Really strange, violent, self-harming mood swings?

Question

Every so often, I mean once every day or two, I get a really violent mood swing when I literally go crazy, I scream and throw stuff around and self-harm, cutting and headbanging, and most of all, I don't know the reasons for them. I feel nothing during them, only blind boiling rage. I could be listening to Nightwish, all calm and relaxed, and suddenly my head is like the cuckoo's nest. Deep down inside I know someday I'm going to snap and kill someone. I'm a 16-year-old girl and have been on antidepressants for two years- please don't just say "see a counsellor" because that does nothing for me.

Answer 1

Maybe Borderline Personality Disorder? I have a friend who has this and goes through those 'mood swings'. Like I'll be talking to her and she is all calm, and then the next thing I know she's screaming at me, cutting herself, freaking out, ect. She's very violent... It's kinda hard to deal with. I know you don't want me to say 'See a Counselor', but I don't think much else can help you. If you are scared you might do something to yourself or someone, you need to tell a friend or a therapist. If you ever need to talk, please email me:

eileenprince @ sbcglobal .net

I can even give you my friend's email if you wish to talk to her (since she has the same).

Answer 2

I don't think many here will be able to help you to be honest. Are you proud of your behavior? I never heard of your headbanging symptom. That's pretty interesting. Who do you want to kill? Strangers? Friends? Family? Most females want to kill those they know if they have a serious problem. You may need to do more than see a counselor. You may need to be institutionalized until meds get you under control. You are OUT OF CONTROL! That can't feel good.

Answer 3

If you don't like counseling, I know it feels horrible to depend on other person for being well, discover new authors from your choice, try to read, learn new words, new languages, new cultures, new music groups try to find in that learn you are too young and there are lots of things to learn, try to find the plot twist of life.

Go to India with nothing material, and find out how people like you fight for the life without any resource, and think for what do they fight, and return to your country and you will see a different panorama.

Answer 4

r u angry wif urself over something that u never really get over with? that hidden hatred inside u might be tryin to find a way to find a way to exposed itself out. Try to love urself and dun stress urself out with ur moods swings. might be the hormones that's changing but u seem too young for it. consult the doctor for areas like mayb ur menses or hormones changes etc... last of all, love urself as what you are and u feel better. take care.

Answer 5

check into meditation- it helps you get a grasp of mind and body, and its something you can do privately. it really helps to maintain a level, or at least a happy medium of daily living- you dont need to go to a class or have a teacher, search on line or go to a library for a good beginners book-- ilove it and my life is much happier because of it. ps- nobody has to know, some people dont understand

Answer 6

i have the same problem. Everyone just says im bipolar. Go out and do stuff with your friends as often as possible. Thats what helps me

Answer 7

hormons stress deprestion of maybe even a mental conditon im pretty sure i have were you can bad mood swings and you want to hurt yourself in what ever way possible i used to cut and starve myself because i wanted to feel pain

Answer 8

You gott move those feelings and see what's driving them. My sis does and I, in a slightly different way, do that stuff too. Self hatred, buried anger.