Life is too hard to live. I want to die! But God will burn me in hell. Should I be mad at God for this?

Question

I really don't see where it should be God's choice if I live forever in hell or heaven anyway.

I am not seeking to anger God, I just don't like him & I am not afraid to say so.

I have no desire to live forever. At all. Why can't he be kind & give me what I really want? Why does he have to always force his will on me & rape me of having anything I want?

I don't understand. Can it be so hard for God? Must I live forever?

P.S. Why is rape not a sin when God does it to you?

I have been raped of having any life at all by things that happened to me.

Thank you for showing me how holy you are, gabriel. But if you never lust, why did you marry your woman?

You fell prey to women too.

You are no stronger than anyone else. Lust is lust whether in marriage or not. Sure, you may love each other, but you cant have a marriage with 0 lust.

That makes her beauty pointless. You might as well not care if she dresses up for you & just boink her with the lights out if you have no lust.

Answer 1

We took a vote
and agreed
we are going to petition God to allow YOU to die !!!

Good Luck !!!

Answer 2

Wow. And I thought I was angry with God.
I started to answer this because your opening statement was something I've faced in the past, many times in fact. It has truly pissed me off that I "can't" just kill myself, that the very act of ending my pain just opens up a new can of worms, thanks to GOD, Who, if He won't end my pain, should at least allow me to!

Here's my thing, though. I go through these majorly depressed feelings, then I feel better, then I feel like I can handle Life, then I go through the same crap again. Right now, I'm on the "think I can handle Life right now" phase, so I'm answering you from here.

First, I am pretty sure that heaven and hell is personalized. If you think "burning" is unbelievable torture, then you will burn in hell. But I can think of much worse torture, and I think that it is really possible I could spend my eternal life experiencing those lover-ly possibilities. Same with heaven. So, for you, if your idea of heaven is to be completely "dead," then heaven would be the thing to "try" for, by not ending your life.

Second, being mad at God is what happens when we realize, as people, that we can't influence Him the way we want. "Why can't He, why won't He, why doesn't He?" is and has been and will always be our questions for God. We don't realize, until we are in "a different place," that He's answering, or whatever, because we are in too much pain to hear anyone. (I'm still waiting for an answer to this question--If, God, I can't hear You because I'm in too much pain, why can't You adjust Your answering so that I CAN hear you?)

So, the irritating thing to realize is, no matter how mad we get at God, He won't change, so we won't get that satisfaction of seeing Him hurt by our anger.

But the good thing is, when we start to feel better, we know that God hasn't changed and He still loves us, even though we acted like such jerks to Him before.

God remains a stabilizing, if incredibly frustrating, force in my life against my moods and situations.

Answer 3

Why do you attribute to God what sinful men have done to you? Can't you see you are blaspheming? You want His help yet you say in effect "You will never help me because you are cruel and evil."
Hebrews 11:6 says "Without faith it is impossible to please Him, for the one who comes to God must believe the He exists, and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him."

The reason for your anxiety and vexation is your unbelief. God has testified through the Gospel that He sent His Son from heaven, who lived a perfect sinless life and died on a cross to make atonement for the sins of all men - yours and mine; and then God raised him again from the dead.
36 years ago I was where you are - vexed and tormented by my own sinfulness and blaming God instead. It says in Proverbs: "The foolishness of a person subverts his way, and then his heart rages against the Lord." (Proverbs 19:3)
I thank God it didn't end that way. When I was at my lowest God spoke into my heart one day saying "Maybe Jesus really did die for your sins." With that one word, the burden lifted, the light filled my heart and I knew for the first time that God really did love me and forgave me and that the Gospel was the truth. I was born again that day, and life has been different ever since. I stepped out of the darkness, into His marvelous light.
It comes down to this, you must believe in your heart - not just your head; but unless you humble yourself and acknowledge you aren't as smart as you think, your head will never let your heart take that step.
Jesus Christ is the answer. Call upon God in His name today, because He said "whoever comes to Me, I will certainly not cast out." (John 6:37)

Answer 4

God wants all of us to live with him. He loves you no matter what you do. all he wants is for you to aknkowladge he is Lord and pray for him to come into your heart. and according to the bible Heaven is perfect. nothing bad will ever happen to you there ever again. It is perfect. so just consider this and wait. God has a plan for everyone.

Answer 5

Try Prozac and find a good non denominational church to go to. Things can get better, many have suffered and found hope and healing in Jesus.

Answer 6

Its like u have something u really love. and the thing just tells u that i want to die.

and u really want the best for the thing, and u know that if the thing just places his/her trust in you, he/she can definitely get the best of out life.

how can He rape u of anythin u want? its ur choice afterall. URS.

Answer 7

your not humble enough or simple enough! make a list of all the things you want but don't need and then make a list of why you don't need them and make yourself really, really feel like you don't want them anymore and them you might get them but it will feel like a hollow victory because its just lust and greed and gluttony!