Based on what I wrote, do you think I'm depressed?

Question

And the worst thing is, two hours ago i was happily having fun along with all my friends at Kate's house.
Whao, wait a minute. Friends? More like, long-time acquaintances. Do i have any friends? I'm willing to bet that i'm going to get so few comments on this, i won't even need to scroll down.
Hopefully so, though. Because in a few hours, i'll go on facebook and see this, and decide it was the stupidest thing i ever did just writing this. It's a sad state of affairs when if i don't think writing something is dumb at the time, when i look back at it i'll think it was dumb that i ever wrote it. If i don't write this, though, i'll just explode some other time, and probably at some other acquaintance. Then i'll ruin one more "friendship", and it will actually be one of the stupid things that i do. See, i won't be able to delete that before i post it.If i actually even post this, and anyone actually cares enough to read it, that's one more stupid thing for the book.
That's the first half

Does it really matter? Does anything really matter? Really. Does anyone care what happens in that messed up head of mine? I just think i'm pathetic. But i can't even trust my own judgement on that, because i know how low my self-esteem is.
Hay, at least i'm capitalizing the first letter of every sentence in this note. I must really care about what i'm writing, to put that much effort into it.
Of course, to the singularity of people that read this, of course they don't know me well enough to know how pathetic i am. I've never been in any sort of relationship, and i'm just filling the IB spot of someone who actually deserves to be in IB. I don't even care about my grades, because if i did, i would just have to hate myself about that too. Last year, if i got a C on a french test, i would have bene sad. This year, a C on a french test is something i strive for and consistently fail to get.
Last year i had hopes. Last year i had dreams....

This year, a C on a french test is something i strive for and consistently fail to get.
Last year i had hopes. Last year i had dreams. This year, i know we're going to get back to school on tuesday and i'm going to fail the VDS, government note quiz, and whatever other **** the teachers had to give us but i still don't care.
And probably, whoever reads this isn't going to care about what i'm saying. In fact, the most interesting part of this thing is probably going to be the fact that i said the word "****". They'll be like, "Wow. I've never heard him say that before." And that will be it.
I'm not looking for pity here, because i know i'm not going to find any. That's the sad truth about life: no one cares.

Answer 1

Ok, the thing is, you're feeling sorry for yourself. I guess you might be depressed, but you seem to have just given up on yourself. And you're saying you don't care, and that you're worthless, and you try to come off like you don't want anyone to help you. But the fact of the matter is, you wouldn't have spilled out your guts to the world if you didn't want someone to help you. You've been given the gift of life, and what you decide to do with it is up to you. I've survived Leukemia twice, and I'm recovering from a bone marrow transplant. I value my life greatly, I love myself, and I strive to achieve success. I think you just need a new perspective on life. Starting today, try to have a goal in life. Try to get good grades, because it'll get you nowhere if you fail on purpose. I hope you have a more happy attitude in the future.

Answer 2

I think it is possible you are depressed and you should seek help from your GP. I know personally about depression and it can feel as if nobody cares and you wonder if there is a purpose to life. well let me tell you there is light at the end of the tunnel,(sorry about the cliche).You should try and find someone to talk openly to,a member of your family, a friend or even phone the samaritans. They will listen if you just want to have a rant and won't judge you.Please don't think there is no purpose to life , you only sound young so you can do such a lot with your life. Don't worry too much about exams, they are not the only solution to lifes problems. My youngest son suffered a period of depression after being basically written off in school, we found out later he is severely dyslexic,he is now in his final year of uni doing a business degree. So you see there is hope for us all. Please try and speak to someone and don't feel you are on your own.

Answer 3

No you don't need to go back and think this is the stupidest thing you wrote. You have to find out!Second yes things really do matter. This sounds some what like depression so why don't you go to a doctor and talk about depression because it can manifest it self in so many ways but it does sound like you could use Prozacs. Give it a try and if you don't like it you can always stop taking the pills. I strongly suggest for you to take the pills for about 3 weeks before you stop. You would never believe at how many people could really use them, but yet never seek a doctor to get them all because they don't want to appear week. Before things get worse go and see a doctor. Then once you start taking the pills you should start caring about your grades, this will take about 2 weeks.

Answer 4

Feelings come from thoughts, and thoughts can be changed, controlled. You need to change your focus from you to someone, something, anything else. Get a life! Get a hobby, get a dog, get outside, read a book, get away from the computer. If you want different results, you have to do different things. Depression is a black hole that can suck all the energy out of you. If your friend is truly your friend, you should be able to patch things up. Myspace and Facebook are too impersonal. You need face-to-face, eye-to-eye contact. There are two things that are going to surprise you. The number of people who don't give a rip, and the number of people who do. Good hunting!

Answer 5

Hello my name is James. Tell me about it. I am like you. Evens. Nothing makes sense. Nothing. So be it. I like you though. I think you are an indigo child. Look it up. You are definately not as bad as your head tells you. Think peace peace peace. Drama peace. Life oh what a frivolios word. Oh hum deary deary. I succumbed. Ye ha. Oh forget it. Soon you will be happy. Soon is not a lenght of time. It is a promising eventual satisfactual. Sing songs and write everything down. I f you go mad its because you care and you will keep on caring and I will be there for you. God will be there for you. I promise.

Answer 6

Please read Richard Carlson's book You Can Be Happy No Matter What. You are letting your pessimistic (negative) thinking get the best of you. Your thoughts are just thoughts. You are the one who determines their significance. Thinking is a function of your mind...an ABILITY that humans have.

Per Carlson, negative thinking in the moment leads to negative feelings in the moment which leads to a negative mood. Then the negative mood leads to negative feelings in the moment which leads to negative thoughts. The reverse is also true, positive thinking in the moment leads to positive feelings in the moment which leads to a positive mood.

The trick is not to try to think positively, the trick is to just think positive thoughts. When you find yourself thinking negatively, start DELIBERATELY thinking about SOMETHING YOU LIKE Focus on that until you feel better (usually only takes a couple of minutes). For example, I keep a list of topics in my pocket and just use that, like I recently saw the movie The Queen and I really liked it. So I think, I liked Helen Mirren's performance, I liked the story itself, I liked the historical element of it, etc, In a few minutes I FEEL BETTER.

Answer 7

That's not quite true, I bet. I'd stake my wage that you have at least one person that cares about you in your life. Could you speak to anyone you know about how you feel?

I think it's definitely worth speaking to a doctor. Maybe the stress of your falling grades are getting to you more than you think.

Answer 8

Yes it matters where else could you have as much fun and as many trips as planet earth....CHILL OUT!!!!and you won`t be depressed if you do Yahoo answers on a daily basis it`s better than Prozac

Answer 9

I think you are the only one that can decide this.

If you feel depressed or upset, talk to somebody - a family member, friend or counselor maybe?

Answer 10

um.....i dont think you're depressed, you're just pessimistic...like, "oh yah, im just gonna go fail that f'ing s*** "
well.....u r WAAAAAAAAAAAY 2 pessimistic, look on the HAPPPY SIDE!!!!!!! its hard 4 me 2 b pessimistic, im waaaaay 2 happy...every1 says so..hope i helped!