I have been feeling really depressed and anxious recently?

Question

I feel so guilty because I've been so horrible to a lot of people. I work for an agency and have been going to a residential home for four years now. I did a night shift and saw anote quibbling about 5 minutes extra that I put down on my time sheet. This angered me because I have done a lot extra for them eg: staying past my finishing time. In response to this I wrote **** off in the communication book, told them that they were petty bastards and wrote get lost. I also put that I'd never be coming there for a shift again. I'm just depressed and need to take it out on someone. All the staff hate me and I know what i've done is wrong. I just feel so anxious and depressed and I know proberbly a lot of people are going through the same thing. I just feel very ill at ease socially and it's making my mood very low and imparing my concentration and my performance at work. I have started a course of anti depressants about a week ago. Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated.

Answer 1

Your reaction to the "quibble" is not surprising, it is difficult to react any other way, when your work is questioned in this manner. However I understand why you regret reacting in this way, and how it is making you feel uncomfortable at work.

You seem to have recognised the fact that you have a problem, and are taking steps to get back on track. But problems like this may hinder your recovery, unless you deal with them.

I experienced similar problems when I was pregnant and found it difficult to cope at work, and argued with my colleagues as a result. I eventually saw my GP and was referred for counselling. I also asked to speak to my supervisor in private. I explained that I was suffering from stress and anxiety due to my hormones, and that I was seeking help. I acknowledged that I had been difficult to work with, and aplogised.

You might not feel comfortable doing this, but it will probably save you from discomfort and bad feeling in the long run. You may also want to explain why you were so upset by the comment. It might also help to suggest that should there be a problem with your work in the future, it is discussed with you face to face, rather than written down in a book, probably for all to see.

Either way, I hope start to feel better soon. Mel.

Answer 2

Honey you are on track. Please remember that anti-depressants need time to work. They are not a quick fix as they need time to get into your system. Some do work quicker than others but I do not know what you are on. We all do strange things when we are depressed and your work should acknowledge this fact. Take your time and things will improve ok. X