how to speak up about feeling suicidal?

Question

i been very low and depressed for many years and the world seems unreal, i have a lot of emotional peoblems that i have kept to myself, i have said i am depressed and on anti depressants but they not helped, i have not been up front with anyone really about the whole truth about eveything.

everyday is a living hell, and i constantly thinking of suicide, i scared to speak up the whole truth, telling me mum i was depressed has stressed her to the max,

how do i say the whole truth? i need serious help, things dont seem real to me and dunno what to do?

i was not upfront with the doctor or counsellor with the whole truth, cause i have another problem which could be serious but like i say it dont seem real and like it not really happening?

i am in a very bad mess and it could destroy my family, but none of it seems real to me!

what should i do

Answer 1

you must be absolutely up front with the Dr. they have medication that will take away those feelings. i was severely depressed and i no longer have those thoughts. your chemicals in your brain are not funtioning properly. only your doctor can help you. believe me when i tell you, if you let your dr know, you can be cured. have hope. callthe dr right away and make a same day appointment. tell the receptionist how you are feeling. your life is precious.

Answer 2

Some good advice in here and just keep in mind that there is a possibility that there is a different way to think about stuff. Try for just a week or two to seek out what the great philosophers of the world have said about life. We humans can easily get caught up in stuff that separate us/ hold us idle from living the lives we should be leading. At least try this for the benefit of your family. You'll make your mom proud if you just try to put what you think you already know aside and just look into something different. You won't get out of this if you don't realize that your problems can't be solved with the same thinking that got you into this mess in the first place. "Summon the courage for truth and truth will give you courage". Man kind has fought toxic thinking for as long as we've been in existence. You really are not alone.

Answer 3

I have just answered your other question. Please darlin
suicide is not the answer. The only way you will get
through this dark hole is by being totally upfront with the
people that are there for you. Go back to your doctor
and tell him truthfully how you feel and go back to your
counsellor. If you are not being true to them you are not
being true to yourself. Be an open book. Reveal everything
however bad.
When you say you have another problem which could be serious and it does not feel like it is happening - you might
be suffering with Bi-Polar (Manic Depressive) or some
other condition. Put on the right medication you will be
able to lead a normal life.
I know you are worried about your family, but YOU have
got to have specialist treatment. Your family will be there for
you. And they will be able to be more understanding, when
once and for all you open your heart and let them in.
After you have got everything out, then will be the recovery
process. Then you can make the first steps to having a
better life. In a world where you aren't frightened anymore.
Good Luck and God Bless.

Answer 4

Hi there,
I have kind of been where you are. The past year i have found myself very suicidal/ depressed. Although I tend to get ok periods in between. Good on you for going to seek help already, I know how difficult that can be and it is always so hard to open up to a stranger, no matter if it's their job to help you or not. I often found that when I was alone with my thought's I felt terrible and wanted to talk so much but when got infront of someone and had the chanceto open up, i felt ok...and thought perhaps I didn't need help..but that's not the case.

it's so hard to tell the whole truth sometimes isn't it? Especially if it's hurtful, embarressing or just difficult to vocalise in a way that you can get others to really understand. my advice would be to find a good counsellor...it's really helping me at the moment...it may not be the first one you try so, try not to feel downhearted. Don't feel like you have to tell them everything automatically...perhaps after afew sessions tell them that you find opening up very hard and scary and that there is things you want to discuss and even though you want to be open your finding this difficult...and they should be able to help.

My mum did the same thing when i told her i had an eating disorder, she doesn't even no about the depression or that i have seen doctors, nurses and counsellors.i think that would be too much...but try to find someone, either another family member or a close friend you can confide in to support you because it's not easy going it alone.

I know seeking help is always difficult and going to counselling can be scary....but so is suffering in silence, isn't it? You have recognised you need help and you deserve it, please don't give up...because when you find the right source and you start to feel better it will all be worth it.

Just another thought is that perhaps your antidepressants aren't the right ones for you, sometimes it takes trial and area to find the right medication and consulting your gp about this maybe a good idea.

If you feel you need to talk to someone, ring the smaritans or you can email them too..check out their website :www.samaritans.org

You know it's real pet..even though sometimes it don't feel that way..it's real because you can admit it!

best of luck, get the help you deserve! x

Answer 5

Hard as it is...get it out in the open. Your mum will be worried yes, but think how much more upset she'd be if she lost you. Sometimes when something seems really bad, we dissociate ourselves from it and it never really seems real, but you need to come to terms with how you feel. You need to accept it, and feel it. To use a cliche, 'sometimes we need to hit rock bottom before we can rise back to the top'. Sometimes it can feel unreal, like it's not really us we can see heading downwards... but it IS you. Try to see the doctor and the counsellor again and just be totally honest. I know it's a scary thing to do, it takes a lot of balls to admit that you need help. If you are upfront about things, then you are more likely to accept that they are happening. after all, you cannot deal with something and move on if you haven't accepted the fact that it happened can you? Please get the help you need, and trust me...be honest with your mum. She'll appreciate it much more than a wall of silence and a possible suicide. It will worry her, but she can also help you...be a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, a rock to lean on etc etc. Good luck x

Answer 6

You should bring this up and be up front and truthful about how you feel. Otherwise, it will be hard for you to improve. A counselour or therapist can help you a lot, but only if you are open. However, you can help yourself even more than anyone else can. What is it in your life that you are missing? Companionship? A sense of belonging? Power? Address the situation, and set yourself a goal that you promise not to commit suicide until you have completed. What do you want to do with your life? Life is a gift, so treat it as one, and don't give it away lightly. If you set yourself a goal, you can do a lot. Do you want to help others in similar situations, or enlighten others to what you feel? Follow out this goal, and find a sanctuary for when it feels you can never succeed. Some people find a haven in religion or friends and family. People out there care about you, and I, for one, hope that you will survive this and come out stronger than ever before. Good luck to you and feel free to email me at [e-mail].

Answer 7

Sometimes words like "depressed" and "suicidal" don't communicate anything, especially to people who either care to much (your mum) or experts who are overloaded with work. How about you raise the red flag and tell your counselor that you are not SAFE? It's sounds like you might be in the UK, but in the US being safe from ending your life or another's is the bottom line. Your counselor and doctor can't help you if you blindfold them.
As for the very bad mess, these messes grow and fester in our own heads. Losing you would mean a lifetime of suffering for your mum and others. Nothing could be worse.
I hope this step of committing yourself to takes you another step toward help and health.

Answer 8

I don't know whether you believe in God but even if you don't-please ask Him for help and you will get it. I have been through the ringer with depression and tried suicide twice-and have found that while anti-depressants do work it is of utmost importance to share with another person your fears, guilts, resentments-sins too.It is important to look at what causes these fears/resentments because that is how I find out where I go wrong in life. I discussed these things again with someone in the 12 step fellowship I joined. I chose someone initially who didn't know me and was in a position of trust-a counsellor at an alcohol treatment unit. Eventually I wrote down my life story including all the painful things usually where I had hurt other people with my behaviour. I found that just by sharing these things with another human being(and God) An enormous weight lifted from my shoulders and the guilts and fears left me. If you decide to do this don't forget to keep your written 'story' safe and out of the hands of anyone else. (I don't know how old you are but please don't use a schoolfriend to confide in.) Resentments/grudges took longer. I asked God to forgive me for the things I did wrong-and still do. Amends need to be made to people too in time. Please don't hold anything back. I held one thing back and it nealy killed me. When I finally told someone about it my depression lifted. Priests or Vicars at your local church will help you if you ask. Or your doctor. It is very important to tell your doctor how you feel because he can refer you to a counsellor. Vicars, priests and counsellors are used to people with severe 'Life problems' May God look after you.

Answer 9

You have taken the first step by telling us how you feel, please please telephone your doctor, he will help you, but you must be honest with him and tell him absolutley everything. You may want to tell your mum too, Im sure if she knew how you were feeling, she would be glad that you had told her and not kept this to yourself.
Things may seem bad for you now, but with the right help you can start living a happy life again. Most of us need help at some time in our lives and you're not on your own. The samaritans are there too, if you need to talk, you will find their number in the phonebook.
Good luck and remember that it wont always be like this.
Take care of yourself x

Answer 10

Please, continue seeking help!! Just by asking this question, you are willing to, and want to get help for yourself. Your family and some of your friends may not be the best ones to talk to. Find a professional with whom you can tell the WHOLE truth to. Whatever your other problems may be, there are plenty of people who share your very same pain and problems. Also, keep working with different medications--it is very frustrating to find the right ones which may help you, but hang in there--you are worth it!