I think i might need help?

Question

I don't know what to do. For a LONG time now my moods have been up and down. I'll be so happy and then out of nowhere I'll literally feel something physical stir inside of me and then I get this consuming hopeless, mad, angry, sad feeling and it makes me think really bad thoughts and makes me feel like a piece of sh*t.

Sometimes it will come out of nowhere - literally. Actually most of the times it does. I'll feel on top of the world and when talking, for example, to my bf of 4 years on the phone if he wants to hang up quicker than usual I get extremely sad and then my day is wrecked - and then I'll be happy again and all it'll take is seeing some old person walking on the sidewalk and I get that gross feeling coming over me and I'm so sad I don't even wanna live.

Sometimes I can concentrate on my university work so vigorously and then I'll get this cloud of sadness over me and I can't even read properly anymore. I have so much to do and can't concentrate.

And I'm scared that I'm going to fail at the both of the two goals I have in life. I'm scared that my ups and downs are going to ruin my relationship with the person I love the most in life. And my family can't figure out what's wrong with me.

What makes me even more angry is just thinking about Aristotles theory on the SOLed people in the world, and thinking about religion, and society. I think I'm just a pawn that's being used.

I don't know what to do anymore. I can't handle my ups and downs anymore it's driving me crazy. And when I talk to people I don't think they understand how horrible I'm feeling.

Can anyone help me?

Answer 1

I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. It sounds like severe mood swings. If you have never experienced them before then I would assume that it was brought on by a chemical imbalance in the brain, and that needs to be treated by a Doctor. Why you may ask are you imbalanced, well stress, loss, change, even good change, can affect our body. Anytime you are overloaded emotionally and don't have a good way to process the overload your body can internalize it and then react by the chemicals changing. You are not crazy, you just need the guidance of a Doctor, and possibly a therapist to talk through some of your stress. This will not go away on it's own, so please seek help. And if dealt with properly can be just a temporary set back. Being in University can be very stressfull, and it sounds like you are a bright intelligent girl who has alot of dreams, you will reach them, just take some time to take care of yourself. Your school should have a counselor at it, I encourage you to go to them. I know the mood swings are disturbing, but this happens to millions of people every year. Don't ignore, seek help and get on the road to recovery. It is usually treated with a medication to help restore the imbalance in your brain. Good luck. Take care