do you think i still love him?or was it love?

Question

i liked him eversince i was 11, i always had that special feeling for him , i used to fight with him about simple matters in school just to get his attention, he once told me he loved me, but as a kid, i dont think that was ever true.
eventhough in high school we were no longer school mates, i still think of him, dream about him everyday, wishing that somehow he could still be close to me, he is constantly in my thoughts and i wrote about 10 poems or more for him,
in college ive resolved to write about my feelings for him, though i know its too late, i just wanted him to know, he never replied anyway,i dont know what made me think that we both feel the same, when all this years i was a forgotten past, i dont know why i was so hooked with him, i know he is not worth my love, not worthy of my attention,i was rejected, but it doesnt seem to matter, i still wish the best for him, i still cry whenever i meet him at the school in college, i dont want to talk to him,am i still in love

Answer 1

it sound like you did have strong feeling for him for many years
and that normal to have these feeling. but as you get older
your feeling may change for him. but as for first love it
will be something that you will cherish .but you will find
that love you had for him was just that.