Why does my mom have to go back to him?

Question

ever since me my mom and bro haved moved out i've been much happier...i've also realized that i'm much more comfortable here and feel like i finally have a home (besides my grandparents house).........i know this sounds bad but i hope my dad becomes an asshole again so my mom leaves and hopefully forever..........my mom is a typical woman...you know can't be alone desperate for love/husband (when she says she doesn't even loven him!)...and is worried about the money........i feel sad and feel like crying when she talks about going back..........i feel like no1 cares about my feelings and i hate having to deal w/ this ****!.....i just wanna get into drugs or drink sometimes.......

i can live w my grandma but my mom said not 4ever pluz he's there my dad's there all the time! tht's another reason why i luv this place cuz he hardly cums here.......it's like my 1 happy place and even when he's here for dinner or 2 mins. i hate it!..................what do i do??

i can live w my grandma but my mom said not 4ever pluz he's there my dad's there all the time! tht's another reason why i luv this place cuz he hardly cums here.......it's like my 1 happy place and even when he's here for dinner or 2 mins. i hate it!..................what do i do??

don't read the 3rd part....accident

Answer 1

Sounds like the mission on your mind is just plain isolation... good luck getting that in this life. Seems you might fair better with that twisted dynamics in your family if you get some pride from conflicting with them about your feels. Thats why teenagers rebel, its part of the whole becoming an adult thing. And be able to relate your feelings and opioins in a way that can satisfy you and the person your dealing with is a damn good life skill. Let it flow seems mom and dads have a relationship unrelated to how well you feel about it. Thats pretty bad setup and usually comes about because your really not the main reason the bond is still there. Sounds like insecurities which well make it damn hard for them to be the Mom and Dad you need. But don't let them control you feelings, let them out, and its a good time to learn that you make yourself happy despite where your at. It shouldn't matter weather your in hell or heaven you make your own bed as long as your propared to get up and do something about it. Just don't go off and kill anyone... never needs to go that far...