is this normal ? in need of so much help...?

Question

I am 20 years old and female.. i have been through a LOT in my life -at the age of 14 my dad passed away - shortly after i was diagnosed with Leukemia ( a blood cancer ) - (I went through 2 years of chemo) shortly after i got 4 surgeries ( both hips and shoulders - due to side effects of drugs i was taking for my Leukemia ) - shortly after my good friend was killed by a drunk driver .. Though ALL this -i am just NOW feeling everything (after 2 / 3 years).I have found this last year that i am soooo depressed - i feel like crying all the time.Nothing makes me happy.I am at a stand still in my life.I feel so anxious all the time. I treat my boyfriend like crap for no reason - just because i am depressed ... is this normal ? i mean i have been through a lot right? i am entitled to be depressed? but why is this happening now? when i was going through everything i was SO Strong .. and now i feel like im falling apart. Can anyone relate? any input would help! - Thanks in advance!

Answer 1

I totally relate, but ..... let me share something with you that I received in the email this morning from TheDailyEnlightenment.com which I find to be true and a bit inspirational (grammar mistakes not mine):

"But no one don't owe us our happiness; we owe it to ourselves - because our happiness is the basic existential right that we control. Of course, it is good to share our happiness too, but it doesn’t mean we can be happy only when others share their happiness with us. Moment to moment, happiness is a personally chosen state of mind, not defined by other persons. No one has the power to hold our happiness ransom. Though we might unmindfully "pass" this power to others, we just need to change our minds to reclaim this power instantly. Not always easy, but always possible. Your happiness is at stake! Be happy - or you will be unhappy!"

In other words, even though you may rightfully feel that you have plenty of reason to be depressed, it doesn't change the fact that only you are responsible for your happiness, and you CAN choose happiness from one moment to the next. Good luck.

Answer 2

From one cancer survivor to another, you may want to investigate getting into a support group. While going through chemo, radiation and all the after surgeries, you received a lot of attention and found an inner strength you probably weren't aware of and now that it is behind you (hopefully forever) Your brain has a chance to recoil and the frustration, anger what ever you want to call it is coming out as depression. In a support group, you will find that you are not the only one going through this turmoil and can they can help you find the appropriate help, possibly medication to help you deal with the depression.

I wish you well.

Answer 3

hi, i can't say i relate to all the difficult things you have gone through, and all i can say is you must be very strong if you were able to make it through all that. but what i can tell you is that my dad suffers from depression, due to him being diagnosed with an illness that changed his life, prevented him from working, etc., and this all happened to him at a relatively young age. the thing that has helped him get through it has been therapy, and medication to treat his depression. yes, you deserve to feel sad for all the loss you've experienced, but you need to talk to someone about it, so you can get past the point where you are focusing on the sadness and you can start living your life. Find a good psychiatrist, I really think that will help, and if you are able to, be close to your family. Good luck and best wishes.

Answer 4

Wow, you have been through alot! Your system has just decided to catch up with everything you've been through. My suggestion is to go to your family physician, they can help with medication. There are some great meds out there that will help your system thru this, also if you have insurance that covers it, I would suggest seeing someone (therapist) to talk to. They can be expensive so if you can't afford one, hang around family and friends and talk alot to them. This helps you to know you are loved. You are not alone feeling this way. Good Luck girl.

Answer 5

because it is finally hitting you like...Wow i cant believe i been through that and where has my life gone. you know what im saying? but its good that you know you were strong during those times and you know its possible so you CAN be strong and its possible to be again. As for treating your boyfriend like crap- i'd be careful, hes only going to take your excuse of "going through so much" for only so long...guys cant deal with being treated badly- its just like any girl, i wouldnt want to continually be put down...i would drop a guys *** so fast if he treated me badly. But i know youve been through alot just get someone to talk to and help you so you dont end up losing your boyfriend too....make yourself strong again ASAP.