Cried myself to sleep is that depression?

Question

Basically had enough of life ,find it hard to put 8 hr shift in at supermarket, come off alcohol, marijuana, speed, no motivation, on valium for anxiety/drug withdrawl really like it but try not to have too much its the only thing that makes me feel good. Seeing counsellor but she's finshing our sessions, really like her, but of course she has to leave so can't see her anymore, feel alone even though i have friends. don't like to socialize with groups of people,Feel suicidal lately, drank a bottle of vodka with 300mg of tramadol went hospital,wasn't sure if it was suicide attempt. Today i struggled at work and when i came home i went to bed and cried myself to sleep. Refuse to take anti depressants, had em before felt nausea and suicidal. was bricklayer for five years. don't think it's normal for a male 23yrs to cry? any help?

Answer 1

Of course its normal, and with all the things going on in your life it sounds like you have a right too. Unfortunately this is probably the hardest thing you will ever have to do in your life. I would definately explain how you feel to your counsellor, she should not be ending your sessions till you say your ready too. If you think that the valium is helping, take it, you can deal with that later, just be aware its an addictive drug too, I am been thru similar and family been thru the same uphill battle, and i know it helps to hear other peoples stories. Perhaps the following books may help, A million little peices - James Frey and Scar Tissue -Anthony Kiedis, from Red Hot Chili Peppers.. both great true stories of battles with drug and alcohol addiction. Good Luck, hang in there.

Answer 2

Sounds like your depressed, but you need to be sober for 4-6 weeks, before a doctor will diagnose you. You could benefit from an antidepressant, but you have to be willing to accept the help. Lexapro, Paxil, Prozac, Cymbalta, or Celexa are all good and may help you get back on track. Talk to your doctor and give one of these a try. Remember the med will not do the trick entirely. You have to put out the effort too and it will take 4-6 weeks for the meds to get into your system. If you try a medication the side effects will go away after time and you will feel better in a couple of weeks. Suicide is never the answer and if you feel that way, you may need to contact a mental health professional immediately.

Answer 3

Your body is all out of wack so the crying is normal. I am 24 and still cry but its usually just a little due to the end of my marriage. If I ever feel like crying I always have let it out its better that way and nothing to be ashamed of. I realize your low point because I have been there but mine didn't consist of the pill abuse. I am just going to tell you that there is many people who have gone through the point your at and made it through. I think you should lay off the drugs and force yourself to exercise a little each day. If you wont run then get a bar and power lift it works for me. This will help balance your chemicals in your mind again. You said you were a bricklayer I am also experienced in the trades. When you were a bricklayer were you in a better mental state? In that trade you got that workout your body needed every day and in the supermarket u probably dont. Goodluck guy and lay off the bottle.

Answer 4

Sure it is ok for a 23yr male to cry, you have done some really heavy stuff. Coming of alcohol, pot and speed, wow that is brilliant, I strongly suggest you attend AA and NA, it will keep you on the right track and you will meet people who have had the same experiences as you. Start being kind to yourself, perhaps you are not up to working long shifts right now. Anti depressants can be a matter of trial and error, but there will be one that suits you, and they will make you feel so much better, you may even need them short term, by the way don't listen to the NA/AA 'doctors' you take what is best for you. I wish you all the best and remember you WILL be fine

Answer 5

Hi,
I empathise with you. You are not alone. I've been through depression too.
It seems you are having some emotional distress and some symptoms of depression.
How about seeing a psychiatrist and finding another counsellor? If you feel suicidal, is it possible to get help from your family members or friends or a suicidal prevention line?
It is normal to cry. I'm a male and I've cried too. It makes me feel better.
You may like to inform your psychiatrist to switch to another anti-depressant drug.
Try to keep yourself busy, and keep yourself occupied with hobbies too. Exercise, soothing music and prayer are a great therapy.
If you have persistent suicidal thoughts, it is good to check into the hospital for therapy. Psychotherapy or Cognitive Behavioural Therapy may help.

All the best. Try to take your medication and to avoid alcohol and mirijuana.

Answer 6

Yeah, you need to get some help. Contact your local mental health office today, they can help you today and get on the road to a healthier mental status. I really think you should try the anti depressents again,maybe try a different one from before. I take Nortryptilyne, but there is Seretonin and another one, that help with the ups and downs. Vodka is a depressent, and very dangerous to mix, I know you know, but I'm concerned for you. Uncontrolled crying is a symptom of depression, you need the meds to get things "leveled"in your head. I have a son three years older than you, he too went with drugs for a few years, meth was his demon and it changed him completely. When he quit, he withdrawled, and depression was a part of that process, he too didn't want the meds, but finally did, and thanked me for pushing him, now it's wonderful for him, there is hope and people that care. Reach out for that help today, make the call.

Answer 7

it sound to me that you need to try and find another therapist that you feel comportable talking to???maybe you need to commit yourself to a 48-72 hour hold at a hospital? help yourself!!! life always gets better!!!!