I am 36 years old. I was affected by depression in the early years of my life, probably in the fifth grade, age 10/11. On top of that I have had a auto immune disorder and deformed ankles and alot of surgeries, illness and so on. I had always thought that my chronic illness was to blame for my depression. I have sought Therapy for many many years. I reached a point two years ago that I began acknowledging that I alone could not handle this burden. I gave myself to Christ.For the first time in my life I went two years without a trace of depression or illness. SO last May I enrolled in nursing school, life was good.December 13th a hernia surgery sent me into into septic shock and in ICU.Later my surgeon said he had not expected me to make it at all. Split open 13 inches and waking up in ICU on a ventalator was traumatic.The last three months the depression is back. I am discouraged. I do not want this illness, how do I accept it? I had to pull out of school due to surgery. Im lost?
2007-03-15 18:07:54 · 10 answers · asked by Shyler 4 in Health ➔ Mental Health
Boy doesn't that feel good to finally admit that there was something wrong instead of feeling like you were going crazy.Honey let me tell you it made me feel really good to finally admit that I was severly depressed and wasn't ashamed of it either. Ended up in the hospital twice and didn't care who knew. I have finally accepted that I'm depressed and I'm dealing with it and am happy that my doctor was there to help me with it by putting me on medication to deal with my depression. I haven't felt this good in a long time and now I smile more too.
2007-03-16 08:16:53 · answer #1 · answered by loonygirl46 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
This sounds like me. I had always had a little depression, but at age 30 is when it hit the fan. Such a depression that I literally became unable to care for myself, and it was really a total nervous breakdown. People think , oh, it's just depression. Guess what, this goes into a phase where you're feel helpless worried, and continually afraid. Got to see a psychiatrist, and frankly, nothing worked. They tried every thing in the world. I have since had two other major episodes, and am now 44. Last year I was finally diagnosed as bi-polar, and they found a med-combo that worked: Lamictal and Cymbalta. I was doing great for the first time in years. Then I was diagnosed shortly thereafter with multiple sclerosis. Contrary to what some think, I know mental illness was disease related. You mentioned an immune disorder, don't know which you have but it could be related to your mental health. Yes, you have taken a big step in admitting you have a mental illness, but that is only the psychological part. Mental illnesses are biological and that is what you must get ready for. Perhaps there is no cure, and I'm just saying that you have to realize the right frame of mind is important for anything, but in some cases the illness is too powerful to manage without treatment. By the way, it turns out that I didn't just have the bipolar depression, but OCD and also the MS. It's a long stuggle, and I just want you to see a perspective. And it is a very real disease. trauma doesn't necessarly cause it, often it's a neurologically based trouble. Good luck, hopefully yours doesn't turn out this way. ps counseling does very little for this, as it is a biological disease.
2007-03-16 01:36:46 · answer #2 · answered by Kyle 2 · 1⤊ 1⤋
First of all, I'm so happy for you that you've found God and that it's been helping you (except for right now). I've lived through depression and I would have called it quits without my faith. I also am in nursing school. My depression came back when I started nursing school from the stress of everything changing, so I can relate. I wondered if I would ever be free from it. What helped me, actually, was the nursing school. When we started talking about mental health nursing, it was really tough, but I found like I liked working with the patients with depression becasue I could relate to them, and it turned out that there were four or five other students who also had experienced mental illness, and knew how hard it was to live with the stigma and wanting to hide it. They were great (nurses are very sympathetic, am I right?). Just talking to them and sharing with them helping me feel okay about myself. Maybe you could try to find a support group so you can talk to other people who understand. I hope you can go back to nursing school some day. I think it will help too. I'll pray for you.
2007-03-16 01:37:56 · answer #3 · answered by hermione_speaks 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
hello,
i'm sorry you have had this set back, when things were going your way... and you were going for a goal you had set for yourself. first, it's good that you can admit this, many men can't. most importantly, giving yourself to Christ was the best decision of your life! Stay close to Him in all things and He will see you through. I can understand your discouragement in having pull out of school due to this surgery. But you can go back to it, yes? and yes, chronic illness can bring about depression. Having a depressive past, now that this has happened and you have been stopped in progression, the depression has returned. but it will leave you again once you are feeling better to go back to school and on with your life, it will fade. its sounds like you have been through much in your life. you have shown great courage. depression, as with your other illness's, needs to be accepted by us. it does make things easier. please try not to feel lost..depression can make us feel so. if it becomes too prolonged and chronic, you may want to see your doctor to see if your using a anti-depressant would be of a benefit to you. meantime, don't give up, face each day with a smile and count all your blessings..do this will take you a long way. i wish you the very best! God Bless!
2007-03-16 01:56:30 · answer #4 · answered by Sandra Dee 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Sounds like you are a survivor --don't give up now. Life always has a way of knocking you down when you crawl to the top. I have climbed lots of mountains and did it all alone. Never give up. that is the key--like my Mom use to tell me "there will be better days." This too shall pass.
2007-03-16 01:24:08 · answer #5 · answered by luminous 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
1) Good that you have acknowledged you have a problem and that you need help.
2) I would really go see your doctor and ask if there is some professional help for you - from your description, you have had a series of bad breaks in life - and if i were in your shoes, i would need help to dealing with this.
Good luck!
2007-03-16 01:20:16 · answer #6 · answered by U_S_S_Enterprise 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm also battling depression.I take meds but they don't seem to help.My last resort is to give myself to Christ but I'm afraid I don't know what to expect.I just recently started going to church again.My advice to you is hang on ,and reach out for help,either to a doc,counselor,psychologist,family ,or friends .
I'm sorry to hear that you have had it rough but look on the bright side there are people out here that can help.I hope I did.
Good Luck and take care
2007-03-16 01:22:14 · answer #7 · answered by damarony896 3 · 1⤊ 1⤋
Depression is treatable but you have to ask the doc for help with treating it.
2007-03-16 01:13:04 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
go 2 peekvid and watch the movie the secret
2007-03-16 01:45:52 · answer #9 · answered by ? 5 · 0⤊ 2⤋
This is hard to believe, but thank God you are still living, i will pray for you.
2007-03-16 02:01:52 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋