Why live? Need some good reasons?

Question

Would like a few reasons to live. Have two kids that my husband is telling I am crazy. I am not. have disease which causes pain, so my husband is sick of me and asks for a divorce. I treated him very well. No reason to be here anymore.
Too tired and too much pain that people don't think is real. No friends, no family, so would like a reason to be here on earth.
God has given me way too much and at every turn I am dealt with more. I am not crying "why me?", I'm saying "please stop"!

I do believe in God. But its one thing after another. And I am a good person. I got sick and had to retire from military - I loved what I did . I cannot work because of kidney disease so I have not been able to do my RN job. I have raised two kids almost on my own, but my huisband complains that I do nothing. We move every three years but I never get thanks. I lost my father and my husband didn't even go to funeral. Told me to get over it. I told him to get over his father's death - I got beat up. I report him - I get almost arrested and child services say that I am the one with problem. (Husband is a good talker) Now I have discoid lupus. My husband syas I discust him - has not touched me in 9 months - no hand holding, no kisses. Tells everyone I do it on purpose. Why I stay - financial. I leave he threatens to take everything - including kids. Why? I was good to him. Not perfect. Friends? We just moved. And I am very far from a moron

I am on meds for depression. I was in counseling. I even had one counselor say to me after weeks of talking to her -" I don't knw what to do or say for you?" Can you believe that? I once called a suicide hotline.....serious...I was put on hold so she could answer another call. I am not lying. I am asking ...I need someone to love me. is that too much?

I have been married 25 years. I did want to stay married at first. But I don't anymore. I have found out too much that has gone on behind my back. While I was "trying" to be the good wife, he was talking to females everyday. I can't even think about talking to males. HHe scares me. He set me up to get in trouble with the law...so in case I fight him on the kids, he has proof. I could have thrown him in jail...but I felt sorry and protective about him, and now he screws me. Nice way to say thanks. He was my best friend.

Answer 1

Please DON'T give up.
Your husband doesn't understand and is being cruel not only to you and your children. I am sure you love him, but it is crucial you get away from him for your own health.
How old are your children? Are you in counseling? Sounds like you have severe depression.
The answer to your question is in your question - your two kids. And don't forget yourself - you are an obviously intelligent woman who is overwhelmed. I've been there, but without the kids. (I had a hubby who turned out to be gay and who tried to destroy my self confidence, and make it out to be MY problem!)
Give your husband a divorce. Even if you do love him, trust me - being away from the verbal/mental/emotional abuse will help you tremendously. You can do it, and you will be happier.
Your happiness is important. Don't put yourself last.
You can have a happy life, and a meaningful life. I'd start by joining a caring church and sharing with them your problems. I am not a "Bible thumper," but I do believe in God and He won't give you anything you can't handle, with His help.
Friends can be made, and a church can be family. If one doesn't click with you, try another. Remember you do not need to be perfect to go to church - it isn't for perfect people, but for people who seek God and spirituality.
God wants you to turn to Him for help. He doesn't just hand it out - we have free will, so you have to ask.
There is a reason you are here, you just don't know it yet. And there are other men out there who WILL love you and treat you like you deserve, when you are ready for that.
Please feel welcome to e-mail me any time. I do not know you, but something is telling me to help you in any way I can. I don't know what that is, but maybe talking (email) will help.
I care, because you are a fellow human being who is suffering from things I've been through. I don't know what your illness is causing pain, but I believe you. Why would you make that up??
Please don't give up.

Answer 2

Do you want to stay married to your husband? You didn't mentioned love when you talked about your marriage. Your anger with life, means you need to get help not just for you but you have kids to think about too and you don't want to put that guilt on them for the rest of their lives. Your kids need you even if your husband acts like he doesn't. Figure out what you want and need for your life and make it happen. If the only reason you are married is duty and you are miserable as him then maybe you should free yourself from a bad situation but not the world. There's way too much out there that is and can be good if you open your eyes.

Answer 3

God put us on this earth for a reason. You have just a lot to bear right now. You need to change directions in your life. Do not be with someone who wants a divorce...they will not treat you right. Get the right medication and therapy. Join some groups to make friends. Do some fun things with your kids...get involved in something with them where you are outside and with other people. Your kids need you and would be devastated without you. Force yourself to find what will make you happy...once you are feeling better on the inside, you will be able to realize why it IS important to live.

Answer 4

You were created for a purpose and one of them is to be a mom to your kids. It is real real important to them that you are there for them throughout their lives.

Also, if this man loved you once, but now cannot handle whatever is going on with you, it means that you are lovable and acceptable, it's just this guys problem that he is not faithful enough to stand by you and work through this like he should.

If someone promises to stay with you until death do you part, and attempt to break that promise they are the oath breakers. They are the person who is letting down God and you and the vows you made.

You are worth it You are worth it you really are! E-mail me if you want me to give you more reasons.

Answer 5

God will not give you what you can not handle. Life is so hard and at times it seems like it is not worth it. you are at a hard point in your life, but it wont always be that way. ive been where your at. I don't have a disease but all pain is different. I just think that if I would have killed myself I would be missing out on so much in life. maybe if your into it you should go to church or consoling. someone to talk to. because I don't believe that you don't want to be here anymore or you wouldn't be asking yahoo users to give you reasons to be here, you just need someone to talk to someone to vent your frustrations to. I allow emails you can always email me. I know its not the same but it anonymous. I wish you all the best. think of your kids they love you, they are just in there dads phase of life.

Answer 6

You should live because you are only given one life here on earth,,You need to start praying, and being obedient to the Lord, go to Church more often. I have struggled alot in my life and I used to think the same things you are thinking, why live? Now I see how stupid and selfish it was for me to think like that,, If I would have died then I would see everything I do now, I wouldnt have a wonderful Husband, and new relationships with my sisters and family,,,times are still hard at times,, but you know the Lord never gives you something you cannot handle. Keep believing and good things will come to you.

Answer 7

I ask that question myself but then I realized that we were put on this earth to help someone and if I commit suicide I would be the caus of someone elses misery and to caus someonel else the same pain that you go through would be worse than life now

Answer 8

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Answer 9

well for starters poeple unlike you that are smart dont ask that question. and i'm only11 dork