Should I say this to the girl I miss? I'm trying to plan out what to say to her these words are from the heart

Question

Hey. How are you? Ever since we stopped talking, (me and her haven't talked for ten months) I had been going over everything in my head, trying to figure out what I was doing wrong. You know, I still remember what you said to me the last time we talked, the things you were mad at me about. I remember the first thing you said was that I harassed you. It's strange, that was the last thing I ever wanted to do to you but I guess I did anyway. If you said that because I called you almost every weeknight, it was only because when we were at school we'd only talk for two minutes. I never really got to talk to you when it'd be just me and you. Even when I called, someone else would always call. I was always afraid that I was doing something wrong to make you not like me. I also remember that you told me I obsessed over you. I guess I did and I'm sorry, but what boy wouldn't obsess over an amazing, wonderful, smart, talented, funny, beautiful girl like you? Especially if he didn't want to lose

you. It still doesn't make it right though and I'm sorry. It's just that a special girl like you is hard to find. No one else has your light brown eyes that sparkle when you're happy and fade away when you're sad. I get lost in your eyes. No other girl has your bright smile. I remember the last thing you said was I don't know you. You told me before that, when I was feeling down that you could tell something was wrong because you know me! I know I don't know everything about you, but I want to know everything about you. I really care about you you're special to me. Without you, I just had to admit that I must be really stupid. I should have understood then what you were trying to tell me, that it wasn't anything wrong with me that you didn't like, it was you just didn't share those feelings for me that I had for you.

I've found out for myself it was better when you didn't like me in that way. Now that you don't like me at all, I realize that's worse. So, for these things I've done, I'm really sorry. I was just afraid of losing you, so I did. I only want us to start over, pretend this whole thing never happened and if necessary forget that there was any mention of romantic interest between us. Maybe we could chill and hang out somewhere sometime as just friends, because I know with you I don't have a chance. I just want your friendship back, if it's ok with you.
If you think I'm clingy, needy, desperate, then that's alright with me. I can't change what you think about me, I just know for myself that's not me. I just wanted to let you know, if for the last time, how I feel about you. (end)

I don't think I should say this last part though, or how to say what I mean in the end right.

She isn't seeing anyone and I just want us to be friends at least. This is not a letter, I want to say this to her. Guys and girls what do you think? Girls, would you talk to me again if you were her ? Are there any changes I should do? How do I make this shorter so I don't bore her? How do I compliment her more friendly and less romantic? I just have this feeling if I try actually talking to her instead of ignoring her she might listen. We've been saying hi to each other occasionally. I have not tried to speak to her in the time of us not talking, I've only called once then hung up out of fear a long time ago, basically I haven't tried hard at all, I've just ignored her and see her look at me. The ignoring thing seems like it's taking too long in terms of her coming to me, and that's just not me, but she sneaks glances at me from a distance. I guess I'm just mister nice guy. I'm going to try to talk to her normally first before telling her this, or writing her this.

What do I do for her birthday? She turns 17 in two weeks. I turned 17 last month. This is/could be my first and last attempt to talk to her directly think that to ignore her would work even better if I try to talk to her and she doesn't listen. Ignoring her doesn't work if we're already not talking. It might work if she knows how I feel about her and if she still won't talk to me. So, when she sees me around not trying to talk or anything to her anymore, she'll come to me possibly but even if then I'm not trying anymore.
I didn't call her every single day, but just about. When it was about two months before we started talking, I started only calling her once a week.

Answer 1

Just tell her how you feel. Good luck.