Should I say this to her? I'm trying to plan out what to say to the girl I miss these words are from the heart

Question

Hey. How are you? Ever since we stopped talking, (me and her haven't talked for ten months) I had been going over everything in my head, trying to figure out what I was doing wrong. You know, I still remember what you said to me the last time we talked, the things you were mad at me about. I remember the first thing you said was that I harassed you. It's kind of funny really, that was the last thing I ever wanted to do to you but I guess I did anyway. If you said that because I called you every weeknight, it as only because when we were at school we'd only talk for two minutes. I never really got to talk to you when it'd be just me and you. Even when I called, someone else would always call. I was always afraid that I was doing something wrong to make you not like me.

I also remember that you told me I obsessed over you. I guess I did and I'm sorry, But what boy wouldn't obsess over a amazing, wonderful, smart, talented, funny, beautiful girl like you? Especially if he didn't want to lose you. A special girl like you is hard to find. No one else has your light brown eyes that sparkle when you're happy and fade away when you're sad. I get lost in your eyes. I still haven't found a girl with your bright smile. I remember the last thing you said was I don't know you. You told me before that, when I was feeling down that you could tell something was wrong because you know me! I know I don't know everything about you, but I want to know everything about you. I really care about you you're special to me. Without you, I just had to admit that I must be really stupid. I should have understood then what you were trying to tell me, that it wasn't anything wrong with me that you didn't like, it was you just didn't share those feelings for me that I had for you

I've found out for myself it was better when you didn't like me in that way. Now that you don't like me at all, I realize that's worse. So, for these things I've done, I'm really sorry. I was just afraid of losing you, so I did. I only want us to start over, pretend this whole thing never happened and if necessary forget that there was any mention of romantic interest between us. Maybe we could chill and hang out somewhere sometime as just friends, because I know with you I don't have a chance. I just want your friendship back, if it's ok with you.

This is not a letter, I want to say this to her. Guys and girls what do you think? Girls, would you talk to me again if you were her (I can handle the hard truth)? Are there any revisions I should do? How do I make this shorter so I don't bore her? I just have this feeling if I try actually talking to her instead of ignoring her she might listen. We've been saying hi to each other occasionally

I have not tried to speak to her in the time of us not talking, I've ony called once then hung up out of fear a long time ago, basically I haven't tried hard at all. The ignoring thing seems like it's taking too long in terms of her coming to me, but she sneaks glances at me from a distance. and that's just not me. I guess I'm just mister nice guy.

What do I do for her birthday? She turns 17 in two weeks. I turned 17 last month.

Answer 1

But what boy wouldn't obsess over a amazing, wonderful, smart, talented, funny, beautiful girl like you? Especially if he didn't want to lose you.

dont place that line, cause that would really piss her off, if i were she and that line would make me more afraid of you, and would make me throw the phone away
and never tell her "especially if he didnt want to lose you, the question here is was she ever yours?
dont be too clingy, women hate men who confess again and again and dont even reserve some for mystery, we hate easy to get men,

Answer 2

If your words are coming from the heart,then she will understand.It doesn't really seem long because your words of expression are not boring but interesting and to the point.

Answer 3

"well, poop DOES taste good. your poop that is." say that and she will be yours