*hmmm, a little help here*?

Question

i had an ed last year because i was REALLY depressed about my looks nd i would constantly put myself down about EVERYTHING. i have it this year (its bulimia, and im not a skeleton like those models. im not obese or overweight, just curvy and im also in my early teens) but i basically dont do it anymore. i still feel REALLY tempted to continue doing it cuz i was getting slimmer and i looked nicer (NOT skeleton either). but im really depressed on the inside and i put on a facade on the outside. im not sure if im depressed but i think i might have bdd. i constantly critique and put myself down abput stuff and i obsess over specific stuff when people tell me that nothing is wrong. DO I HAVE BDD AND DEPRESSION? should i tell my mom<---nobody knew that i had an ed except for my sis nd she never told my mom (im scared she might yell at me and send me into a deeper depression state of mind. ) what should i do about this? im scared cuz i keep considering suicide but cant ever go through with it

do i have depression AND bdd?

i DO keep a diary, bbut when iread over the stuff i write it just makes me sad...or angry. mostly because i think that i wasnt blessed with the natural good looks of my sister, i wont be slim enough to be well liked, the girls in my school are so lucky to not be me....etc etc etc. i just get depressed and i feel like im hideous just because i look different from everyone thats around me=[ last year i would cry ALL THE TIME and my sister told my mom and then my mom tried helping me but idk, not much changed, my ed just got worse. i told my dad that i wanted to be in therapy but i dont think its getting to him

IM NOT NOT BIPOLAR BITCHHHH

Answer 1

I think that the first step to solving your problem or even getting help for it is to tell your mom what's been going on. I know that right now that seems like such a huge risk, but I think that you should consider your sister as well in this situation. By asking her to keep you disorder and depression a secret, may cause trust issues later. Parents and guardians are put on this earth to help us and guide. And no they don't always do it the way we would like them to, but it's only because they love us.

Second, I think you need to figure out what triggered your disorder and depression? Did a major event, like a death of a close loved one cause this or what? Also, as part of this second step I think that you should certainly seek medical help. To think that you can battle this problem alone or without medical supervision is not wise. While you might not be skeleton skinny right now at some point you get that way.

And third, I think that keeping a journal or making a personal support group will help a lot. Journals are a positive way to get out depression and anger without doing damage to our bodies or others. Take the time to write down what is really upsetting you. And having people who you know are going to build you up and give you positive feedback is great too. You should always surround yourself with people who make you feel stronger and not weaker.

Answer 2

You need to tell your mother so she can get you some help. Builemia is nothing to mess around with i lost two friends to that and it's sad. Also everyone is there own critique but were the hardest on ourselfs. Your mom should be understanding it's not your fault it's the depressions fault. Please seek help no one should have to deal with this. And your sis should have told on you since you shouldn't be doing that. I hope you tell your mother. Good luck!!!

Answer 3

i know it's hard hang in there i battled anorexia for three years along with bulimia. i have suffered from depression for 10 years. the best thing i ever did was tell my mom, she took me to the doc and talked to him with me she still helps me get over bad times just hold your head up things will be ok as far as getting over an eating disorder believe in yourself and become happy with your size count how many times people say your pretty don't blow them off say thank you then tell yourself that you are pretty you will get to where you need to be hang in there
good luck and best wishes

Answer 4

You must remember people can die from bulimia!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bulimia#Consequences_of_bulimia_nervosa
plz dont! Remember you are a beautiful life and you dont need bulimia to tell you that. remind yourself you are beautiful.

Answer 5

yes u need to talk to a doctor about getting u on medicine to make u better.