a question on cutting............?

Question

i used to cut when i was 10. it felt like anger was seeping out of my soul. but i stopped becuase..well i dont remember why, it was to long ago. but im 14 now and i thought i had things under control. but apparently i dont. earlier, about in october, i cut myself a couple times. but now, i cut myself again. i did it three nights in a row. (starting on tuesday). 3 slits across my wrist. i didnt know what came over me. i got really upset, and i though of my razor i keep. i was crying, but then i stopped. it was like walking through water to get to my room. i wasnt thinking. i got the razor and just gave myself a gash. and the same thing happened the next nights.(including tonight). i will admit that i dont have the happiest life in the world, but cutting is bad. it doesnt feel satisfying after all the crying is done. but i just dont know how to stop without therapy or somthing and i dont want to tell any of my friends. im afaid they wont want to be friends anymore.
thankyou
♥ dreamer

Answer 1

You're not alone, a lot of ppl (you'd be surprised on how many millions of ppl) do this as a way of releasing anger, sadness, overwhelming feelings that take over our emotions no matter what the cause. The comfort you say you don't feel after all the crying is over, is your guilt actually because you know you shouldn't do it but yet you can't stop. To stop, you either have to commit to it on your own or w/professional help. At your age, I wouldn't recommend telling any of your friends, ppl at any age who have never gone thru this or been around it, can't fathom what it's about. If you choose to go ahead and seek help, I wish you all the luck and hope you are able to fight the urges.

In the meantime, try this site - it's a forum for support and some insight. It helped me when I was at my most weakest, if nothing else, you might feel relieved to know you're not alone. Once you get to the site, scroll down to "self-injury".

http://forums.healthyplace.com/ubbthreads/categories.php

Answer 2

I'm 24 and used to cut when I was your age. I was really depressed and wanted attention. What I found really helped was writing. I know the feeling when you get the urge and how it felt during, but afterward, all I would do is cry and feel stupid. Thankfully my scars are gone now; I too knew cutting was wrong, which is why I began writing poetry...I wrote about everything...whether it made sense or not. Unfortunately, the two journals I filled with my thoughts that would have otherwise been scars, were thrown into a mailbox because of an enraged boyfriend I had....I never got them back...they did save me from a lot of pain though. You should at least try this, or find another alternative to getting your mind off destruction and onto something that can help you vent in a more peaceful way. I was into drugs, gangs, wicca, everything you can imagine at your age. Now, I am an honor's student in college, on my way to becoming a probation officer (I am not saying the poetry did it for me...it helped though..I am just saying that although happiness seems far fetched to you right now, know that it can happen, but YOU need to make it that way. Do what feels healthy to you, and know that you can do anything if you put your mind to it (as a D student, I never thought of getting A's...that is all I allow myself to get now). Life is too short to dwell in our hardships. Get better kiddo! you will/can be okay. Trust me.

Answer 3

Cutting is a very serious thing. I'm glad you realize it is unhealthy & that you want help. I can understand not wanting to tell your friends. They might not understand, but on the otherhand, if they truley are good friends then they could be very supportive & helpful. You will have to decide that based on the type of relationship you have with them.

As for why people cut, there are a variety of different reasons. The one I hear the most, & can understand, is that some people feel so much pain on the inside that it is overwhelming, so they cut themselves as a symbolic way of releasing that pain. Others often feel disillusioned with their life & the world around them, so they cut themselves to feel something real. Another reason for cutting is due to severe drepression & self-loathing. Some people cut themselves as a way a punishment.

All of these & the other reasons are very tragic, but they can be helped. Please seek out an adult you can trust & seek therapy. Pills aren't going to help alone. You need someone to talk to who can help you through this.

I wish you much luck. Know that you aren't alone. I hope things get better for you. You can get past this.

Answer 4

First of all if you're afraid to tell your friends how can they be there for you? If you are worried about them not being your friend, are they really a friend? You need to find some one to talk to. When you get angry. I use to be a cutter years ago too! It made me feel relieved of my anger at the moment but after it was over it looked horrible! My hands are scarred up from it and it makes me sad that I did that to myself but I had no one to talk too either! I was about your age too! Hit a pillow or start a journal. If you can write your feelings down it will make you feel better. I am now 32 years old. I have kept several journals and it does make me feel better after being angry. I cut myself really deep about 9 years ago and it scared me! I was afraid I needed stitches but didn't want to go to the doctor and I told myself I wouldn't do that again! Therapy is a good idea too! Best of luck and please stop cutting on your precious body!

Answer 5

You need to tell someone. Tell someone that you trust. A teacher, a parent, or a pastor, someone like that. If they are truly trustworthy, they won't tell your friends anything. It is very addictive. Believe me, I struggle with it everyday of my life. Don't give up. When you feel like you want to do it, take a walk or go over to your friends house. It will help take your mind off of it. Just get around people. You can't do it if you aren't alone. But, you also need to tell someone about it. Alot of times, it leads to worse thoughts and worse actions.

Answer 6

for all the inconsiderate morons who still wear their government issue blinkers, don't bother answering these types of questions. Is your life perfect? Do you have the courage to admit to regrets you carry? Dreamer, pay no attention to most of the short winded responses from the cattle. You are brave enough to submit the question, so now be brave enough to tell your friends, and perhaps you will find how similar many people feel. Live long, Dream on. Much love

Answer 7

hey,
Im 14 too. Last year, I used to cut and it didn't feel to dandy.
I felt depressed and emo and..bleck

It was mostly because of my mom who abandoned me for meth and people at my school teased me everyday.

I would skip school, go home and just sleep all day,
I was in this deep hole that I couldn't get out of.

My parents took me to counceling and it worked alot, I prefered a girl so I could talk to her about my..(well we won't get into details) but I got a boy :(

But after, he was really cool. I got better and most of my "depression" was because of not only my mom but my dad and step-mom.

Unfortuantly, my parents just stopped making appointments. I started (and still do) cutting. Let me tell you one thing, get a councelor, they help....

and you can tell them ANYTHING!!

I hope you feel better, because being emo isn't really cool....happy is better.

Answer 8

Well telling by my name i think you know what i do.I've been trying to stop for so long now.I do think you need therapy I'm glad you want it.I'm geting help too but i cut myself pritty bad to night.It's like when i cut I'm not me all I can think about is the pain I'm in.Don't wind up like me I've been cutting so long that I cant feel it so i cut deeper.I was 12 when i frist cut I'm 19 now. so stop now get the help you want.I'm glad you know cutting is bad thats good.Things will get beter.Good luck.....

Answer 9

If your friends are really your friends, they will still b your friends. I think you should talk to someone you trust. and try to figure out a way to get anger out. At least you realize the dangers of cutting, most who do, dont.

Answer 10

Life isn't perfect, everybody goes through tough times. There are ups and downs as you move through life. I'd have to say, I've used to be suicidal ... I was so depressed that the only way out I could see, was death. But, it takes a strong person to get through these tough times, by cutting yourself ... you are proving yourself "weak". Nobody expect, for yourself, can help you. It is up to you to search deep down for that strength we all have. All I can do is wish you "good luck" ... the rest is up to you. I hope you find yourself.