Why shouldn't I kill myself?

Question

I'm gonna lay it all on the table here:
I'm a 24 year old United States Marine. I have served 2 Tours in Iraq, getting ready for a third. I'm confident around my Marines, good at my job, and pretty friendly. I take care of my guys, and don't neglect my responsiblities. And I want to kill myself.

It's like being a number. I'm just another Sergeant, sure if I die they will have to inventory my gear, tell my wife (who is on the other side of the country), and then what? They bury me and that's it. No one will remember me, or care inside 4 months that I'm gone. The Corps will not even blink. My wife is more interested in moneymaking and her career than me, and I'm reserved in private, so I don't ikeep many close friends. My own family doesn't like me, though they play nice about it. I'm just a 'nice guy' who people only call when they need something, or when the USMC wants me to kill people for them.

I need a reason to live.

Answer 1

Don't, its not worth it. My boss and his wife were having marrital problems and he knew she was cheating on him and he didn't want to talk to anyone. We all knew at work that he was down in the dumps, but she was 40 and thought why should i be like this , and never enjoy life and all he wanted was to have a life of fun and enjoyment with his kids and his wife. But she tried to take everything from him and he just couldn't take it anymore , so one monday morning he never came to work and we all knew what had happened before anybody else did. But we hoped!!! that he didn't do it .
sad to say, the neighbor found him in his garage, and he had shot himself in the heart. Guess he didn't want that pain anymore.
So if you think that killing yourself will solve any problems in your life. Think of all of the gifts God has given you OK?

Answer 2

Bless your heart. Please,realize that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. You are an unsung hero to millions even if you don't know us. My father took his own life when i was 18-i am now 36 the same age he was when his personal demons took him from me. The pain that you're feeling now will subside;the pain you leave for others will not. Trust me when i say that you will find reasons to live,more than you could ever imagine if you will only look inside yourself. Not just anyone has what it takes to serve his country and wake up in the morning not knowing what the day holds for him or his guys. Please talk to a chaplain or clergyperson about your feelings...i'm concerned about you.

Answer 3

I am deeply saddened by your question.

First I would like to thank you for the sacrifices you have made to keep me and my family safe.

I am sorry about the way things seem to be going in your life right now. I would love to tell you that things are not as bad as they seem, but really I have no way of knowing that so I will not try to talk down at you.

I have a suggestion for you, and before you disregard it as stupid keep in mind that you have tried it your way and that does not seem to be working so good for you.

Find God. He lives in just about every church and foxhole, and put your life in his hands, really whole heartedly trust in him. Go to your chaplain and tell him you are lost and need direction, he can show you where you need to start. If you are serious about ending your life anyway how about trying this first. If things still seem as bad as they do now a year from now, at least you will know you tried.

Please believe that you are here for a reason. I believe you are here for a reason, and I believe that you deserve a life of happiness. I also believe that you can find it if you look in the right place.

Answer 4

Because you are doing some good for our country and are appreciated by many. Why don't you break it off if you feel like your wife doesn't love you? You don't deserve to be treated unfairly when you are fighting for our rights and safety. Hope this reaches you in time...and if you have the internet, go to 93.3 the planet out of sc. they love our soldiers and do what they can to help out...shoot them an email!