Jealousy or ??

Question

Recently I have a relapse of cancer. After learning of this, strange things have been happeneing. Particularly this. There is a person that I have known for awile that I have always known to be a good person. Although I do not have any homosexual tendencies I find that I now consider this person to be like a brother to me and I would gladly die for him. It is like I am tryin to mimic his characteristics and personality so that I may be like him. Is this jealousy or is it me attaching myself to a person of whom i see as an "angel" so that I may have my soul saved here in the next year when I will most likely pass away. I dont know what it is, Im quite distressed over it and honestly dont know how to deal with it. Am I gay now? Is this a normal problem? Am I going crazy? Please help

Answer 1

I don't believe this makes you gay. I do, however, believe that you "idolize" this person. It happens rather frequently. If someone likes so many things, or everything about someone else, even down to the detail, they begin to hold them in a really high regard. If they are close friends with this person, or see them frequently, they can tend to "idolize" the person. Meaning, they begin to do things like they do, they will start to do many of the same things, the same way that they do, and even dress, speak, act and behave the way they do. They can even visualize themselves as that person when they think of themselves.

I am sorry to hear about your relapse. I will pray for you and you take care, ok?

Answer 2

I really believe you have posted this not too long ago, and you were getting answers, so my question here is why are you posting it again. They were giving you some good advice, so why repost it?

Answer 3

You are crazy from the experience of immanent mortality. It happens.

Answer 4

no, you jsut have a special bond with the person.