Suicidal feelings?

Question

Im 19 years old male. I have been feeling very depressed up and down for years but as i have got older its got worse.

I have had suicidal feeling on and off for a couple of years. Some times i feel good other times the complete opposite, very depressed and really angry and suicidal.

Ive just had a suicidal episode and come home, my familiy arent intestead at all and are of little support. My mother is a depressive and finds it a joke, just goes on about moving house and ignores my upsets and problems.

I am waiting a siciatrist which has taken over 7 months so far. I get in a state some times, cry and get hot ect..

I have had paranoia problems and terrible confidence which results in me having no friends and no job at the moment.

I just got socalise with people at a work place or social event in the way I would like to - I also have acne scars and ance spots which appear to also add to my problems.

I dont no what to do and feel there is little support, please help.

Answer 1

The fact that you've "opened up" enough to ask this question is a very positive sign. I've found that people who TRULY are so depressed, (anti-depressants work, but much more is needed in conjunction), don't talk about it, don't warn anyone, leave notes or ANYTHING. No one here can evaluate everything that's making you speak of suicide, it's all relevant. I'd only venture to say that you definitely need to talk with someone, (therapist), probably get some meds until you stabilize & PUT SUICIDE OUT OF YOUR MIND. I had a client who really intended to kill herself with her gun; a friend had seen the "signs" & taken out the cartridges. She was so upset she called the Crisis line, & the cops traced her, & took her to the psyciatric ward where, believe me, she learned A LOT. She's had many happy years since then, is married & has a son, & will always be grateful to her friend. & often, the people you "hope" will be the most understanding, (like your mother), are NOT. Most often, it takes someone very objective. Honestly, I don't think acne should have anything to do with WHO YOU ARE, although I sort of comprehend why it compounds the way you feel about yourself. Please get support from someone. It's out there, & you won't regret it.

Answer 2

These thoughts are neither normal or okay for someone to have. They are, however, normal for a depressed person to have. I highly recommend finding a psychiatrist or a counselor (possibly a better match than the one you see right now) to either talk your way out of these feelings or to put you on meds. You're not alone. I, personally, used to have suicidal thoughts, but it is a horrible way to go through life. I was miserable and lost friends. I'm not sure but I think it might be called chronic depression where you are always sad, no matter what, which is the way I am. Medications have improved my life dramatically. I think back to where I used to be in my life pre-meds and wonder how I ever got through it. These feelings are and should have been a warning sign that you need external help. Please schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist ASAP. Hopefully, within a month, you will be feeling MUCH better.

Answer 3

Sounds like a chemical imbalance. I recommend getting on anti depressants.

Next, these thoughts are allowed to manifest themselves because your brain is 'free wheeling'. Don't give your brain the luxury of free time to conjure up these demons. Engage your brain - read a book. Learn. Do some maths. These processes bring you to the here and now and block the idle brain from manifesting the thoughts, feelings and images that are causing you such distress.

Practise meditation and relaxation. Research depression - go to the library and get some books on it.

Exercise. Get running. 10 km 3 times a week.

You're young. You can get past these issues. Go and speak to someone at the CAB regards getting your own place - getting away from your family will probably help as you will have your own space. Getting a job might be a good first step but if you're really suffering (obviously if you're visibly affected by your circumstances, if your confidence is low etc) then employment right now may be very difficult to achieve - have you thought about volunteering - again it'll engage you get you out of the house give you new experiences and exposure to new people.

I know its hard right now, teenage years are problematic for every one but particularly so if you have good reason to be sad.

Don't suffer in silence - perhaps a visit to your GP might be advisable as well.

Good luck and don't try anything daft again - it will come right, honest.

Answer 4

life is too good to commit suicide at least that what I was told. You sound like u need to get away from your family and find some place else to move. I have been in your shoes but never tried it. I moved away from my parents and life is not easy but hey you have to learn how to deal with it.http://www.suicide.com/ go to this site and see if you can find suicide crises center. If you make it pass this, ten years from now you will say oh how could i have thought about doing this. YOu are a person and you need all the help and support you can get. First move away from non supportive people they will change when they will see you are not playing.I left home when I was 18 ans did not tell any one where I was at. I joined Job Corps and I had a cousin thier that told my parents.I am 31 and a year go I decided to go to nursing school. My mom talk to me like I was **** and told me I would not finish. I sold my house and moved to San Antonio with out anyone knowing and I have three more months before I become a nurse. take control of your life and get some help, you will be glad at what you can achive in life.

Answer 5

Someone cares about you. I have been where you are now and I know it feels like he-l. You must see your family Dr. If ya don't have one then just call and make an appointment with any of them. State your problem when you make the appoint. This way they will know which Dr. will be best for you. They will get you on some anti-depressants and then get some help with your acne. Many things can be done to improve the condition of the skin. Don't give up or give in. Hang on and hang in there. There is help out there. Don't be afraid to ask or to accept help. If you are doing drugs at this time, please stop. If not, great! Drugs and drink make everything much worse..Do not wait to get help. Can go to an emergency room or clinic. People will help you! God Bless.

Answer 6

if you are 19 years old then, by law you are an ADULT and can seek medical attention and should do so immediatly. Depression is not to be taken lightly and your mom sounds like she just doesnt understand or know what depression is about. When I was depressed my husband didnt understand, thought I was doing it for attention and could just snap out of it, which gave me NO support and made me feel worse! Just ignore what your mom or anyone else says thats hurtful or wrong. Go get the help you need, get to a Dr or go to the hospital. Please do something before there is nothing you can do. Also counseling sessions would be a great thing to get into as well to help talk about your feelings. Good luck and if you need to talk to me or have question you can click on my picture and can find my info to contact me.

Answer 7

young man only 19 years old and having problems .why and what is the cause.Good thing u are working and most time spent at work.In spare time see your friends go to library and read good self motivation books and play any games you like.Learn another skill any thing u like.The acne and spots are due to your age and stress making it worse.Go for more raw salads and fruits and vegetable.add lot of fibre to the diet.drink plenty water and eat an apple a day and this will keep your psychiatric away.tell me more about your root problem and i am sure that you will be totally differnt person in few weeks. email me and share the problem.Take some vitamin b comlpex tablets and tell me the difference in 30 days.any problems [e-mail] in total confidence.

Answer 8

I can totally relate- two weeks ago I sent my mum a goodbye text.

I know what you mean by so littlke support and think it ios appalling you are still waiting for help from professionals.

I actually went private for helpm and now see a psychotherapist which helps enoromously- I would recommend it but I know that it costs money and though I am ok with going without things as my emotional health is so bleak and so draining if I dont get help/see someone, then I have no qualitiy of life., I am not sure everyone else is ok with going with out though so test things out before emarking on anything- also different types therapys work for different types of people.

I have an agreement with my psychotherapist that if I ever feel suicidal and I faal I am indanger of taking my life, than I will go to accident and emergency (E.R if you are reading this in the U.S). They will see you and refer you to an oncall psychiatrist who will see you in the same day/night. You may be kept on a ward- this is a good thing, not a punishment, they are trying to stop yhou taking your life and are able to help you find a way out of the blackness of the depression you are in.

There is a way out- please believe me.

I also find it really helpful to speak to the samaritans whose number is 0845 90 90 90, and they are availible 24 hours a day, calls are costed at local landline rates. I have only ever had one bad episode when calling the samaritans, but it was so far overshadowed by my recent callings where they called me back two days in a row- which helped so much I cant tell you.

I can relate to the family thing too. I am currently staying witrh my mum- I normally live alone- and I think shes fed up wioth me not being able to cope, shes been hinting at me being in the way whilst I am staying at her place, and the atmosphere you could cut with a knife. But I dont feel safe at home alone so I am staying put until she packs my bags for me. !- know she wants her own space back but I have to keep myself safe and hope. Difficult but possible- if even a tiny tiny bit possible, it is still possible and thats important to remember.

Hnag on for the psychiatrist, it will help, it wont help immdeiatly to take away your depression, but will help and make things far better then you realise right now.

You can get out of this I promise, it wont always feel this bad

Answer 9

Hi,
I know it must be very disconcerting not having a family that is supportive.
When you read all the comments from the people on here supporting you, say to yourself " this is the first day of the rest of my life". Then on Monday morning go to your doctor, or even a different one to the usual one that you see in your GP practice, and ask him/her to put you on a course of Oxytetracyclin for you skin problem you will start to see a difference in it after a very short time. It may well be that you will be put on a course of it for about 2-3 months. It really does work. I think that because you have this really problematic skin complaint this makes you feel worse.

Tell the doctor exactly how you feel, and that it alienates you from people, and that you would like to be put in contact with people that can be supportive to your feelings.

Do this for all of us, so that we can keep talking to you on here, we all would love to see you back here to answer your questions, and for you to give us answers to some of our problems.

Chin up fella!!

Answer 10

You shouldn't have to wait so long to receive counselling. Go back to your doctor, or try a different one, and explain your problems, both suicidal thoughts and acne. Suicide phone hotline numbers (USA): 1800 lifenet, 1800 7842433, 1800 2738255 Internet: http://www.suicidehotlines.com/national.htm & http://www.suicideprevention.org/ & http://www.spsfv.org/gettinghelp.htm Practice the following for 20 minutes daily, and when depression occurs: Sit comfortably in a quiet, darkened room with a lighted candle, and gaze at it. Focus your awareness totally on the feeling your breath makes at the point where it enters and leaves your body, preferably breathing through the nose, regularly, in and out, in and out, in and out. Dismiss any thoughts that come up as being mere distractions, and return to the process. Eat healthily, exercise for 30 - 60 mins. daily, and keep occupied.