why am i like this? is it jus a crush or am i jus desperate at tat time? or am i a playboy?

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first, i saw this girl abt last year december.. i didnt notice her.. but she came to me.. later we start to talk and we found out tat we are old pen-pals.. its realli surprising.. since then, everyday i will chat wif her.. then, i find tat she is realli very attractive.. later around february.. i tell her tat i think i have a feeling towards her.. my frens encourage me to tell her tat and said tat she is very nice girl.. and i shud have her.. so i told her.. then, she said yes.. but asked me to wait for her till her vital pmr exam is over then onli she will be serious wif me.. so i tell her ill wait.. we chat and chat.. recently, i saw another old fren of mine.. she is fuking pretty now man.. hawt amazeng gal! we r quite close too.. and then i see the first girl, the one i told her i have a feeling toward her, i find tat i like the prettier one better than my current one (cute,active,cheerful, but not as pretty).. weird.. the more i see the crazier i bcome.. why am i like this?

before this.. around last year march.. i do like another girl.. but was cheated by her.. in a way or another it is kinda seem cheated and she was hypocrite.. so i left her around sept of last year.. and on january i have a new crush.. am i a fuking player ****? or am i desperate? or am i have not understood my feelings and could not control my feelings?

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