I often think about suicide!?

Question

Although I don't want to die, I strongly believe that one day I will take my life. I just find life so hard and tiresome!!

Answer 1

There are lots of resources available to people who are feeling suicidal. You don't have to be actively planning a suicide attemot to benefit from talking to someone and getting help.

If you think that it might help to talk, you can contact the Samaritans on 0845 790 9090. http://www.samaritans.org.uk/

There is lots of advice and information about suicide at: http://www.supportline.org.uk/problems/suicide.php

There is also lots of information about depression at http://www.supportline.org.uk/problems/depression.php#

If you feel at risk of harming yourself , you can go to Accident & Emergency - they have staff on duty who will be able to help you.

You do not have to cope alone, if you want to talk to some pick up the phone.

Life can be very hard, especially if you are suffering from depression. There are things you can do to help though, there are steps you can take to make life a little easier. If you haven't already, I strongly urge you to speak to your doctor, he will be the best person to advise you on steps to take, and it may be worth discussing medication and therapy.

If you want any more advice or to talk, let me know.

Answer 2

Hi there,
I know exactly how you feel and have the same belief a lot of the time. Not so long ago i was very suicidal, I still think about it a lot but don't have as much urge to act on it as i have done in the past. Life is really hard when you don't know what to do to make it any better and it often seems like there is no way out. People who haven't experienced it really can't comment, or give complete understanding because you have to have felt it to know the feeling of complete and utter desper. I know other people have recommended help websites etc so i wont do the same..however the Samaritan email service is very good and I would recommend that. I just want you to know that the feeling doesn't always last and as soon as you get the help you need (it may not always come from doctor...or professional..although trying these is a good first step) you will start to feel better. Do something that you think you will enjoy and when you get a moment of happiness try to remind yourself that these times can happen, if you let them.

I do think you sould see someone about your depression, I don't personally think doctors/mental health professionals always have great answers but that's just my experience and at the moment I have made myself see a counsellor and she has been lovely...so sometimes even though its hard you have to keep fighting to seek the help that is right for you, it may not happen on your first try..but it might.

If you want to email me at any time to talk feel free, I hope you get help and feel better soon!:)

Answer 3

There are people who are trained to help people like yourself, all you have to do is make the first step which i know can be the hardest part but once you have done it you'll fell the benefits soon after. When i was betwenn the ages of 15 and 19 i took paracetemal overdoses all the time when i'd had too much to drink, thinking at the time i wanted to die but soon realised that wasn't really what i wanted. It was a cry for help, i was very lucky there was no lasting damage to my liver and i now have a better life in a realationship with a beautiful little girl. Just think, you could try it and realise you don't want to do it but it could be too late. Seek professional help and good luck, i hope you see that nothing is worth ending your life for. Just take every day as it comes. XxXx

Answer 4

Sounds like you need some counselling mate, life is hard and tiresome for all of us, just close your eyes and think of something good that has happened in your life and you will cross all the hurdles.
I believe that only God has the right to take life and in my religion it is said that if you do commit suicide you will not be entered into paradise, no matter what you've done on earth.

Answer 5

It's not uncommon for humans to worry about their own empowerment, even threaten themselves with it. As an "extreme" example research "Obsessive/Compulsive" disorder on wiki or even "Pure Obsessive". (Note: I'm hacking these terms out, please take the time to find the specifics).

Unfortunately, when you contemplate suicide you are also inducing further stress by imagining "the end". This creates Post-Stress Syndrome, which if mismanaged can be VERY dangerous. It is the "backslide" of your fears.

You truly should consider professional help or at least value the power you are imagining by protecting it. Another comment suggests that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. I concur.

Seek change if what threatens you is that dire. And seek counseling if you feel change is impossible or need more support.

Otherwise, it is a human tendency to worry about bad things, especially the ones we do to ourselves. "I smoke too much." "Will I do drugs?" "Why do I want to self-destruct?"

I think our culture has over-stressed the issue of self-improvement. It's a good thing, but takes time. No one gets to the top of the ladder IF comparing their progress to others in excess.

Be kind to your darker thoughts. Maybe you really are trying to be Super instead of "you". Draw a picture and throw it away. When counting blessings - always start with your own breath first.

Life is very complex these days. Give yourself more credit just for being able to type, surf the net, and or having sense enough to voice this message. But likewise, hear the inner voice, the one that says, I really DON'T want to die.

Once in a chatroom I was asked "why shouldn't I commit suicide?" My answer was because I need to know my own hope is worthwhile.

Keep your hope in front of your fears. Realize you are testing your strengths when you test your fears. Aim for the strength. Don't oppress yourself nor let others do it for you.

Answer 6

I've just spent 5 days on a psychiatric ward after spending a week planning my suicide. I reckon that if I hadn't asked for help then there would have been a 80-90% chance I would have taken my life at the weekend. Luckily though, I asked for help, told them truth and used the time in hospital to put some perspective back into my life. I feel a lot better now and know I can tackle the depression and it will be worth it even if it is very hard. Please ask for help and keep shouting until you get it.Take care

Answer 7

Why is it so hard? Why is it so tiresome? What is so hard? What is making you so tired? Can you stay away from those things? Can you change it? Isn't there anything good in your life that's worth preserving? There might be something real cool that is gonna happen tomorrow, do you wanna miss out on that?

Answer 8

Thoughtfully reading the following, many have reported finding much help for the dilemma you describe:

A Cry for Help
- Soon--A World Without Despair!
http://watchtower.org/e/20000915/article_01.htm

You Can Find Help
http://watchtower.org/library/g/2001/10/22/article_03.htm

"Will God Forgive Me for Feeling This Way"
http://watchtower.org/library/g/2001/10/22/diagram_02.htm

How to Find Real Happiness
- Think of Your Spiritual Needs
- Keep Your Life Simple
- Happiness and Self-Worth
- Hope--Vital to Happiness
http://watchtower.org/library/w/2001/3/1/article_02.htm

Hope--Where Can You Find It? :
- Does Hope Really Make a Difference?
- Why Do We Need Hope?
- You Can Fight Pessimism
- Where You Can Find REAL Hope! http://watchtower.org/e/20040422/article_01.htm

Advanced Search (can be used to find future-modified URLs) http://watchtower.org/search/search_e.htm

Answer 9

Life is rubbish often, but you never know what will be around the corner. For years i hated life and myself and i truly believed i would be better of dead. Now i have two lovely daughters a fantastic partner and have nearly finished a degree and wonder why i ever wanted to die. Your life is worth something you just havent found out what yet, give it a chance you will.... think of those who are worse off than yourself yet still happy and wanting to live life to the full!

Answer 10

I'm 30 years old. When I was a teenager and even in my early 20's I thought of suicide quite often too. And I had moments when I thought I could do it but then I thought about all of my family and how it would affect them. I thought of what my life would be like in years to come and how I would miss out on many things. Thank God I didn't do anything about my thoughts. Now I have 3 beautiful little girls and I wouldn't trade my life or them for anything in the world. Things will get better for you. Just remember to focus on the good things in life and dream of what is to come. You really can make your dreams come true.