Alright I am not sure if I am crazy or what but, I think everyone is against me, Ill think up random situations, or what is going on at that exact moment in another place, people may talk about me behind my back. I even think of the words theyll say in my mind.
Another thing is I often put myself in situations where I have conversations with other people, weather it was a situation earlier that day, or something in the future, I plan out conversations, not really plan, pretty much act out in my head.
I think up really wierd things like anyone for some reason may think I am gay, or I think I am a fake gangster wigga, I dont dress homo, I dress in 'urban' clothes, so I duno, another thing is I DESPISE homos, so I duno what thats about.
I always think people are looking and judging me by what I say, do, or how I look. I often feel the need to prove myself because people may think I am fake. I cant concentrate in a convo because I think what I say is being anazlyzed....
2007-03-17 17:12:25 · 7 answers · asked by heatstream44 1 in Social Science ➔ Psychology
Another thing is I feel I am naturally a violent person. I never really acted on it because I never wanted to bring anything home. So when I am drunk I usually push my limits too far, and I get in situations that I shouldnt have ever been in. But yeah It isnt surprising to me if I had started to think of a situation where I may go to a party or a house and start a fight, usually imagine other people getting involved, etc.
2007-03-17 17:17:50 · update #1
I am not really self concious. I feel like I am a good looking guy, I usually have no problem with the first steps with a girl, I just get really attached too fast, almost scarily fast and that scares them away.
2007-03-17 17:21:03 · update #2
extreme low self esteem can lead to paranoid assumptions in life, particularly other people's opinion of you etc. your acting out and rehersal of conversations is quite normal, especially since you have such concerns about social situations - you're just practicing it through!
your fear of being physical or distructive is also probably a fear of what is possible and of losing your own control, not because it will happen. but i'd avoid the alcohol.
definately see a counsellor to help you bring it all back into perspective and have some skills to manage it all.
you're not crazy, but could use some assistance in normalising it all.
good luck.
2007-03-17 18:36:45 · answer #1 · answered by noodle 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
i think you need a good friend to hang onto for guidance and just general friendship. i don't know if you are really mad, crazy or whatever, paranoid, et cetera. you would need more than an arm chair diagnosis but i can tell you some guidelines even the pros go by : you can tell the crazies from the not-so-crazies by one thing: only the sane person questions his/her sanity. it's the off -the - loop person who never questions anything as they feel all the world's wrong anyway & they are the only ones who are right & sane. good luck!
2007-03-18 00:23:57 · answer #2 · answered by blackjack432001 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
You should look into counseling. Constantly thinking these things isn't normal. It's good that you've recognized a problem. It sounds like an unpleasant way to live, worrying like that. Don't waste your life being unhappy. Good luck.
2007-03-18 00:18:13 · answer #3 · answered by Annie D 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I do the planning out thing a lot. I am pretty sure it's normal
2007-03-18 00:57:38 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
You need some professional help. Seriously think of seeing a therapist.
2007-03-18 00:21:04 · answer #5 · answered by another journey 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
You are totally paranoid. Borrow some books on self esteem from library.
2007-03-18 00:17:02 · answer #6 · answered by holly 7 · 0⤊ 1⤋
I think you might be paranoid with a very bad case of OCD
2007-03-18 00:16:50 · answer #7 · answered by Love Exists? 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋