Is it only depression?

Question

I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and I am taking Wellbutrin and Ativan to control both problems. But lately I have had so much stress on my plate, I feel so overwhelmed like nothing works. I was only taking .5 mg of ativan a day, now I am taking up to six mg a day. I have been getting so upset and angry about every little thing, I cry all the time and feel so hopeless. Everything is going wrong at once, my boss and I are fighting at work so I hate going, I end up not going and my check is short so I can't pay my bills, my boyfriends' son is driving me crazy to the point where we both want to kick him out, but he is only 16 so we can't and on top of all that the IRS is trying to levy my check for an account that is over 10 years old, I owed 10,000 and paid it down to 2,000 and then stopped making payments over a year ago due to financial difficulty and now, they decided to levy my check, so if I don't get all this paperwork gathered up and faxed in by tonight they

go ahead with the levy and once my payroll department takes everything else out, like insurance, taxes, etc, my check will be for $22.00. That is right $22 bucks. Ha! If I get a check for 22 bucks I might as well lay down and die because I won't be able to pay for anything, I will lose my car, my apartment everything and then where will I be? I feel like I am going crazy, that is is too much to deal with and that even though I have so much to do and so little time to do it in, I just want to crawl back into bed and hide under the covers. Is this normal? Am I going crazy? What can I do to stop all this from happening at one time?

Also, I have been wondering if I don't have Bi-polar instead of just depression. I get so angry so quickly, like one second everything is fine and the next second I feel like a volcano about to erupt with anger.

How did my life turn out like this? Why and I such a loser? I have a good job, excellent family etc, but what is wrong with me? HELP!

I have been being treated by a Psychologist for 3 years and a Psychiatrist for a year. I am also seeing a primary for medciation when I can't see the physchiatrist. I am able to handle things 99% of the time, it just seems like right now the whole world is against me and I am falling short of the mark. I am not trying to sound like a victim, I just wanted some advice, thanks for those that understand.

Answer 1

Quick call a credit counseling service.....one that doesn't charge a fee Tell them your plight and they can help you get the company to work with you.
In Missouri it's Consumer Credit Counseling Service of the Ozarks,
phone number(417) 889-7474

Good Luck!

P.S. I'm there now with the anxiety and depression.

Answer 2

You may need to have your meds adjusted. Sometimes it takes some work to get the right dose and type of medication.

As small as this thought sounds, remind yourself that you need to live "ONE DAY AT A TIME". Get through today, for tomorrow may never come. This sounds petty, but I saved myself a ton of sanity by living by this simple rule.

And lord have mercy - CRY! Tears are good for the soul. Let it all out! If you can of course. There was a time in my life I was so stressed and couldn't even muster a tear to save the world if I wanted to.

Do you have a good friend you could talk to or who could help you gather the paperwork you need? "Venting" often does good as well.

Last (but really should be first) PRAY!

I wish you the best.

Answer 3

You need to talk to your health care provider that gave you the prescription. I know that depression and anxiety meds take up to six weeks to kick in to their full effect, so it may just take time.

On another note, I would suggest you look for a different job. I'm not sure what your situation is, but an unhealthy work environment is NEVER a good thing, especially when you spend so much time, there, you know? There are ALWAYS jobs out there, and you should never feel guilty about leaving an overly-stressful work environment. I did that recently and have never felt better about my life.

Good luck, and talk to your doctor.

Answer 4

you are searching for help, which is obviously a sign that you're not nearly as weak as you're given yourself over to be.

Remember, it's a good feeling to be frustrated. Frustrated means your brain is trying to solve a problem and rather than being satisified with the same old solutions that haven't worked in past it's still searching, searching, searching...

I also think you need to find a way to vent out against the feelings of being overwhelmed. When the world is crashing down around you it really does feel good to "crash back". I used to go driving until I got pulled over doing 139 in a 55 MPH zone. ;-/

Now I just find some kind of physical activity to do that allows me to beat the living hell out of something until I've broken it, or myself. I mean honestly give yourself over to it, total phsycial exhaustion... As silly as it sounds, there really is some truth to the phrase "exorcising your deamons".

Beyond that, don't self medicate on atavin, it absolutely is one of those drugs that the more dependant you become to it, the more ABSOLUTELY DEPENDANT you become to it.

Answer 5

Sweetie, you need to try and find something besides medication to relieve some of your stress. With all that is going on I think anyone would feel the way you do. I have been there myself. Try and pray or meditate. Trust in God that things will not and can not stay this way. I do not think you are bi-polar - you are a product of todays stress.

Answer 6

To begin with, you are not a loser! If you are only seeing a primary care doctor, you need to get yourself to a psychiatrist for the right diagnosis and appropriate medication. The psychiatrist can refer you to a qualified therapist who can help you with all your other problems.

Answer 7

Good GOD, woman! Get a grip. Medication is not going to cure your problems. Besides you are taking WAY too much Ativan. Taking that much will make you worse.

Get some therapy/counseling. You need to learn how to not react so badly to everything in your life.

Answer 8

First of all, Stop wasting you time and energy on this site looking for answers. You'll NEVER get the paperwork done. Secondly, lose the "victim attitude"
I've been treated as manic-depressive so I feel I'm qualified to tell you to WAKE UP-GROW UP and get down to taking care of business.....NOW!

Answer 9

oh my god, i almost start crying while i was reading your question. i used to have depression and anxiety and other problems that i don't feel like i wanna write here, you're in a very delicate situation and my best advice for you is to visit a doctor inmediatly. take care and if you want somebody to talk about all this and who'll really understand you write to my e-mail adress: [e-mail]

Answer 10

A financial planner can really help to reduce some of the stress. They can help consolidate your bills, etc.