Can anyone help me?

Question

I don't know what to do. Several times a day I literally feel something physical stir inside of me and then I get this consuming hopeless, mad, angry, sad feeling and it makes me think really bad thoughts and makes me feel like a piece of sh*t.

It comes out of nowhere - literally. I'll feel on top of the world and when talking, for example, to my bf of 4 years if he wants to hang up quicker than usual I get extremely sad and then my day is wrecked - and then I'll be happy again and all it'll take is some old person walking on the sidewalk and I get that gross feeling coming over me and I'm so sad I don't even wanna live.

Sometimes I can concentrate on my university work so vigorously and then I'll get this cloud of sadness and I have so much to do and can't concentrate.

I believe in God and Jesus but think that the Bible has been messed with. I don't know what to do.

Can anyone help me?

Answer 1

I really want to help.

First, it would be interesting if you could see a doctor to check if you are depressed. I have depression myself and I know exactly how you feel. This would certainly be the physical treatment.

Second, you need spiritual treatment too. Close your eyes and since you believe in Jesus, try to picture Him coming close to you and laying His hand down on your forehead, as if He is "healing" all your thoughts. Take deep breaths, try not to think about anything except Jesus figure, dressed in white clothing, with His heart full of love for you, willing to help you. Imagine a bright light envolving you both. Try to stay in this moment as long as you can, maybe 2 minutes, maybe 5 minutes. Then, picture Him leaving you, returning to Heaven. After that, pray a quick prayer just thanking for the opportunity you had to be cured. Do that everyday at the same time, if possible. I am sure you are going to feel better.

We are like magnets and we can attract good and bad energies. You probably have attracted bad energies along the way. This exercise I told you will help you get strong again against those energies that come to you, in your thoughts.

The Bible is a strong instrument and very powerful against the evil, but sometimes we just have to find strength inside ourselves. A sincere prayer, like a good conversation with God is good. Meditation is good too. Light a candle is good too, because the ritual materialize your faith, and many other things that you can do to feel stronger.

Hang in there!
Peace!