Does this count as wanting to die?

Question

Sometimes i go into my room and sit there on my bed and wonder what it would be like if i was gone.
Then sometimes im driving my car and speed up really fast and want to let go of the wheel and see where it would bring me.

tonight for instant my paresnt and my boyfriend all knew i was upset nad they didnt know why.
my boyfriend asked and i told him nothing.
my parents just called me a B!%#h.
I want to tell them that im pregnant but im too scared too.
i want to tell my boyfriend too.
im 18yrs old and dont knwo what to do.
I hold a knife in my hand sometimes wanting to cut but then again something is holding me back.

Do i want to die or am i just confused?

Answer 1

i think you are just very confused right now i think your first step is telling your boyfriend you are pregnant then after that maybe getting some help you owe it to you and your baby good luck!!!!

Answer 2

Maybe you're just stressed out and don't know where to turn. Were you feeling this way even before you found out about the pregnancy?

I can see why you would feel so alone- have you told ANYONE about the baby? You're young and this is a lot to deal with on your own. Maybe try telling your boyfriend first to see if the two of you can figure out TOGETHER what the best options are. I question how supportive your parents are if they literally called you a b****. If you feel that you can lean on them, let them in on this and find out if they have any good advice for you. Just TELL SOMEONE! It sounds like it's just too much for you to deal with on your own, so you should think of someone you can lean on and confide in that person. Also, be sure to tell that person about wanting to hurt yourself. It may just be from the hormones, or you may actually have some mental health issues.

Answer 3

You do not want to die, sweetie, you have just found yourself in a very difficult place and can't, at this time, see a way out. Please talk to the father of your baby and tell him that you are pregnant. Talk to some counselors at a Planned Parenthood clinic - they can help you or they will find someone who can. Everyone in their darkest moments, if they tell the truth, has wondered what it would be like to go to sleep and never wake up, so your thoughts are normal. Acting on those thoughts would be abnormal. Once you start talking to people - your boyfriend, a trusted friend, counselors - your load will lighten and you will discover there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You have a future and you are important. Things will work out, just keep searching for the answers. It is not your time to go.

Answer 4

Your confussed. pregnancy is alot to deal with if you don't have someone to lean on. A woman's harmones are so out of wack during this time that you almost sense that you are becoming sicotic. That in it's self can become overwhelming. Also please take into consideration: Stress is deadly for a fetus. children within the womb can sense the stress and can get brain and nerve damage as a result. Calm down. Breathe deep and take care of your self first and foremost for the baby's sake. Being pregnant will make you go crazy even if you are the most rational person that you know. Be careful. Your no good to the baby if you aren't here.

Answer 5

Wow, you really need to open up and tell someone you can trust your problems. You have alot on your plate right now and you shouldnt keep it all inside. I dont think you are confused i think you are smart because you want help or else you wouldnt have posted this msg. I dont know you but i do wish you all the best with your decisions! Make sure you tell someone close to you that you TRUST that is the most important part and remember that God has a plan for all of this and for some reason you are experiencing this issue at this time. Stay Strong! and NEVER give up !!!! Your lucky to be who you are!

All the best

Meesa

Answer 6

Please talk to a professional psychologist or counselor NOW! Please do a google search on suicide prevention in your zip code or talk to your school counselor if you have one. Get a referral and get face to face with a mental health care professional this week.

It might be best to not mention your suicidal thoughts to them right away because that could backfire. But you need to talk to someone who can help you put your situation in perspective and give you the tools to handle your situation. Stay away from anyone who wants to feed you antidepressants.

Why are you not letting your BF help you? Do you not trust him to be understanding? If that's the case, get in touch with the person you trust the most and tell them you really need to talk to someone and ask them to help you get set up. You really need someone to talk to who can help you work things out.

I know it seems that your situation is overwhelming right now, but you will look back on this someday as one of those times in your life that made you a better and stronger person.

You are a bright young lady and you have so many things to live for. If you decide to carry this pregnancy to term, the good news is that your child will be 18 when you are 36! At 36 you've got a whole lot of time left to have fun AND kick your career into high gear. Plus raising a child is one of the most life affirming and love filled experiences you will ever have. It's a lot of hard work, but you'll get a lot in return.

I hope I have helped in some way and sincerely wish you all the best.

Answer 7

You shouldn't want to die. It sounds like your living a pretty good life. You have a boyfriend and parents that are curious annd care about you. I think everybody goes through this stage in life but never admit it. You may be frightened by your pregnancy. I think it is just curiosity. I have wondered what it would be life if I had died.

Answer 8

If I were you I would go to a physcologist ASAP... OK about you wanting to let go of the wheel when you drive... what if you hit a family and kill all of them and walk away from it ...do you want to live with that guilt? If you are pregnant oh well it is a gift from god and you are 18 so get over it... have your baby and enjoy every minute of it. I f your boyfriend doesnt want it then that is someone you should realize doesnt want you maybe he should have put a condom on. Dont have sex if you cant handle the things that go along with it but it is too late for that so dont regret your baby love it

Answer 9

You need to talk to someone, fast. Family, friends, boyfriend, couselor, teacher, anyone. You sound seriously depressed, and it's not going to get any better unless you figure out a way to deal with it. Try calling the National Youth Crisis Helpline: 1-800-999-9999. They are trained professionals who can give you advice that you need and deserve, and they will completely respect your privacy, and listen to you. It's toll free. Call now please, before things get worse. Good luck!

Answer 10

tell them, holding it in makes it far worse. and take criticism if it somes. be able to rationalize whether it is good or bad, and learn from it. tell them how you feel, and grow from that. you have a child to think about now, and you need to be healthy for that child. stress is not healthy when it comes in huge waves. good luck :)