am i getting all the help and treatment i need?

Question

ive recentley been diagnosed with borderline personality. my cpn said that hes refered me to be assesed by theraputic uk or something for therapy. he said that there doing everything their required to do. however with the distressing symptoms i have like terrible low moods, high levels of anxiety, the way im worried about going out and that ive socially isolated myself, the racing thoughts, obsessive worries and insecurities, the inner rage and anger feelings, its nagging me whether something more should be being done? or is there anything i should be doing to aid myself? im being told ive just gotta wait now, and that i need to take one day at a time. but im tired of living like this, scared and anxious about going out, isolating myself, real low moods. i feel cooped up in this small flat. but iits not easy to just go out, like people suggest either. because of my anxiety and inner rage feelings. why do i feel so jealous and angry at people because they look happy, and it comes easy

easy to them. i feel jealous, enraged and frustrated
why? i cant bear to see someone smile or laugh
it fills me with so much anger. and i no its wrong
but i cant help it. its seems unfair that ive suffered
for so long and other people havent had to. and i see
them wearing huge grins, when im out. how can i not
feel this rage at people? plus one girl said in my last question,
in her answer, that she wishes she could help me?? well
why cant she? whats stopping her? is she not allowed to?
is she being told not to help or get involved with me?
please someone enlighten me and give me hope in
this extremely dark tunnel im in and have been in since
15 im 29 now. can i ever get over what ive endured?

Answer 1

I think you'd be happier in a home where someone could look after you and make sure you take your medication. You're obviously not looking after yourself properly on your own

Answer 2

I too have lived with borderline for most of my life, I am 61! The best therapy I ever had was Cognitive Behavioural therapy on an intense basis, four times a week. I have been treated by two hospitals before and not really found much change, but this therapy was excellent, and has made me see things in a different light, and think in a different way. I took an anxiety course too, and also had three session of Gestalt therapy. This was excellent for getting rid of the built up anger. I feel so much better now, and can live with myself and am not so worried about relationships.
I know exactly how you feel, but there is light at the end of the tunnel, but you have to work at it.

Answer 3

I have the same condition as you, and to me it feels like "enough help" isn't even possible.

If you're not already receiving therapy then that's the bit you have to push for, and make sure it's cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT). If the waiting list is too long, look into the local gp surgeries and find one that offers their own CBT practice. If you can afford it at all, go private.

Also you should speak to your cpn about getting DLA if you're not already on it, and if they won't help you look at this site and apply on your own: http://www.bhas.org.uk/dla/index.shtml

Borderline personality disorder provides a constant struggle, and it's not fair that anyone suffers from it, but with CBT although my problems haven't disappeared they have at least become a little more manageable, and most importantly of all, it has allowed me to believe sometimes that things will get better, which I could never feel before, and it sounds like you can't right now.

And if you can manage it, though I know it's really difficult, do regular exercise, because that can help with the anger and rage. If you can't bring yourself to go out, then do some kind of indoor exercise.

Feel free to email me if you want.

Answer 4

I do believe that if you were getting all the help and treatment you needed, you would not be on here asking the question. You would be out living life to the fullest. So, to answer your question, no.

You feel jealous and angry at happy people, because you know that you are hiding behind these labels from the doctors a little bit. You know that you sometimes use them as a crutch and this makes you feel bad, although you don't want to admit it. It's easier for us to find fault in others than to admit our own shortcomings.

Answer 5

you're thoughts and moods are very typical for a person with a borderline diagnosis. some meds that you might ask about, that will greatly help with the racing thoughts, obsessional thinking, etc, are: trileptal, topamax, effexor, and risperdal. all of them together, or a combination of them. when you get into therapy, you have to be willing to be an active participant, and hear a lot of constructive criticism as well as negative comments about your behaviors. in my experience, "borderlines" tend to get stuck inside their own heads, and expect everyone around them to be mind-readers, as to what's going on with their moods, thoughts, and feelings. my suggestion to you, as you are waiting for your therapy to begin, is to keep a journal. there are also workbooks you can get to help with self-therapy and self-discovery. be pro-active, do an online search and find out if there are some websites with additional ideas for self-help...don't just sit around waiting for something to happen. best of luck to you.

Answer 6

why arent they giving you any meds? i take ativan for anxiety not everyday but when it gets really bad....maybe you should try moving to a new town and starting over? be completely honest with yourself and let everything go just start fresh.....or you could always call dr phil

Answer 7

U are under a terrible evil Satan spell and the devil has got all your powers.
U need to wake up and say Rebuke Ye Devil by the Blood Of Jesus---U will be alright after that. Love yourself and others
and Smile.

Answer 8

If you don't think you are, then you should get another opinion from a different medical professional.