I cry almost everday and I often feel like stepping in front of moving vehicles.?

Question

I don't cry in front of people; i'll lock my self in a bathroom or closet or just wait until i'm alone..... I've had a troubling past including two suicide attempts (one when i was 12 and one when i was 14) and i was sexually abused, on more than one occasion...... I often feel alone and sick and tired all of the time..... i don't want people to know how i'm feeling so i put on this act,like everything's ok...........i hate myself....only i try not to but i can't )-:

Answer 1

Sounds like a very troubled past that deserves some professional help. There are lots of organizations that are open and willing to help you. Please seek the help you need from one of them.

Answer 2

I did this to myself for as long as I can remember. I am sorry you are feeling down and I hope you get better soon. I bottle up my emotions but you learn in life you just cant do that. Its like Mount St Helens, an eruption of hormones, estrogen, depression, anxiousness, suicidal thoughts/wishes...

Ive been suffering from depression since age 11 (I am 22 now). I do NOT take meds for depression for I fear the dependency or the side effects. I KNOW how it is to want to keep things to yourself and sometimes that seems like the right thing to do but in the long run you are only making matters worse by doing this. Im not saying go around and be negative 24/7 and let the world really know how you feel because then you would be sending out the wrong vibe and attracting the wrong type of attention.

Anytime you feel like you are down stop and think to yourself if its really worth it. I am positive you have family and friends who love and adore you and would be so upset and so devistated if you ever went through with your suicide attempts. PLEASE tell someone you trust (ie:family member/family friend) exactly whats going on and how you feel (or to a degree where you are comfortable). Your health is everything and your mental health can be keeping you from alot of wonderful things in life. Get help Reach Out Do it for those who love you.

If you ever need to talk/vent whatever, you can always email me I will be a fair lending ear:)

Feel better!! God Bless!

Answer 3

It's very hard to give someone advice on how you should feel when I haven't been through your experiences but maybe you could try to look at your experiences and kick them in the teeth. Screw the bastards that hurt you and be a great person. It's the best revenge. Don't let the bastards who hurt you hurt you more and take your life away from you. Only you can turn it around. You can't change the past but you can be a good person and be kind to others because you know how it hurts when people are not kind. You shouldn't hate yourself because you were a victim and it sounds as if you're blaming yourself. Hate the abusers. And know that they're suffering too that's why they abused you. They themselves haven't gotten over pain someone caused them and they're miserable. I assure you people who abuse others are not happy even when they do the abuse. I hope this helps you.

Answer 4

I've been to dark times, at the same side of the atlantic, with the big different south.I've still been to medication, but it's more due to the fluctuations (supposedly ones) of my moods, that woudl include depression. Don't stop you've started, any treatment, right away, but if once you really want to get rid of all this ****, I guess you can. Start by visiting this page in Holland and reading all information they have there for you. After that, feel free to get in touch and inform yourself. In your country, you'd have Dr Szasz blog as a resource for you to speak and inform yourself about your condition at the moment. But why not start by Mira de Vries' website from Amsterdam? It's a nice place, just read the articles carefully, and give it a time to aprehend what's said and then form your own opinions. It's surprising:
http://www.metzelf.info/index.html
Strenght, ease of mind, and control. Good luck.

Answer 5

See a doctor as soon as possible; tell the receptionist that you have attempted suicide before, so you are seen promptly. You should receive therapy and possibly medication. Take up Tai Chi and meditation. Exercise for 30 - 60 mins daily, and ensure proper nutrition; your brain needs it to function properly. Keep occupied. If the suicide impulse strengthens, call an ambulance; take a taxi or public transport to the nearest public health facility, or public hospital emergency room. Don't drive! Websites: http://www.suicidehotlines.com/national.html (national.html) and http://www.suicidepreventionhotline.org/ Phone: 1800 lifenet, 1800 7842433 & 1800 2738255

Answer 6

You could assess your diet perhaps you are in short supply of some minerals or some vitamins. Vitamin B is a necessary need for nerves perhaps have an extra intake for awhile. Eating extra citrus fruit oranges,mandarins and tomatoes may also help to perk you up.Taking on a regular exercise routine would be another good thing.Initially you will need to make yourself but eventually you will find it quite exhilarating and may even look forward to doing more. Talk to other people you may find that all of us have issues that are hard to deal with even the seemingly happy people. You are not alone perhaps you could try to be more helpful even insist politely in helping as this will help you as well. There are lots of unhappy people so try daily not to think of yourself but help someone else and remember to spoil yourself occasionally when you improve even only a little......

Answer 7

Hi Yuppers,
Yes i know how you feel. Because of your abuse in childhood these are normal reactions to those experiences. You must seek some professional help as soon as you can otherwise these feelings will last a lifetime. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Get some help sweety!! I promise your life will turn around for the better!!
God Bless~~

Answer 8

You really should get some help from a councilor or check yourself into a mental health place. I just went through this a few weeks ago but with the right medication and some counseling I am feeling allot better. I hate that people have to go through the same thing I went through I wish I could take all of it away from every one. It's really a bad thing but please get help believe me it does get better with the right professional help.

Answer 9

Call a counselor in the morning. That's the only advice I can give you since I don't know your particular situation, but the fact that you even asked this question means that you believe that you can get better (and you can!) Talk it out with someone who can really help.

Answer 10

Tell someone. It's so much worse keeping it inside. And please, there are people that care about you, I don't know if you are suicidal but if you are then you might want to vent to a suicide counselor, it actually will make you feel better.