Please Help! I think I am having a breakdown?

Question

I have been suffering with some form of depression practically my whole life. I have had times where is was worse than others and times where I almost thought I was getting better. Just recently I have been having problems. These problems are nothing like I have had before. I have been very edgy and paraoid. I have been terrified that someone is going to break in our house, kill my husband, and then rape and kill me. I have had that feeling for a few weeks now and it is starting to cut into my sleep. I have had a hard time getting to sleep because of that. I have also just started a new job and for no reason at all I have felt like I am walking on egg shells fearing I will be fired. I have not been there that long and I know that they are going to give me time to get in the hang of things since I am so new but I fear getting fired. On top of that whenever people are talking and I am not involved I feel like they are talking about me and possibly plotting something against me

I have noticed that I have been taking things the wrong way alot. Like last night I asked a girl at work if she could make a copy of something that I was supposed to have at my desk and when she said she would do it before we left for the night I took it as she hated me and did not want to do it and was tryin to get out of it. I have also noticed that I am getting more and more paranoid driving in the car with people around me. If there are only a few cars I can handle it alost better but if there are more cars around me I get very nervous. I am getting worried that I am going to have a breakdown soon if I do not get some kind of help. I currently do not have health insurance but have been looking to get some so that I can go see someone. Is there anyone out there that might be able to give me some advice?

Answer 1

call some counseling services in your area they may have a sliding scale that you can afford or your local churches even if you don't go there for their services they might be able to help lead you in a direction for the help.

Answer 2

This is a difficult one. You obviously need some therapy of some kind. You are totally paranoid almost to the point of being psychotic. You are riddled with anxiety for which you can get medication to help you. You are lacking in confidence, and don't seem to trust anyone. You perceive things in a different way to everyone else which leads me to think you may need Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. You must go and see your doctor, or as you say you will have what you call a nervous breakdown when you cannot carry out even the simplest of chores without being scared. No one is plotting against you, that is just your illness making you feel like that. PLEASE see your doctor and tell him/her all this, and I'm sure you will get some help.
Good luck.

Answer 3

Honey, I too have the same trouble that you do. I lost jobs because I thought I was zeroed out for things I didn't do. Thought people were talking behind my back etc. So I stayed at home 99% of the day and night. I felt that no matter what happened outside the world I was going to blamed for it. I would have mood swings that I could come up with the most brilliant ideas or fall into a pit and uncontrollably cry. Yes I thought of killing myself if it wont for my kids I definitely would have done it.
After a total melt down and a nice ride to the hospital a doctor diagnosed me with Bi Polar or manic depression.
Please don't feel alone believe it or not there are allot of people out there who are the same but cant figure why they feel this way or misdiagnosed with plain depression.
There are care link centers that will be more than willing to help you. And don't think that they have enough people bothering them that is what they are there for and to care for your well being.
Good luck Be safe And smile help is on its way for you....

Answer 4

You need to clam down and relax. Try to listen to nice music and drink some water. You need to find someone or doctor to talk about and identify the real problems. Stop worrying and start thinking positively. Everything will be fine. Take a deep breath and tell yourself everything will be fine. What that is happening now is temporary hope you will get well soon. Always look on the bright side of life.

Answer 5

sounds like you are having panic and anxiety attacks. take a deep breath, calm down and focus. My husband has problems with anxiety a little and he's on 2 prescription meds. Klonopin and Risperdal. If things get really out of hand before you can make an appointment to see a physologist, call the hospital E.R. and tell them that you need to speak to someone right away.

Answer 6

Wow, i am reading your situation and feeling a lot of it. I have different situations, but a lot of the same feelings. I did go to see a doctor, and let me tell you with out insurance, (I don't have any), it has cost me $2000, and I cannot afford to continue getting help. Also, if they put you on meds, like i have anxiety attacks, which sounds like you might be having the same, for three weeks worth of the meds, it is $90. so hold out if you can. Try looking at your diet. Are you eating right, I know what you are thinking, and just go with me on this. Try eating more raw fruits and veggies. Just stay with me, cut out a lot if not all of your red meats. Keep some protein in your diet with nuts(in moderation, best if you eat almonds), and try eating fish or chicken for a meat. I actually started this about 6 wks ago, to try to lose weight, to help with my depression, and food binging, and well, I have lost 16 pounds, which i needed to lose and I find myself feeling better. I won't say i don't have my moments, but I work out, for just 30 minutes a day, even if it is just walking, and have that time to clear my mind. I also have a sleeping problem, the doc said to just take one to two benadryl before bedtime, and it works, plus it is not addictive and cheap. If i take one, i get groggy, two will put me out in about 15 minutes. Also, try keeping a journal, this was recommended. IF and when you do seek help with a doc or councelor, this will help them understand what you have been going through. One other thing, if you are not a spiritual person, maybe it is time to find that part of your life. I am not saying you need to start attending church regularly, but I have found that just sitting down alone and talking with my God, helps me vent to just the right person, and not someone who will hurt me. He listens and I feel better. These things can change your life. Maybe speak to a minister in your religion, or if you don't have one, well, find peace in deep breathing, and clearing your mind. The job situation, well been there done that, and let me tell you if you work with women, and get along with men better, it will most likely not go away, or if there is a age difference in you and most of the women at your job, you are going to have to find common ground or your fears will come true. Try getting to know people better, have lunch with a few people, you are a new person entering their domain, make yourself available for them to get to know you. becareful not to be too open, make them feel like they are getting to know you when really you are getting to know them. kind of like getting to know your husbands family for the first time, you want to make a good impression while finding things that you have in common. Try bringing in treats to work, like bagels or maybe a munchy that you like. It will be a warming jesture and help people open up to you. Good luck, and hang in there. A new job is hard, and hopefully this advice with your eating habits and what not will help with the nitemares. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Answer 7

sorry you are having such a hard time right now
Go see your pastor or doctor either one or both might have something to help you
I vote for the Pastor though
Consider all the great things about your life rather than dwell on those things that you cannot control
we are not promised a perfect uneventful unchallenging life so enjoy the life you have right now

Answer 8

You should get help. This is not normal, you obviously have anxiety issues. Go to see a doctor, and he may perscribe medications to help you.

Answer 9

go to www.webmd.com , type in your symtoms and see what they say, but also, maybe you are bipolar...depressed one day, happy the next, or major depression! go to the address i just gave you and check it out!