Parents, please help?

Question

I love both of my parents and my sister very much. My father is a sociopath and since I was in third grade he manipulated me and played me against my mother. Of course, now, I see it was all a bunch of lies. He walked out last year but I still feel like I am emotionally scarred. I don't feel like I can talk to my mom and I feel like my sister will only support my mother and tell her everything. I think my father lied to me so much I developed a emotional disorder. I think I am bi-polar and I really want to tell my mom but every time I come close, I get too afraid. I am hurting the people I care about most because I can't control my emotions. I go from a random rage to wanting to die. On one of the times I was feeling extremely depressed, I started to cut my wrists. Everytime I try to stop that I can't so I'm beginning to think I am addicting to slitting my wrists. I feel like my mom and my sister are a family and I am just there. My mom recently went through back surgery so I don't

want to stress her out. If you were my mom in this situation, would you want your child to tell you all this? Please give me some advice. I have had a few minor breakdowns at night that she has neverr seen but I think I am about to have a major one. All of this is effecting my school work. I have heard that drugs/alcohol made you feel numb to all your problems so I am contemplating trying them. Everytime I go into a depressed mode all I can think about is how much I'd love to die. I am in eighth grade now. Please give me some advice Thanks.

And I'm not sure if this information will change your answers but: I feel like everyone I trust let's me down.

I am having minor breakdowns two times as much as before.

No matter how hard I try, I can't let the memories of my father go.

Answer 1

As a mother myself, I understand that it is hard to talk to your mom, but your mom is your friend, and she loves you no matter what. she gave you life. here is what i would do. I would walk up to her, and say mom, i know we have had some difficult times, but i would really like to talk to you. Then sit down, calmly, and talk to her. tell her how you feel, and what you are thinking. ask her for help, because that is what she is there for. then you need to sit calmly and listen to what she has to say, i do believe that it will all work out. you need not to feel that your not part of the family, because your mom will always be your mom and she will always be there for you and love you NO matter what is going on in your life. try it and then tell me if it worked.

Answer 2

As A Mother, I Would Absolutely Want My Child To Come To Me With These Feelings! Nothing That Has Happened In Your Life Is Your Fault, And I Am Sure That Your Mother Knows That. You Have To Talk To Her, This Is Very Serious And You Need To Reach Out, If You Can't Talk To Her, Then You Should Really Reach Out To Someone You Trust, That Will Send You In The Right Direction... It's Very Sad That You Have Been Let Down So Much In Your Life, Have You Turned To The Lord? He Will Never Let You Down... If You Weren't Raised To Know Jesus Christ, Maybe Now Is The Time To Reach Out To Him, As Well..... Best Wishes To You! I Will Pray That You Find The Answers That You Are Seeking

Answer 3

Sweety you have way too big a problem to be dealt with here. First off I would say you are suffering from depression with thoughts of suicide. This is serious. Tell your Mom that you are thinking of killing yourself. You do not have to go into the whole thing with your Dad you do have to get some immediate help. She loves you and she will take this seriously. If you really cannot talk to her go to the councilor at school. He or she will be able to talk to your Mom and they will have names of doctors that you can see to help you. Don't start drinking or doing drugs these will mask the problem for a short while but then it will come back worse than before. Please go get some help it is out there and you so desperately need it. I will add you to my prayer list and wish you good luck. There are people who care about you please get the help you need.

Answer 4

If you 'can't talk' to your mother for ANY reason, you should go to your 'school counselor' and be TOTALLY HONEST about what you think is 'wrong with you.' Your school counselor will then be able to 'help you' get whatever 'help' you need to 'get better.'
Now, let me reassure you that your 'bad spells' are JUST that ... 'bad spells' and you are NOT HAVING SMALL BREAKDOWNS. I know that you 'need help' and I know that it will 'take some time' for you to get the help you need ... but if you can simply remember that you are just 'having a bad spell' and not think that you are 'having a small breakdown' then you'll find that 'the world and your importance in it' looks a lot better to you ... and you can 'get the HELP you need' by talking to your 'counselor' at school ASAP. You don't need to make an appointment ... just go there anytime during the school day and tell the counselor that 'it's important' and that you need 'IMMEDIATE HELP.'
And you must NOT CUT YOURSELF any more, dear. It is 'not okay' even if you are feeling 'suicidal' ... and 'cutting' is one of the 'symptoms' you'll need to tell your counselor about RIGHT AWAY ...

Answer 5

All this sounds very complicated and beyond advise from strangers. Go to the School Guidance Dept. they are there to give you help, it is free and they can point you in the right
direction to talk with professional councilors that know how to help you get through this.
Also a visit to your family doctor would be advised
Good luck = you show you will get through this because you have the good sense to ask for help..

Answer 6

listen ur mom is like a great friend u can ever have i would def go and tell her b/c u will be letting everyone down if u get hurt wih all the things u r doing just come clean to ur mom tell her everything or aother adult u cuz trust very well like other family members

Answer 7

sweetie, I am 45 yrs old and was and still am like you. But I got some help from MHMRA. I don't know how old you are but if you are in school please talk to a counselor or a teacher you trust. It's know laughing matter. And by the way your dad didn't walk out on you. He ran from his phobias (his fears) don't let that bull-poo get to you just remember you are want comes first after God if you are religious.

Answer 8

Do not wait. Go today to your local mental health facility and get some help. Your father has messed you up and you need some help to deal with it. Maybe Mom and sister could come to some sessions with you and your therapist could help you tell your Mother about everything. Plz go today and get some help -you really need it.

Answer 9

First of all you need to talk to someone, it doesn't matter who, like a school counselor. There must be somebody you can talk to who will listen and give you some good advice. It sounds like you need some professional help from a psychologist, and there are many medications available to help depression and bipolar disorder. My daughter has been bipolar for many years, but we have always had a pretty good relationship and she talked to us. Talk to someone.

Answer 10

i really do no how u feel. my parents split up and my mom became an alcoholic and i had to live with my dad. even though i have my step-mom, i feel she is nothing compared to my mom. i used to cry everynite because i thought my mom left because of me. i thought of myself as the bad one, or burden my dad got stuck with. i saw him and my step-mom and siblings as one big happy family and i was just the ugly duckling. i needed some one to talk to so bad. if you EVER need anyone to talk to i hope u can find it in ur heart to be able to talk to me. im 15,by the way. drugs arent the answer! i used to plan my suicide! believe me, its not fun. shutting urself away from the world isnt gonna help, u will just end up (if u already havent) thinking no one loves u because u have distanced ur self. one thing that helped me through what ur going through was the song 'because of you' by kelly clarkson. it made me cry because it described me. also the song 'perfect' by simple plan. if ur mad at ur dad, then just think of him if u ever listen to the songs! love ya