Im 18 & have 2 months left in high school but starting to think i never really lived it enough. I was well liked & things looked good all the way thru 8th grade, but then once a fresh everyone kinda was thrown into the mix, & i distanced myself from a lot of people (mainly girls) who went for upperclass guys particularly a girl i liked who didnt like me & i held grudges on her & some of her friends.) I still played soccer, basketball, & baseball & had many friends/happy. Soph yr i lost a lot more self conf cause got sick of basketball after being cut, then the LAST ONE cut from baseball. I became more stubborn, didnt talk in class, & decided to forget sports & many people & focused on things like nature & finding meaning. That made me get cut from soccer jr yr, but not unhappy cause i it was hard to make, & ended up having a good yr, w/ more confidence/social/talkng & things looked up again. However, i practiced all summer & couldnt play soccer this yr cause of inj & (more below)
2007-02-28 07:37:32 · 2 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
although i still was happy thru the fall cause of a new sr yr, i noticed that i didnt really talk in class at all & once i failed to meet a new girl i liked (it blew up) in Nov, which i blame on bad luck, & not making the team subliminally hurt self conf to talk (& got very flushed/red always), & since then i was very unhappy. Most of the people i was reaquainting w/ last yr i didnt have motiv to talk w/ this yr, & now i have regressed this yr. Now i am starting to realize that i was trying too hard all along, & should have stuck to being me w/ self confid like i used too, & now i want to leave being that cheerful, funny, outgoing kid i know i am. But i can only regret not trying out for soccer (could have been rescheduled), i could have been on vars baseball too (remember soph yr i could have been manager but became stubborn from sports politics), & could have easily been friends w/ those girls & people if i didnt try so hard, & now my bro(college) dont talk. What can (more below)
2007-02-28 07:45:14 · update #1
i do now to restore what i want, & not just end up leaving as the scared, blushing person who was shy, & leave w/ the way i was coming into high school, & still was in 9th, 11th, & early 12th grade?? i just feel i tried way too hard & lost my rel w/ brother & only can think wht could have been (friends w/ all those people, plus vars soccer & baseball which i really always loved, but now i feel i just ran from all those problems). I thought just one day it would all come together, but now thers no time left. i was thinking of still trying out for baseball, but that teams basically picked & being cut wouldn't help the cause. most people r sick of school & ready for college, while im not ready to be done yet (btw its not that bad, i still have a lot of people i talk to & continued to play basketball & soccer outside school, but i REALLY think i had everything it took to be a very influential, liked person, & i feel not everything came true. is it to late to leave my real mark?what to do?
2007-02-28 07:52:03 · update #2
yeah, it is for sure you are suffering from "oh-crap-highschool-is-over- now-real-life-kicks-in" syndrome. don't even worry about it cause all the junk is behind you now. go to college study hard, play hard, make friendships that actually last a lifetime!
and believe me on this (i'm 32 and i've been there and doing it allover again) those people who are in college and are clinging to who they were in high school can't get over the reality that the stuff that was very MAJOR then, doesn't mean crap in the real world!!
2007-02-28 08:23:30 · answer #1 · answered by Bio-student Again(aka nursegirl) 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
your kind of freaking out because highschool is over and its a reality check that your future is right ahead of you. You can't go back and change things you didn't do in highschool, but instead put some of the things you wish you had done into positive goals for yourself, college is another chance to turn things around for yourself, and you can be involved with activitys there. When things go bad or your having some "bad luck" remember things turn around, nothing stays bad forever. Use this time to be driven to attain your future goals, and let your regrets be your motivation to get things done. :) good luck
2007-02-28 07:50:35 · answer #2 · answered by Kellie 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋