What am I to do with myself?

Question

Am I mental? What am I to do?

Recently I've lying a lot. I told my professors that have mental disorders that prevent me from focusing during class. Well I can't focus, but I'm exaggerating things. I've been telling my classmates that someone close to me has died and that things are too overwelming for me. Lies. I do get down sometimes, but these days I'm trying to avoid things. I create lies so that they pose as a distraction. Distraction from the stupid, lazy, unsympathetic person I have become these days. I just don't care, but I'm afraid of the consequences. I guess I'll come up with some more lies. I don't want people to know the real me. These days I'm not into college or anything else. People are beginning to think I'm a cold ***** and I don't want that. I'm usually very sweet and honest. Blahhh.

I do talk to a school psychologist.

I don't have a friend to vent to. They are too unstable to help me. Oh soo lonely.

Answer 1

I am not sure how old you are. But sometimes we see our lives in a certain way and when it is not going that way or looks like it never will, we kind of give up in our minds and start avoiding people and life situations.
Nothing is fulfilling anymore and there seems to be no escape.
So we start making up things to avoid people and situations so we don't have to deal with it.
Im sure were and still are a great person. But you need to sit down with yourself and analyze when and why this started. Did something happen that made you give up, something traumatic? No one can do it for you, you have to figure out why it started on your own. (and you probably know when life became unfulfilling, you just have to figure out why it started when it did) But when you do that, I would suggest discussing it with a close friend or with a counselor or psychologist. Sometimes other people can shed new light on it for you, especially people who know you and you can trust, and they know what your about and how you were before you started feeling like this, and have known you for a while they are the best people to ask for help. I don't know if this helps, but I just went through something similar, but it happened after a devastating blow in my marriage, and it kind of took my whole world off balance, and nothing seemed to matter anymore and nothing seemed to make me feel better. SO Im just taking from my experience.

Answer 2

big lies, get you caught out. forcing you into more, and bigger lies.

tell the truth, if you can't manage that , keep the lies simple and close to the truth. You don't get caught out as often if you can remember your lies.

But you are better to tell the truth, if you tell as many lies as you say you have told, takes imagination. Try using it, write a book, a song, a poem, draw something if that is your thing.

Do something to make you like yourself a little more,
what do you like doing, on your own to relax

find one good friend, to know all the truth, and nothing but the truth no matter have much it hurts, even if it is a penpal of some kind.

don't want to preach or sound toomuch up my own.....you get the idea
But do something , anything that makes you smile or laugh at least once a day. . see if we can make you feel good... laughter helps

Answer 3

Only you know what to do with yourself. Either continue down your path of lies and avoidance, or become free of the lies and feel some joy.

At least you are aware of what you are creating, so only you can decide to change your pattern. I get down too, and what works for me is to reach out to someone and vent so I can then move forward to being happy again.

Answer 4

are you telling lies to grow?
or to become famous?

which is more important: telling more lies or becoming more conscious?

which works better: lying or telling the truth?


there is a problem with lying a lot
there is a problem with lying more and more

the more you lie, the more you lie and the more lies you have to care for
the more you might lose
is it owning the lie or being owned by the lie?

but if you give up lying, you can give up spending your life taking care of all your lies


try being still in order to discover your inner security

if you have inner security, you will have what you want anyway

also you will be less stressed,

and you will live longer

Answer 5

On the surface it does sound like clinical depression, which sometimes leads to people creating "situations" in which they are relieved of stress or make them the bequeathed of a lot of sympathy and attention. Becoming someone you wish to be is hard work and takes a lot of dedication but you need to see to your mental well being.

Answer 6

I'm the same way. I tell my friends that I have a girl even though I never did, I just lie to them so that they wouldn't say that I'm a loser. But whatever, just care about school and do your homework, take car rides, those help me, listen to music, sing along with the music (if you have a good voice like me), kidding I bet you have a beautiful voice. Go to "bored.com" it helps. I guess that's about it.

Answer 7

Why do u think your teachers are professors? Because they are not only smart they know human behavior.So sweetheart don't think your fooling them.Your not.They have heard every story there is.The only person your hurting is yourself by lieing.People know when others lie.Especially when they do it alot.Plus how is anyone suppose to get to know the real u if your making up all this crap.Like I said you are only hurting yourself.Good luck

Answer 8

i'm in college dealing with stuff too. talk to me darling [e-mail]. try also calling 1800 lifenet to talk to someone who can help . also try www.metanoia.org, www.asktheinternettherapist.
com, also try counseling in ur school. good luck. i know the feeling. stay strong. try also www,holisticonline.com for stress management. and also www.stress-solutions.com. and also www.time-stress-management
-training.com.

Answer 9

everyone has bad phases-it's probably just anxeity building up, it becomes a lot to handle. you can beat this-keep things in perspective and think before you talk (before you talk HONESTLY)

only you are in control of your own life

Answer 10

Get counseling now before you really mess things up