This sounds stupid...?

Question

But I was thinking of calling the suicide hotline. But then I thought I don't want to be hospitalized. I stopped going to therapy 5-6 months ago and threw out my meds. I feel sick and want to throw up. Everything around me has speeded up. The worst thing is that I don't even have the guts to do it. Everyday that goes by it seems that there is nothing worth living for. Everything is just pointless. I just want it all to stop. I wish I would go to sleep and never wake up. Can't focus on anything. My head hurts so bad that I think its going to explode.

So if I called the suicide hotline and said these stuff would I be hospitalized cz I don't wanna. I just want to talk to someone.
I was in therapy for 3 years but it didn't do anything.

I said 3 YEARS...
not months...

I'm a grad student.
Have alot to do but don't feel like it.

Answer 1

What u need is friends, good friends who easily connect with u and bring more meaning and happiness into your life. U need projects to work on, projects that bring happiness to humanity, and where u feel useful and wanted. If the friends are also involved in the project, it becomes like a big and happy family. U will get into the mainline and have a jest for living and will start fearing death.

Answer 2

I work for a crisis/suicide hotline.

You cannot be hospitalized against your will and no one working a hotline can make you go. Your call is confidential.

When you speak with a person on the hotline they will assess your suicide risk and talk about helping you make a plan for getting through the night. Sometimes during that planning period they might suggest a hospitalization. It is only a suggestion. They won't be mad if you say no, but they will express worry if they truly feel you are in danger.

I encourage you to call, and I hope you can find some peace this evening.

Answer 3

You need to taper off of your meds with the assistance of your doctor. Throwing them out sounds akin to cold turkey withdrawal, and in that case, no wonder you're feeling the way you do.

Try another therapist. The one you had obviously did you no favors. And yes, please call the suicide hotline, they are supposed to be anonymous. Do NOT tell anyone else that you are feeling this way UNTIL you speak to someone from the hotline.

Here's why: my parents had the police come to our home to talk to me when I expressed suicidal thoughts (this was years ago, when I was living at home), and instead, the cops took me to the county mental facility. It was pure hell, and my parents never in a million years meant for it to happen; they simply thought the police were going to talk to me.

In California, your family can have you committed. Now, if you attempt suicide, then by all means you should be taken somewhere to deal with it, but I was - like you - merely contemplating it.

The hotline can give you excellent referrals, and/or direct you towards alternative treatment if you don't want to go the therapy route again. Hypnotherapy worked for me, as did an exercise regimen and taking better care of myself (more sleep, less caffeine, etc.). Hypnotherapy is not only hypnosis; my hypnotherapist also listened to my problems and discussed them with me, and from my first visit I felt more relaxed and positive.

While you're at it, try posting on Medhelp.org (click on one of the community forums to the left of the page and post). It's free, and there are nurses, physicians, and others like yourself who are there waiting to help you, anytime. Even reading other people's posts can make you feel better. I had very bad anxiety, but there is a silver lining, so don't give up!

I'll be thinking of you.

Answer 4

I know how you feel. The mental pain is so great that you think there can be no relief. I was there 40 years ago. Fortunately I went to a psychiatrist ( my GP docs didn't really know why I felt SO bad) . It turned out that I did spend a month in a psych hospital but I did recover. For me the meds worked (I tried several before one worked). The daily group therapy helped but the meds were what worked for me. I still take them in low dosage. I firmly believe there is a difference between male and female minds ao you may take a different road to recovery but the road is there. You just have to find it. Forty years later I'm glad I did.

Answer 5

No; you won't be hospitalized simply because you call a suicide hotline. As for therapy, three months isn't nearly enough; I strongly suggest starting back. If the meds weren't working for you, rather than throwing them out, talk with your doctor/psychiatrist about changing them to try to find something that works better for you. Medication isn't one-size-fits-all!

Answer 6

First you shouldn't have just stopped your meds cold-turkey. That is not good for you. No wonder you feel funny. Go to your doctor and get your prescription refilled. If you want to quit then quit under his guidance so he can monitor you.
If you are suffering from depression then your counselor should have told you that sometimes depression is caused by a physical condition. If this is true for you then you probably will need to me on meds for the rest of your life. Since I suffer from depression also, I can tell you that this is highly preferable to feeling depressed. Depression is horrible. I never want to go there again!
You don't have to go back to counseling but you really need to find out which medications are right for you and how long you should take them. Go you your doctor and have this checked out as soon as possible.

Answer 7

it's not stupid to call the suicide hotline...but you know if you're on meds, don't throw them out after only 5-6 months, you have to give them more time than that to kick in. i wish i had better words to tell you that you cannot give up on life...you only have one life...do everything you can to get help for yourself. maybe therapy didn't work...what kind of therapy was it? group, private? you are worth a better life, a better state of mind...you HAVE to know that you CAN get better. i really really hope that you don't close the door on the possibilities that are ahead.

Answer 8

Where you are coming from is where I was earlier today.Screaming pain,loneliness and that beat before you try feeling.You can always make someone Else's day better.It is not much , but you can hold on to it.You have a gift to the world.Try to find it again.I know it is there.Once you get to death there are no other options.At least try to imagine a world you could be happy in and it just might appear.

Answer 9

i know how you feel i went throught the same thing. trust me i came out of it with no help. find someone to talk to about your problems but tell them not to tell you what to do. or tell you to find help. just tell them to listen. when you do this you get it out. when they talk to you you feel even more sad of like somrhting is wrong with you. and sweety there is nothing wrong with you. its normal to feel sad. then go to a place where you are alone and write down on a paper ,5 years from now where you want to go? anywhere in the world. where you would go?. start saving for that trip. as the money you save grows you think more and more about how fun it will be to have that day when it comes it give you something to look forward too.

Answer 10

NO they will not hospitalize you....They are there to talk to you and help you....I suffer from major depression and i quit taking my meds and felt like you did......I realized it was hurting me and the people who cared about me so I went back on my meds....with depression it takes time .....PLEASE do not hurt yourself you have a purpose for being alive.....call the hotline it will make you feel better:)