evenn think about ending your life,I will oray that god helps you and you find help when you need it. I am open to help you if you need someone to talk too....