Please help, I'm going crazy.?

Question

Recently, I've been doing odd things. I'll look for every little hair on my eyebrow to pluck, I just plucked some flyaways, I constantly look on my face for black heads, I look for imperfections. Honestly, I just put so much pressure on myself, I put myself to down, that even when I'm not depressed, when I'm peaceful and happy, I wouldn't mind dying. Please help me. I mean, I'm taking antidepressants, but they aren't working! Am I OCD, too?

I'm 13. I think A LOT. I also worry too. I worry about what the popular girls think about me, what boys think about, what EVERYONE thinks about me. I think I'm ugly, I KNOW I'm fat. I just don't enjoy life and spend much of my time watching TV or reading just to pass my life. I have been diagnosed with depression, I'm currently taking anti-depressants, but I still get depressed, I'm not happy, I just don't see the point in living besides to help others. Lately, though, I don't feel like helping others. My dream is to believe in myself, believe I'm pretty and skinny, not care about those popular sluts, and just be content with life. I'm even going to my favorite band's concert soon and I'm not excited. PLEASE TELL ME THERE IS A WAY TO GET HAPPY!

When I'm at school dances, I refuse to dance{I can't dance} I try not to eat{I don't wanna look fat} and I constantly worry about my appearance and how others see me. I'm also doing badly in school. I used to be A and B student in 6th grade, but in 7th and 8th, I do badly. I studied 1 hour for a test and got an E! I don't even feel like doing anything, I just want to quit. Plus, the stress itself could kill me. I just wish I could drop everthing and go on a vacation. Even if I did, though, I'd still be worrying about things.

Answer 1

Sometimes medication isn't the full answer. You need therapy/counseling as well. You need to know HOW to live with your disorders. Start looking for someone who specializes in your disorders...they are out there...

Answer 2

You could be OCD; I think I have it too and I'm always doing things like picking and plucking to get all the imperfections off my skin.

And I'm sorry about all the pain you're going through. I might be understating by saying it sounds like you have low self-esteem. I was a lot like that when I was thirteen, and not much better now. So, I don't know the real answer I'm in a similar boat even though I'm older.

I'd say to try and fill your mind with uplifting things. What are some books, movies, etc that make you inspired, are full of optimism...there are quite a few little movies and such that I have come away from feeling pretty good about. Of course, it didn't last but sometimes I can still remember those movies and feel good.

These are kind of fanciful, but I REALLY like them, and I'm an adult.

Mirrormask, it's a fantasy/surrealist movie really. I would recommend it to anyone who's struggling with depression. It's fanciful and just kind of makes me happy.

Spirited Away, if you like anime movies. I really adored that one.



And I know movies aren't going to solve your problems...I don't think any one thing will solve anyone's problems. It's a mix of so many different factors and decisions.

Answer 3

Of course there are ways to be happy, you have to realize that you're the best, most perfect, absolutely irreplaceable YOU. I know you're depressed, but I still can't help finding funny the description "beautiful and skinny" - the word "skinny" describes an unhealthy, ugly characteristic. Skinny IS ugly. You probably aren't. But you do have a severe lack of self-confidence, here revealed in the fact that you even listen to the totally imbecile "popular" girls - in 99% or more cases, such hos end up married to a local car mechanic by the time they're 19 and have 5 kids & divorce after a lot of abuse by the time they're 25 - fat, hateful and stupid. People like you end up being doctors, professors and what-nots who really move the world forward, while the former "popular" kids ask you if you want fries with your food at a fast food joint. I am positive that doing something creative, especially making music, would pick you up & get yoou back on your feet - in fact, I started playing guitar whan I was baout 13 & that pleasure carried me through messy breakups, a war, two major migrations, a parent's death... so give it a shot.

Answer 4

No, not OCD, you have low endorphins, which is probably why the anti-depressants don't work. Those usually only increase your serotonin and don't do anything about your endorphons or blood sugars. Signs of low endorphins are self-harm, picking at skin or scabs, non-stop, negative self talk, feeling isolated, etc.
Food increases your endorphons (healthy fats like nuts for example) and other activities do as well- both negative (such as what you're doing) and positive (laughing, dancing, playing with pets) . By picking at yourself, you're trying to "self medicate" and raise your endorphons (though you don't realize it, that's what you're doing)
You're not going crazy; the antidepressants have just caused an imbalance in your brain and this is the result.

Answer 5

First of all you are a loved person. Your face is beautiful just the way it is. I know what is is to feel depressed. Talk with your Doctor. Also, have you tried getting some exercise? Take a long walk, Nowhere in particular just walk for say 20 minutes. do it every other day. See how you feel. You are loved by God. For encouragement, listen to ttb.org.

Answer 6

You're NOT going crazy don't worry.

Whats happening is very common for people you're own age.

Life can be tough cos at your age there's lots of competition and so on... O.C.D is caused by stress and anxiety.I know I get like that too. Stress and anxiety are VERY COMMON and they DONT mean you're going crazy, they mean you're an intelligent and sensitive young person who's having a tough time at the moment.

The best professional to help u is a Clinical pyscologist, your doctor can refer u to one.Also talk to any adult you're close to, mother father, aunt, granny,teacher.

Email me if u want anytime,I know what you're talking about.

Things will get better I promise

Answer 7

If the antidepressant don't work you have tell your doctor. I am serious.

If you have a good family doctor, he can take care of you. Tell him the med. you are taking doesn't work. I myself am taking effexor xr, and it works for me. I don't have a severe depression. Effexor works real good.

You really really need a professional help. Don't delay.
I don't know your financial situation, but meanwhile, if you have strong anxiety attacks, do what I do - take natural herb Valerian Root 500 mg (make sure it's not less that 500 mg.). You can buy it in GNC store or order online in www.herballoveshop.com. I use this website for my herbs.

Good luck to you.

Answer 8

A man goes to a shop, picks up a beautiful cup and says "my god this cup is so beautiful" and suddenly the cup starts talking to the man. The cup starts saying "O man, I am beautiful right now, but what was the state of my being before the pot-maker made me a beautiful pot?

Before I was sheer mud and the pot-maker pulled me out of the mud from the mother earth and I felt why that pot-maker is so cruel, he has separated me from mother earth. I felt a tremendous pain. And the pot-maker said, "Just wait." Then he put me and churned me, when I was churned I felt so giddy, so painful, so stressful, I asked the pot-maker "Why are you so cruel?" the pot-maker said, "Just wait." Then he put me into a oven and heated me up, I felt completely burnt. There was tremendous pain and I asked the pot-maker "Why are you so cruel?" and the pot-maker said, "Just wait."

Then he poured hot paint on me and I felt the fume and the pain, I again asked the pot-maker "Why are you so cruel?" and the pot-maker said, "Just wait." Then again he put me into an oven and heated it to make me more strong, I felt life is so painful hence pleaded the pot-maker and the pot-maker said, "Just wait." And after that the pot-maker took me to the mirror and said, "Now look at yourself". And surprisingly I found myself so beautiful.

When god gives us lot of trouble, it appears god is very cruel but we need patience and we have to wait. When bad things happen to good people, they become better and not bitter.

So all difficulties are part of a cosmic design to make us really beautiful. We need patience, we need understanding, we need the commitment to go through in a very calm and wise way. So all difficulties are not to tumble us but to humble us.

With this understanding, let us not be against difficulty. Understand difficulty is a part of a purifying process. A purifying process at present which we cannot understand and hence we need faith and we need trust.

Let us understand how to handle stress with this background. You can be affected by stress from two angles. There is an internal stress and there is an external stress. Nobody can avoid stress; one has to only manage stress. Managing stress can be internal and also external.

The internal stress is; your thoughts can create stress, your values can create stress, and your beliefs can create stress, meaning thereby your stress is coming from your mind more from the outer world. Many people suffer not from heart attack - they suffer from thought-attack.

For example, when somebody says you are an idiot, we get so hurt, we get so victimised. My boss has called me an idiot and I am feeling tremendous pain. Now where does this stress come from? If my boss has called me an idiot, I have to ask myself "am I an idiot"?

If I am an idiot nothing to be upset about; and if I am not an idiot, then also nothing to be upset about! It is the perception of the boss. But why do we suffer from that stress? I suffer not because my boss has called me an idiot but because of the thought-attack.

I may say the boss has called me an idiot; therefore I am suffering? It is true that the words are unpleasant. But what hurts is the interpretation of the unpleasant word. The thought in me interprets. That is pain and therefore it becomes pain. Much of our stress is our mind interpreting it as pain. So we suffer from thought-attack more than heart attack.

Answer 9

Your not going crazy, you need to talk with your Doctor about your medications. Sometimes it takes a trial and error time period to find the best medication for your body.

Please take a look at this link, it might help you to understand what to say to your Doctor.

http://www.mayoclinic.org/depression/diagnosis.html

Answer 10

i know what you going thought i a 13 year old and hear thing that are not there also i think ever sound is a robber bracking in