should i commit .................................?

Question

should i commit suic..... well tragic things happened during my childhood that i clearly remember. i am 18yrs old now. heart broken. i feel that no one in this universe understands me. feel all alone. also i have this weird problem of talking to myself for hours. i know this sounds weird but its true. i have thought of committing suic... but i guess i am a coward...

Answer 1

thats pretty heavy for a yahoo forum...theres no one around to talk to and discuss this with so here u r...its better for one on one, u can write me if u want....

Answer 2

I get a kick out of people who say things like get over it, cheer up its not that bad, don't do it, join religion, that's too heavy to talk about etc. etc. etc.
I think its healthy to stop excusing ourselves for things that we do wrong rather than taking the attitude that whatever I do is ok and who cares who I hurt?
Once in a while its healthy to do a reality check about what's important. Am I doing OK? Is there something wrong? Is there a good reason why I should end it all?
It sounds like you are a problem solver. I've had tragic stuff in my childhood too and yeah, every now and then I wonder if I should end it all, too. Then I found out that these feelings were due to a severe depression. Then I started reading a lot about depression and learned so much about it that perhaps it will help you feel better.
Depression is a neurotransmitter imbalance which makes you feel that no one understands, that you are alone, heart broken, a coward and other derogatory and negative thinking. A lack of Omega 3 causes depression. When the brain doesn't have enough nutrients it starts to malfunction in the same manner that if we are deprived of oxygen our brain also does weird stuff. People are often too uninformed to realize that you can't wish yourself out of a severe depression or think positive anymore than you could walk on the moon without a space suit. If a person has a heart attack, these people would say, oh you'll be alright. Just think positive thoughts and you'll be okay. Then the heart attack comes and well, they couldn't be more wrong in giving such dangerous advice.
The main thing I have learned is, don't act when depressed or feeling suicidal. Wait until it improves and try to motivate yourself to getting better by getting supplements to boost neurotransmitter levels and antidepressants if the suicidal thoughts get to the point where you want to act on them. Cure the illness first so that your brain will function well enough for you to really take a realistic look at your life rather than looking through the dark glass of despair caused by depression.
No its not insane to talk to one's self. In fact, the sound of our own voice often has a calming effect, helps us to rationalize what we are trying to understand, and it also is a bio-feedback methoud of not only thinking what you think, but also hearing it in order to listen better to where our thoughts are going.
Cowards do not question whether they should end their life. No, in fact, cowards think that whatever they do is alright and that they should never be accountable for anything. So you certainly aren't a coward. In fact it takes a lot of guts to take a realistic look at ourselves now and then and to be willing to follow through on what we discover.
The problem is, depression is making you think this way. Unless you deal with the physical illness and improve nutrition you are likely to continue thinking the same way until you get so upset that you do end it all. People commit suicide before they've really had a chance to get well enough so they can look at things as they are and not as they feel. Depression colours everything that you think or feel into colours of suicide. My suggestion would be to read some books on depression from a local library. Here's some that have helped me...

Answer 3

No way! Suicide is a very horrible thing to even think about. My uncle commited suicide and it is definately not a way out. It wont fix any of your problems because unless you face them..they are always going to be around. You are 18 years old and have a LONG life ahead of you. You havent even lived a quarter of it yet..it definately will get better. Everyone has rough times but the only way to make things better is to work at it. You cant give up...that wont make you feel any better either. And you might be surprised...there are probably a lot more people in thie universe or even in this country...that understand you more then you think. I definately have my days of feeling alone but then i remember what i do have...and thats a future and that makes me happy. Please dont give up...you will definately find people that will understand you more then you think.

Answer 4

Im pretty sure you were prepared for a total freak out from everyone on here. Well, im not everyone. Darling, we all want to die at sum point in our lives. I talk to myself. I am going thru family problems and have been heart broken many many times. Have you ever wanted help? If not, dont because that doesnt always help. Only go if you think you need it. You're not a coward. I can tell you the same thing I tell all my friends, You dont really fully and truly want to die unless you've made a tru attempt. Life is hard. If you ever want to talk u can add me to IM or email me. xxxbeautys_little_defectxxx or xrazor_at_my_wristx . we are pretty close in age and I am a cutter I will admit to you and i talk to a lot of my friends about things like this. I hope this was of some help. go ahead and feel free to contact me.

Answer 5

NO!!! I'm glad you are a "coward". Suicide is "a permanent solution to a temporary problem." The temporary problem is the pattern of negative thinking (and talking to yourself negatively?) that you have gotten yourself into. I hear you about the "tragic things" that happened in your childhood but you shouldn't dwell on them. If you do you may need help with a PTSD problem. Mentally forgive those who have hurt you!! I n any case the negativity you are indulging in is the first order of business.

When you have a negative thought like, "nobody understands me" it results in an immediate "down feeling". This in turn may result in more negative thoughts. Which results in a lower mood... etc. ad infinitum. You may eventually arrive at a clinical depression which is true if you are contemplating suicide. The thing you must do is to break this cycle of negativity.

You can do that in an emergency, like trying to commit suicide, by willing (forcing) your mind to think only about positive things. About things you like to do, or about people you love and who love you in return, or about an achievement that made you feel proud and got praise from someone. It is hard to do as negative thinking may try to slip in when you relax your concentration. Don't let it.

If you continue this your spirits should start to lift and when they do get rid of all reminders of your plans and set out to get help. Help is available. Call the local suicide prevention hotline if you really meant to do it. Call a mental health specialist like your local psychologist or psychiatric nurse. The hotline should give you some leads. Don't forget your family who you were planning to abandon. You are important to them. Get out of your room and mingle with people.

Good luck, God Bless, Peace and Love!

Answer 6

I know the pain of not wanting to live. I have lived with the symptoms of depression for over 30 years. Here are some of the things that help me NOT commit suicide.

I ask myself these questions.


Could I, in the future, make a positive impact on someone who is experiencing what I have in the past? Give them hope that life will be better.

Will someone not hurt them self because I was there for them even if it was on-line or on the phone?

Could my experience help someone seek medical help?

Could talking on the phone save someone's life when all they see is dispair?

I have done my best to help others because of what I have lived through. Without being boastful ... I have had 2 people last year tell me that me spending time with them online saved their life. It's a very humbling experience.

My surviving my own suicidal impulses saved lives. For without my input, they would have killed themself.

Answer 7

go ahead do it

ask yourself what is it you want the most

18 years in this world and you think you saw it all

we all live this way

pass a period of hate , ignorance , misery , pain

but remember one day if you will be alive there wont be any more
bad things which could happen to you

that day you can relax coz nothing more can get worst then things you passed through.

live your life

experience it all , good or bad

its a big adventure sometimes light sometimes dark

every night ends with morning and the light
may be few more years of this night
cowards sometimes hide and wait for the light

please try not to close your eyes

we all have same problems

this is life

Answer 8

You need to speak with someone about what's bothering you. I suggest you speak with your parents or a guidance councilor. I too have felt despair and hopelessness at times. I remember what why mother told me once when a boy from my school committed suicide. She said; "sometimes things happen in our life and we feel there is no way out, however, the bad things that happen in your life are temporary. Death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, never choose a permanent solution to a temporary problem." My parents are very wise, seek a wise person to discuss your problems with. You're not alone.

Answer 9

That's pretty heavy. Your 18 no its time to start taking care of yourself and killing yourself is not part of the program. You need to find somebody to talk to that can help you more that this forum. we all have skeletons in our closets. There are a lot of things that happen to people that affect their lives everyday. At 18 I would say whatever happened to you was not your fault. Change your direction, seek out help and guidance, make a path for those that are behind and seek out those that are in front of you, You can do this, All great people have strife in their life, overcoming is what makes life so sweet. Good luck to you, I wish you the best.

Answer 10

No, it never solves anything. Just leaves who ever is here heart broken and sad that you are gone.
As far as talking to yourself, well, we all do it, it's just that the most part we don't use spoken words. I am sure you have seen or heard of a person who is in a deep thought and you can call their name and they act like they are really out of it.
It happens to all of us. You are no different.

In your past, is in your past. Done with over and you survived it. Now you have memories of it just like any one has memories of anything bad. But the thing is you dwell on it as if it were still going on and it's not. You must realize that what ever happened happened and it's done with.
You learned probably a terrible lesson of life and one that should not have happened, but it did. And you made it! You survived it!
You are NOT a quitter!
Good for you!!!!!!
:O)
Jerry

Answer 11

I am 57 years old. January 26, 2007 I attempted suicide by taking a bunch of pills. I sent e-mails to several family members. My husband rushed home and found me lying on the couch. I was in the ER for 9 hours. I realized now that so many people DO love me. Nothing on this earth is so hard to accept or understand to have you attempt suicide. Please talk to your family about what is bother you. A priest or a minister. Your school counselor. Please I truly beg you NOT to do it. Open up to someone. Please!